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Chapter Sixteen: The Walk

Sunset sailin on April skies
Bloodshot fire clouds in her eyes
I can't say what i might believe
But if God made you he's in love with me
Hey Kid..Do wishes count at all
Can you give me a sign..give me anythin I wont tell a soul you told
Hey Kid...Will you hold me when I sleep
Will you find me when the tide decides that I got to leave
Something inside me is breaking
Something inside says theres somewhere better than this
Sunset sailing on April skies
Bloodshot fire coulds in her eyes
I cant say what i might believe
But if God made you hes in love with me

I woke up to a strange feeling, I was warm and cold at the same time. I opened my eyes slightly, wondering why I felt this way.

It was like I was slathered in icy/hot and the feeling wouldn't go away.

(A/N- I had that once, I sprained my elbow...it was so weird...it was so hot it was cold...or so cold it was hot. It was odd..)

Lazily, I looked up and found myself still in James' apartment. I heard James' voice from the kitchen and I think another that was Remus'. I sighed and snuggled deeper into the couch.

Then it hit me. I remembered everything that had happened earlier and I jumped off the couch and walked into the kitchen to see Remus dissapparating and James standing, staring at the wall.

I walked over towards him and put my hand on his shoulder. He relaxed at my touch and turned to look at me, I could see tears in his eyes.

"Is Abbey...?" I whispered, not wanting to hear the answer if it had the word 'yes' in it.

"No...well...they don't know if she'll make it, Lily." He answered softly and I closed my eyes, willing my tears to go away so I could be strong.

"She's going to be okay..." I told him quietly. I wished the tears in his eyes would go away because it was like they were just taunting me so I would cry. But I wouldn't give in.

"How's Sirius?" I asked as James sat down at the table.

"Not good." James answered shortly as I sat down next to him.

I couldn't think of anything to say. Another thing that rarely happens to me. I always have something to say whether it's good, bad, annoying, stupid etc. I talk. It's just what I do.

"I think I'm going to go..." I said suddenly, feeling the need of fresh air and coffee.

"Where?" James asked, looking up at me. His face was full of concern and worry.

"I need to get out." I said, before apparating into the hallway, outside his flat. I knew he would've made me stay if I told him any more and I couldn't stay. I realized this might have worried him more, but Abbey and Nesie were the ones who we needed to be worried about, not me.

I took off walking and ended up heading towards a small cafe, farther down the street.

I opened the door and looked around. It was small and cozy, just the way I like them. Pictures of rock legends were put up at odd angles on the walls and it had kind of a homey feel to it.

I sat down at one of the tables and looked at the small menu.

"Hello dearie, what can I get you today?" I looked up to see an elderly woman standing over me with a notepad in her hand.

"Oh, a blueberry muffin please." I answered and she smiled warmly at me. I smiled, a small smile, back.

"You look familiar, have we seen you around here before?" She asked and I shook my head. I had walked past here once, but never walked inside before.

"Hm...well don't be a stranger. Your smile lights up the place. Haven't you heard the phrase never frown because you don't know who might be falling in love with your smile?" The woman asked and I shook my head.

"Hm, well it's one of my favorites. It's up on the wall there, next to my husband." She pointed to a picture of a man in an army uniform and I looked to the left of him, where, sure enough was the quote she just said.

"He's very handsome." I said quietly and she beamed at me.

"Thank you." She said, before walking back towards the counter and bringing back my muffin. She gave me one last smile before walking over to another customer who had just walked in.

I took pride in the fact that she didn't start a conversation with the new customer, just smiled and walked away. I decided I would come here again, soon. It was calming me down.

After finishing my muffin and paying for it I walked into the bathroom. I looked in all the stalls, making sure no one was in them before apparating to St. Mungos to check on Abbey.

I blinked and then here I was again. The exact spot I had screamed bloody murder and Abbey was taken from my arms.

I shook the memory from my head and walked towards the front desk.

"Lily!" A voice shouted from behind me and I whipped around to see Sirius waving me towards him. I walked over to him and threw my arms around his neck, giving him a supportive hug.

"How is she?" I asked as I pulled away from him. Sirius led me to a more secluded part of the waiting area and we sat down across from each other.

"She lost a lot of blood and she's on the wizarding version of life support. It's extremely complicated and I don't really feel like explaining...partly because I don't understand half of it..." Sirius rambled and I listened as he kept glancing to the doors that led to Abbey's room.

"How are you?" I asked quietly and he looked up at me sadly.

"Truthfully, I've never been more scared in my whole life." Sirius noted and I nodded, understanding what he was going through.

"But, you Lily. What's going on with you? James is looking everywhere for you. He's made himself believe you've left him or something. You need to talk to him, he's checking up on my every five minutes asking if I've seen you." Sirius said, shooting me a curious look.

"That I've left him?" I spluttered, amazed James would think me as low as that.

"Well, Lily, he's kind of shaky right now. You know, his parents, abbey, nesie...and now he thinking you've left him." Sirius told me and I nodded.

"Well I'll go talk to him now." I said, patting Sirius on the back before apparating back to James' apartment.

I saw him at the table, giving a letter to an owl. The owl flew off as James sighed and then looked up at me. His eyes flew open and he jumped up from the table, hurrying over to me.

"Lily." He mumbled, before pulling me into a hug. I smiled a little as he buried his face in my hair.

"Hi...you know James you shouldn't get so worried everytime I go for a walk." I scolded him and he frowned.

"How was I supposed to know you were going for a walk, you said you were going out. I didn't know where, I just knew out!" He exclaimed and I just shook my head.

"James! Lily!" Remus had arrived and was walking into the kitchen.

"Dumbledore thinks he knows where Anais may be..."

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The song is by Five For Fighting and I love it...doesn't really go with this chapter, but oh well.

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-A lesson before dying