Once it's gone
By
KerrianneLupin
Chapter two
Prongs
DISCLAIMER – Nope not mine
AUTHOR NOTE – Here's chapter two, I finished an essay today and this is my reward to myself, it just so happens that my reward to myself is a reward to you lot as well! Well as you can see it's James's chapter here, so enjoy it, I'll update as soon as I can! Not promising anything though I have so much to do uni work wise that I'm doomed for a while.
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Oh holy shit. I watched with large eyes as I saw Remus's body collapse, he fell off the back of the chair and smashed into the stone floor hitting his head violently on the hard surface then he lay there, extremely pale, a sheet of sweat still covering his face, his eyes were closed and his breathing seemed laboured. A puddle of blood started to flow from the wound as well. I stood there for a second in horror. What the hell was wrong with Remus? How could we miss it? We were with him all day how could we not see it?
I looked up to see Professor Flitwick bending down to Remus, one tiny hand going to Remus's slim wrist. I spared a quick glance at both Peter and Sirius; they looked as horrified as I'm guessing I did. Peter had a hand covering his mouth and was shaking slightly blue eyes wide. Sirius had gone as white as Remus, his hands were clenched into fists and his navy blue eyes were focused on the blood. I stepped forward bringing myself out of my daze. This was our entire fault; if only we had noticed something then we could have taken him to the hospital wing he would be safe in bed not on the floor bleeding and in pain.
"Professor" I was surprised myself at how weak my voice sounded, I coughed and tried again "What's wrong with him? What's wrong with Remmie? He'll be alright won't he?" I was pleading with him I knew that already, pleading that this mistake was nothing that Remus would sit up in a minute look around completely embarrassed and completely fine. I stared at him willing him to do that but he remained perfectly still as if he was sleeping.
"Not now Potter" Professor Flitwick snapped at me, he stood up and held his wand out saying a spell. A stretcher appeared by them looking spotlessly white. "Help me get Mr Lupin onto this" he said, I jumped forward instantly anxious to do something. I noticed Peter do the same, with the same desperate expression on his face to do something. Sirius just stood there; he had never ceased looking at Remus with the same blank expression on his face. I ignored him, Remus was more important at this moment in time, there would be time later to deal with Sirius, and he was probably in shock or something. I placed my arm round Remus waist and pulled him up like that, his head flopped back as if he was unable to hold it himself. I closed my eyes for a second, Remus would hate this whole situation he was always very keen on keeping his dignity in tact, probably because of what he was being a Werewolf meant he did things once a month that he hated this way he always appeared in control. A second arm came round to help and I looked round to see Peter, he met my eyes for a second and I saw the same guilt that was plaguing me plaguing him as well. Between the two of us we got him on the stretcher, within second redness stained the previous whiteness. I bit my lip. Remus.
"There you go Professor" I heard Peter say his voice barely more then a whisper and weak at that. How could someone as strong as Moony suddenly appear so weak?
"Good excuse me, I'm trusting you to be sensible while I'm gone" he stated levitating the stretcher, he gave a stern look at me, Sirius and Peter to indicate who he meant but I'd rather jump off a cliff at that second then to do anything
"Can't I go with him?" I said suddenly "So he knows he's not alone if he wakes up?" Professor Flitwick turned to me as he began walking and I saw pity in the warm brown eyes confronting me
"I don't think Remus will be waking up tonight, perhaps you can check later though" I noticed he chose his words carefully before he hurried out, Remus with him. A silence echoed the room and I noticed Paul Abbot, a Hufflepuff get up out of his seat and go to the door closing it before giving me a sympathetic look as he sat back down with his friends. I suddenly felt faint myself so I sat back in my seat probably heavier then I meant to. The chair next to me was pulled out and Peter collapsed down, linking his hands together and staring straight ahead. I glanced at Sirius and frowned he was still in exactly the same position staring at the redness on the floor.
"Sirius" I called out sharply, I saw his jump and look at me blindly, his eyes looked lifeless and he ran a shaky hand through his hair looking round the room at the people, some were talking between themselves, others, mainly the Gryffindors, were looking at each other worriedly all agreeing that Remus certainly hadn't looked good. "Sit down" I called to him, he nodded jerkily and slowly walked over to me. I pulled the chair out for him and watched him sit in it. A silence fell between us and I noticed through my haze that people were staring at us. Suddenly Peter spoke
"I don't get it" he said, he didn't speak loudly but it seemed as if he did. Both Sirius and me turned and looked at him, he turned and faced us, wringing his hands together "How could we miss it?" he demanded "How could we not see that there was something wrong with Moony? Surely we should have seen something" I ran a hand through my hair as I spoke
"We should of" I confirmed then gave a bitter laugh, "Now I think about he did seem bad today, he didn't eat at breakfast he seemed strange I mean Remus not eating breakfast? He's the one who always goes on about the importance on eating three meals a day, even at the time he tries at eats but this morning," Peter nodded
"He couldn't decide if he was hot or cold, I noticed he kept on going to take his jumper off then stopping for a while before going to do it again"
"And in lessons" I continued getting in the flow of the conversation "He kept making stupid mistakes, I remember thinking why would he get that wrong? How could he misspell that word" I bit my lip "I mean its Remus he doesn't make simple mistakes like that that and he's never ill except that the time, Moony doesn't get ill the rest of us do but he doesn't even get a headache normally"
"I just keep seeing him" Peter said with a shudder "When he looked like that before he collapsed, his eyes looked so ill, he looked like he was going to die or something" I went to speak when Sirius came to life
"SHUT UP" he roared at us, I stared at him wide eyed as did the rest of the room which had suddenly gone quiet, Sirius looked wild, his cheeks flushed scarlet, his eyes sparkling "Stop talking about Remus like that, he's not going to die" he gave a hard look at Peter who met it for a second before looking away with an ashamed look on his face "He'll be fine because he's Moony and because" he voice quietened and he looked away "Because he has to be" I nodded and placed a hand on the tense arm
"He will be because as you say he has to" I looked at the table "What would we do without Moony?" the other two didn't answer me and I didn't want them to. There was no answer, without Moony there was no us. Why didn't I realise that before?
A/N – There you go, Poor Remus and poor James and Sirius and Peter, it must be horrible. Remus never gets ill except at the full moon so this is a huge shock for them, the blood doesn't help either. Anyway please review but no flames if you would!
NEXT CHAPTER – Suggestions are always welcome and I do honestly consider them and often use them. I know a lot of you wanted Sirius for this chapter but I decided James was the better option. So let me know!