Well I was going to be mean and not update tonight...because yet again it's late and I'm sleepy and my eyes are going fuzzy...then I'm like but....they're going to be sad....lol, jk. But yeah, I didn't update last night and I believe I told someone I was going to update everyday...so I LIED! But I figured I might as well update today so I wouldn't make them too mad. Hehe...excuses excuses....you know I just love writing the chapters...

-cough- course I do -cough- Lol, jk...right on with the story!

Er...one more thing. This song was supposed to go in the break-up chapter...but for some reason it wouldn't let me paste them, so here they are! yay! lol. The song is 'The Truth' by Good Charlotte.

Chapter Twenty-Six- The lie?

I want the truth
From you
Give me the truth
Even if it hurts me
I want the truth
From you
Give me the truth
Even if it hurts me

I want the truth

So this is you
You talking to me
You found a million ways to let me down
So I'm not hurt when you're not around
I was blind
But now I see
This is how you feel
Say it to me
If this was ever real

I sat down next to James at the table, after filling my plate up with pizza. Hey, Abbey said she wanted to cook and her view of cooking is heating up frozen pizza. So whatever floats your boat I guess.

"So, Lily, are you feeling better?" Sirius asked as he took a large bite out of his pizza. Five pairs of eyes landed on me and I felt heat rise to my cheeks as I nodded my head.

"Are you sure? You were out for a while there-" Sirius stopped talking as he tried to swallow the large piece of food that he had been chewing.

"At time I wonder why I fell in love with you." Abbey noted, watching Sirius in disgust. Sirius just grinned cheekily and kissed her cheek before taking another bite.

"Disgusting." Abbey pointed out and he merely shrugged before his eyes landed back on me. As well as Abbeys' and Remus and Anais'. James' never left my face and I scolded myself for not telling him of the little episode I had when he broke up with me. But I didn't want him to worry about me. Now he was going to freak out and be like 'you should've told me!' Blah blah...

I was brought back to reality when Remus' hand came in contact with my nose.

"Ouch." I leaned back and Remus grinned guiltily back at me.

"Sorry, you zoned out." He apologized and I slanted a delicate eyebrow in his direction.

"Sure." I said, before taking a small bite of my pizza, hoping someone would realize I didn't want to talk about it and change the subject. I didn't want James to get worried about me more than he already was.

"So, Lily? Details please?" Anais asked and I realized she was just as in the dark as James was. Both of them hadn't been there when I had fainted, and I was glad. Those two would've stuck me in a bed and wouldn't have let me move for a week.

"Ah, it was nothing to worry about. I'll tell you later." I waved it off. Anais watched me suspisciously, trying to figure out if I was lying or not. I lowered my eyes so she wouldn't see the truth. Finally Remus took the hint I didn't want to talk about it and he changed the subject.

"So...who wants to go on a picnic tomorrow?" Remus asked and Sirius and James looked at him as if he were crazy. But me and the girls positively beamed at him, which I'm guessing, was the idea.

"Great Idea, Rem!" I exclaimed, pecking him quickly on the cheek as Abbey clapped her hands together, happily.

"Remus...did you just ask if we wanted to go on a picnic?" Sirius asked, his mouth hanging open.

Remus blushed a little but I squeezed his arm encouagingly.

"Isn't that a little bit...girly?" Sirius asked and Abbey smacked his arm.

"A picnic is not girly! We could go in that little forest with the clearing...we could play quidditch and eat lunch and and stuff. It'd be fun, Sirius, I can't believe you think it's girly!" Abbey said, with a pout and Sirius sighed.

"Alright...as long as we play quidditch." He agreed and Abbey's smile lit up the room.

"What forest?" James asked and all three of us fell silent.
"Well?" Sirius and Remus prodded and we exchanged glances.

"Just this place we found...once..." Anais said lamely. Abbey and I nodded our heads to the excuse and the boys gave us curious looks before continuing to eat.

