Chapter 23 coming atcha! -yawns- I am sooo tired, so many updates in such little time. I had two updates on this story and then another update on 'why do you look like me?' last night!! It's pretty cooollll....

Chapter Twenty-Three- The Explanation

When I regained consciousness the first thing that passed through my mind was I hope I'm not in St. Mungos again. I mean the place is nice, but twice in two days is not something I want to achieve.

"Should we take her to the hospital?" A voice asked, making me open my eyes to protest.

"Lily!" I heard another male voice. I saw Sirius' face in front of mine and I groaned.

"See Sirius, I told you your face makes people want to throw up." I heard Remus in the background. I smiled at my two friend's playfulness.

"Ouch." I said as I sat up. Abbey, Sirius and Remus were all around me, watching me with worried eyes.

"Do you want us to take you to St. Mungos?" Remus asked and I shook my head. Abbey was stroking my hair gently. Remus pulled me to my feet and held me up for a moment so I could keep my balance.

"Thanks." I muttered, remembering that James had broken up with me before I had fainted.

"Wait...Abbey!" I exclaimed with excitement. She watched me curiously and a smile lit up my face as I grabbed her arms, softly.

"You spoke!" I yelled and Abbey blushed at the look that Sirius was giving her.

She shrugged and nodded her head.

"You SPOKE without me!?" Sirius asked, his mouth open in surprise.

"Yeah! She called my name right before...I fainted." I told them and both of their stares went from me to Abbey, who was flushing red like crazy.

"Speak again!" Sirius pleaded and Abbey rolled her eyes at the way her boyfriend was acting like it was Christmas all over again.

"Hi Sirius." She said quietly and Sirus jumped happily and pulled her into an embrace.

"Oh the pain!" She squealed and Sirius released her, scared he had hurt her. He relaxed when he saw the teasing smile on her face. He made a scolding noise and pointed his finger at her.

"Don't ever not speak again. I don't think we can handle it." Sirius said with a serious tone. (A/N-sorry I couldn't think of another word...)

"I'm sure." Abbey noted sarcastically.

"So, um Lily...why'd James leave so quickly? I saw him apparate away and then you call his name..." Abbey said, uncomfortably.

I lowered my gaze to the floor, with a sad smile on my face.

"Well, you see he broke up with me..." I said quietly and I could practically hear all three of their jaw's drop to the floor.

"But-Why would he do that?" Sirius asked, in amazement and anger.

"He had good reason." I answered sadly, sitting down on the couch. Remus sat down next to me and Abbey and Sirius sat in two chairs across from us.

"What happened?" Remus asked carefully, not wanting to hurt my feelings.

"At St. Mungos he thought he saw me kiss my healer." Lily told them.

"Did you tell him that you didn't?" Sirius asked and I nodded.

"And he didn't believe you?" Abbey asked me, doubt was evident in her voice.

"I told him he could either believe me or get out. So he left." I said, trying to make myself stay calm, at the risk of having to go back to St. Mungos for stress therapy.

"Oh." I smiled weakly at my three friends and decided a change of subjects would be a nice idea.

"So when is Anais getting out?" I asked, trying to sound happy.

"Not for another couple of days. They want to make sure she's fully healthy before releasing her." Remus told me and I nodded my head.

"I can't wait for her to be back. We can finally start living in our home again. Anais and I haven't had the chance to fully live by ourselves yet." Abbey said with a small smile.

"Lily, you have to talk to James." Sirius said and I looked up at him in surprise.

"But he hates me, Sirius. He's probably cursing everything I own right now!" I exclaimed and Sirius shook his head with a small smile.
"No. He's just confused and lonely. He probably hasn't even realized you two have broken up yet." Sirius said and I frowned, thinking about what he had said.

Maybe he was right. I had to try and win James back. This was my only chance.

I could see Abbey smiling at me encouragingly and I stood up.

"I'll talk to you three later." I said with a small smile and with that I apparated to James' apartment.

"Do you really believe what you just said?" Abbey asked Sirius and Sirius just shook his head with a smile.

"You are such a liar." Abbey scolded and Remus snorted. Sirius scowled at him and wrapped his arm around Abbey's shoulder, protectively.

"I'm glad you're talking again." Sirius whispered in her ear and she smiled, a small blush rising in her cheeks.

"I guess I am too." She said and with that Abbey and Remus became involved in a game of Exploding Snap while Sirius watched and cheered on the winning player.

I looked around as I entered James' flat. My heart was racing and I felt like my stomach was tied in a knot. What if he didn't believe me? What if he yelled at me again? What would he do if I fainted again, right in front of him?

I looked in the kitchen for any sign of James, none. I frowned, where could he be? I rolled my eyes as I came face to face with his bedroom door. To enter or not to enter. This was the scariest question I think I've ever been up against.

I went against my better judgement and pushed open the door.

I saw James with his back to me, sitting at his desk. I saw a ripped up picture on the floor, I picked it up and saw half of a girl with red hair and the other half was a boy with messy brown hair. I dropped it and watched it float to the floor. I knew James thought it was over. He had to give me one more chance. He had to give us one more chance.

"James." I said hesitantly, enjoying just standing in his room with him not knowing I was there. Now my stomach had re-tied itself and I was having trouble standing still.

His head turned when he heard my voice. I swear...it went in slow motion. I could see his face change from hopeful to sad to angry in a split three seconds.

"What are you doing here?" He glared at me but I could see through his shielded eyes. He was hurt and it was my fault.

"James, I want you to listen to me." I said, walking closer to him. My heart was beating faster as I neared him. I wondered if it could actually burst from my chest, it was pounding so hard.

"What if I don't want to listen?" He asked, still angrily but a little less harsh than before.

"Then you'll be regretting you didn't for your whole life." I told him, hoping he would listen to me.

"You have five minutes." He said and I sat down on his bed, he was watching me intently and I knew he was struggling to try and believe me. I could tell he wanted to and I knew I really wanted him to.

"I have an idea of what you think you saw when you came to see me at St. Mungos." I said, he opened his mouth to tell me what he 'saw', but I shushed him.

"I did not kiss my healer. I don't even know his name, James. He leant over me for the clip-board, he said sorry because he was smushing me into the bed and I laughed because I thought it was funny. I don't know really why...now that I think about it I must've been under some heavy medication at the moment." I said with a small, forced laugh.

"All I knew was that when I saw you leave from the door, my heart broke. James, I don't want you to break up with me...but if you still don't believe me then I guess I can accept that. No matter how much it hurts..." I said with a small smile, getting up from his bed.

"So I guess I'll be seeing you." I said awkwardly, turning away from him and walking out of his room.

"Lily! Wait!" I turned around and saw James jogging over towards me.

"There's something I want to tell you."

Bu dum dum dummmm...

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