Dum Dum Duuuum!
Will Abbey reveal who the father is?!! Oh the drama....
The song is 'The voice within' by Christina Aguilera.
Chapter 32 (forget spelling it)- The kid
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall, ooh
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly, ooh
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within
Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside, look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
Break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
(Be strong)
Just don't forsake it because
(No one can tell you what you can't do)
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
And like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
"What?" I asked, her words were still flittering around in my head but I just didn't seem to understand them. How could she possibly let this happen....I mean I know she had...you know...with Sirius but, hello, it's called PROTECTION!
"Lily, I'm scared...I'm still so young. I don't know how it happened, I mean we were safe!" Abbey said, wrapping her arms around her thin body as she began to shake. Hm, well at least I don't have to yell at her for not being careful. I looked at her as she stood in the doorway, I seemed to finally see my friend for who she was.
She wasn't the bouncy, energetic person she once was. Sure she acted like it with the joking and almost constant smiling, but if you looked at her closely, like I was now, you could see the subtle differences.
She was paler than usual, I had thought she just wasn't outside enough but now I knew that wasn't the reason. Her eyes never seemed to actually come alive, except when Anais had come home and when she saw Sirius. I would find her in her room staring at a wall, looking confused and lost but she would just joke around with me when I asked her about it.
Her eyes had lost their spark. They were dark and dull...Abbey had gone away the moment that she had been hurt and Anais was kidnapped.
"Oh Abbs..." I whispered, holding out my arms to hug her. She immediately stepped forward and sobbed into my shoulder.
"Do you know for sure?" I asked and pulled back, shaking her head. I smiled, painfully, and led her into the bathroom.
"I took the test but I don't have the guts to look at it." Abbey said, pointing to the counter where, sure enough, a pregnancy test was sitting unattended.
"Do you want me to?" I asked and she nodded, biting her lip in anticipation. We both knew we could be getting emotional over nothing...but what if she really was pregnant. It would change her life...all of our lives.
I took a deep breath and picked it up. I braced myself and looked down at the results. Positive. Shit, damn, shit. Well, maybe it wouldn't be such a bad thing. I mean, sure is going to cost a lot, but its a baby! I love kids....well most of the time. Maybe I could sleep with at James' flat and then come back during the day...
"Lily?" Abbey asked, forcing me out of my thoughts.
"What? Oh, right. I don't know whether to congragulate you or cry with you...I'll go with congragulations, you're having a baby." I said with a weak smile and Abbey crumpled to the ground in tears.
"Abbey?!" I yelped, getting on my knees to help her get up.
"What do I tell him?" She asked, looking up at with me as tears leaked out of her beautiful blue eyes, down her pale cheeks.
"The truth." I said gently, heaving her to her feet and helping her into her bedroom.
"Thanks Lils...Can you go get Sirius, so I can tell him?" She asked quietly, her eyes were focused on the picture of all six of us at graduation.
I smiled and gave her a quick pat and apparated to the guy's apartment to get Sirius....our new father! Dear lord please help me get through this.
"Sirius!" I called as I walked into the living room. James and Remus were sitting there chatting about something and Sirius wasn't to be seen.
"Funny. Last time I saw you I was your boyfriend." James smirked and I winked at him. Bah, stop it Lily, not the time! Your friend is pregnant for god's sake!
"Right then, where's Sirius?" I asked and Remus pointed to Sirius' bedroom. I nodded my thanks and headed straight for the doorway.
Sirius was sitting on his bed looking at a book when I came in. A book? Sirius? This was new.
"Since when did you learn to read?" I asked with fake surprise. Sirius looked up and stuck his tongue out at me.
"It's a photo album." He said as I sat down next to him.
"Oh. Well my theory that you can't read still stands then." I giggled as he pinched me. I looked over his shoulder and saw him looking at a picture of him and Abbey out by the lake at Hogwarts. It seemed like a post-dating picture because Abbey and I were grinning and pointing to two couples making-out and Sirius was watching Abbey.
"You really love her, don't you?" I asked and he looked up at me in surprise.
"Yeah, I do." He replied sincerely.
"Go and talk to her." I said, pulling him to his feet.
"Why?" He asked and I gave him a kind of 'duh' look.
"Do you actually need a reason to speak to the woman you love?" I asked loudly and Sirius laughed before leaving with a pop.
"My work here is done!" I announced thankfully, slumping onto Remus and James' laps.
"God, I'm tired." I said, closing my eyes as James stroked my hair and Remus pushed me off of him.
"What a friend you are." I laughed, pulling myself upright onto the couch. Remus smiled mischieviously and I instinctively moved out of his reach. I did not like the look he just gave me. Was that? Oh no! The tickling code! Remus touched his nose with his finger and tilted his head to the side.
I jumped off of the couch and sprinted to the other side of the living room before James even blinked.
"Don't even think about it, Remus Lupin." I said sternly as James watched us, amused.
But even as I was tackled and tickled mercilessly, I couldn't help but wonder if Abbey had told Sirius yet.
Back at our Apartment:
Abbey was sitting on her bed, tears still trickling down her cheeks. How on earth was she supposed to live with a kid? I mean, sure, she wanted kids in the future. Hence, the future! Not now! She loved Sirius and wanted to have children with him...again, in the future.
Abbey stood up and looked herself over in the mirror. She turned to the side and pulled up her shirt, admiring her stomach that wouldn't be flat for much longer. Maybe never again.
As she looked at herself she couldn't help but realize that she might actually like having a small child around the house. I mean they could be loud and messy and annoying at times, but they were so cute and loved to cuddle. She began imagining herself coming home and picking her child up from the crib. The small child giggled and grabbed a strand of her hair, while Abbey kissed their nose...
'Pop!'
Abbey gasped, spinning around to face a sheepish Sirius.
"Sorry, didn't mean to scare you." He mumbled and Abbey smiled as he stepped forward and kissed her lightly on the lips.
"What's wrong?" He asked and Abbey took a deep breath, ushering him to sit down on the bed. He sat, watching her with worried eyes.
"I'm fine...well I hope I am." Abbey whispered, tears of worry escaped her eyes and one slid down her cheek.
"You see Sirius, I'm pregnant." Abbey said, looking down, as sobs began to rack her body.
As she lowered her eyes, she missed the look of shock and then pure happiness that lit up Sirius' entire face.
And you thought Sirius would leave her?! Never!
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