In truth, a couple years ago all three of us had been at a party near the forest. Abbey and Anais were drinking supposed punch, but I had a feeling someone had spiked it. Anyways, somehow they ended up drunk and they were running around the forest like idiots, with me chasing after them trying to get them home. They ran all the way and ended up in this clearing, where they collapsed. I finally found them and we ended up sleeping there. It was really pretty, we found out, the next morning. It had a little brook running through it and just enough space to play quidditch, Abbey happened to point out. It became our 'secret' spot.

"So...picnic tomorrow. We'll meet you at our apartment at 12:00, okay?" Remus asked and we nodded our heads.

The pizza was thouroughly devoured by Sirius and James about ten minutes later and we found ourselves back in the living room.

I stood up really fast to get some popcorn, but felt a rush of dizziness and stumbled.

Remus and Sirius jumped up and made to catch me, thinking I was about to faint again. Abbey was watching me concerned, looking like she was about to get up and help me. James and Nese just watched us in confusion.

"I'm fine you guys. Sheesh, I just had a headrush." I gave them a fake smile that they saw right through.

"Right Lily. You can't just lie to people to their faces, especially your friends and your boyfriend!" Remus said, looking a little hurt.

I looked at James who was watching the scene curiously, wondering what we were talking about.

"Does James even know?" Sirius asked and I winced, shaking my head. I braced myself for an explosion...I wasn't dissapointed.

"LILY EVANS YOU BETTER TELL HIM RIGHT NOW OR I'LL-"

"SIRIUS BLACK!" Another voice was raised. His girlfriends'.

"You let her explain." Abbey said in a dangerously quiet voice. Sirius was still angry, but sat down none-the-less. Abbey patted his knee, comfortingly, but kept her eyes on me.

I was the only one still standing.

"My healer said I might experience some chest pains if I had too much stress." I said quietly, avoiding the stares of my friends and my boyfriend.

"So..that night when you came over after I got out of the hospital, I, obviously, was kind of stressed and when you turned to leave my chest seized up and I couldn't breathe..." I glanced up at James who was staring at me, his mouth in a straight line.
I decided the ground was going to be nicer when I got to the end of the explanation and found I liked staring at it, instead.

"I yelled your name for help, but I guess you had already left or thought I was begging you or something and then I heard Abbey scream my name and that's all I remember before I woke up to them-" I pointed to Abbey, Sirius and Remus. "And then here I am." I ended my small little speech, wondering what James' reaction would be.

"You went unconscious?" Anais asked, breaking the silence. I nodded my head and I saw her eyes fill with tears. She hated it when her friends were in pain. This is why I hate explaining things that are just going to hurt people.

"Guys, can you leave us alone for a minute?" I heard James ask, still focusing on the floor. I heard everyone get up and leave, leaving just me and James alone in the room.

I looked up and saw him standing in front of me, looking down at me. I braced myself for a 'why didn't you tell me?' kind of thing but instead I was surprised.

He hugged me.

I sighed into his shirt, relaxing a little. I hated when James was dissapointed or mad at me. It made me angry with myself and the fact that he wasn't mad was calming me.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you before, I didn't want to worry you..." I whispered into his ear.
"You can tell me anything, Lily." He replied soothingly and I nodded my head.

"I know..."

"Don't be afraid that I'm going to get hurt, I'll always be here for you." James whispered into my ear, sending shivers down my spine.

"I know." I said again, looking up into his face that was looking back at me with concern written all over it.

"I'm alright now, as long as you don't threaten to break up with me." I teased as he tensed up.

"It was a joke, baby, a joke."

"I know." He answered, the tension leaving his body as quick as it came.

"I think I need to tell you about something though." I said, biting my lip. I needed to tell him about why I got so mad at him that day. He had the right to know, he was my boyfriend.

"I need to tell you what happened when I was taken." I said, hoping he wouldn't leave me when he found I had been touched by Lord Voldemort, the most evil man on the face of the planet. The bastard.

La dee dah...-is so sleepy-

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