AN: thanks for the reviews. I still don't own GG nor the beautiful song "I love you" by Sarah McLachlan

oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away

and I forgot to tell you
I love you
and the night's too long
and cold here without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the strength to say I need you so

x-x-x-x-x-x-x

Thursday 6 pm – Lorelai's POV

After a stressful day at the inn I hoped to get a good night sleep at home. Since the night Luke walked out of my house I haven't been able to sleep. Coffee was no longer something I enjoyed but became the one substance to keep me up on my feet.
I walked into my house and heard Rory speak. I was surprised that she was there. As I walked closer to the kitchen I heard her words clearly...."...she would have faced her fears but you come back and she did the one thing she always does when scared....she runs away. Mom's doing all of this because you're the easy way out and not because she's in love with you. They broke up, they are both hurt and now Luke left town and won't return!"

My heart felt like it stopped beating for a moment and I didn't even notice the keys slipping out of my hand until they hit the floor. Chris and Rory immediately looked over to me.
I grabbed my keys off the floor and rushed out of the house.
I ran all the way to the diner, ignoring all the glances and whispers. My heart was racing and my head was spinning as I finally stood in front of the diner. The words "Closed permanently" burned into my mind. Some time later I found myself sitting in his kitchen without any real memory of getting up there.
I looked around the apartment. The bed was unmade, his closet door opened and some clothes were scattered on the floor. It seemed like he had left in a hurry. I spotted a box on his kitchen counter. It didn't catch my eye because of the word "trash" that was written on it but because of the familiarity of the one item looking out of it. I got up and walked over to the box. There it was, the grey shirt that I loved so much. The shirt was ripped in two places and smelled faintly of his soap and my body lotion. I used to wear that shirt everytime I slept at his place and now it was only trash. I looked through the other contents of the box and slowly tear after tear started to fall down my face. The cd's he bought for me after our first date, my favorite coffee mug, toothbrush, shampoo, an InStyle magazine, several candy bars and few other things that he had bought for me or I've brought over were in that box. After years of friendship and months full of happiness everything that was left was trash.

I pulled out the shirt and the cd's and walked over to the bed where I laid down. I hugged the shirt and the cd's close to me as I remembered the last time I saw Luke. We were at my house and somehow we found ourselves in a fight. It started about some trivial thing but from one moment to the other the fight got heated.
He accused me of playing house with Christopher and withdrawing myself from him while he watched from the outside. I got defensive and told him he was too jealous and nothing what he said was true. Our yelling just got louder. Some ugly words were said by both of us. Words that only had the purpose to hurt. Things were said that night....things that he tried to ignore, things that I denied. Before I realized it the words were spoken that ended everything.

"Well, if you feel that way than maybe we should end this madness!"

"Yeah, maybe we should!"

"Fine! It's over."

"That's it? It's over?"

"It's over!" – I yelled one last time. The look upon his face that very moment left me speechless. Luke stormed out of my house and slammed the door shut behind him. I stood there, rooted in the middle of my living room with my final words ringing in my head..."it's over. it's over. it's over. it's over."

The memory made my tears fall so hard that I could barely breathe and I clutched the shirt even closer to me. How could our wonderful relationship just go so wrong?

TBC