Title: Last Night

Rating: PG

Authors: Jedi-JEB (Jennifer and Bethany)

Disclaimer: We do not own any of these characters nor are making any money off of this. This is purely for entertainment purposes.

Siri slipped out of Obi-Wan's arms, reluctantly. It was very late, or early morning, depending on how one viewed it. The sun would be rising in just a short time. She had fallen asleep in his arms; painfully aware it would have to end. She looked at him, sadness in her features. How could she just leave him? She loved him, and he loved her. How could she just leave him like this?

She had to though. She had to put aside her own feelings, and be the Jedi she knew she could be. Shivering as she slid out from under the warm blankets. She dressed silently, unable to look at Obi-Wan as she did. Force, this was all much more complicated now. Finally dressed, she knew she couldn't just leave without saying goodbye. However, she couldn't wake him up to do it. He would ask her what was going on, and she couldn't tell him. Also, she didn't want to see how upset he would be by this. She considered leaving him a holo message that he could get when he woke up. That idea changed when she saw paper and a pen on his desk.

She sat at his desk, pen resting on the paper as she looked at him. She forced herself to turn her attention to the paper.

Dear Obi-Wan,

I am sorry for what I have to do. I have to leave. It has nothing to do with last night. In fact, last night has made this even harder. It was the best night of my life. I have loved you since we were young. I was too proud and too stubborn to admit it. I also assumed you knew. I never thought you felt the same way. I only wish that we had told each other sooner. I am glad that we both finally admitted it. Better late than never. However, it is because of my love for you that this is so hard. Leaving like this is the hardest thing I will ever have to do. I wish I could stay. However, our duty as Jedi cannot be ignored.

Also, I will not be able to contact you, nor you contact me. I would do anything to make it so it was different. However, I know it cannot be.

I know our paths will cross again. I do not know when or where, but they will. I will return one day to the Temple. And to you. But until that time, I will be unable to contact you. It pains me to do this. I never wanted to hurt you, but I know this will. And for that, I am truly sorry.

Just keep this night in your memories. I will love you forever, Obi-Wan. I hope the Force keeps you safe, and brings you only happiness in your life.

Yours forever,

Siri

Once the letter was written, she placed it on the pillow she had been laying on just minutes before. She made sure it was clearly visible, so he would be read it.

She looked over at Obi-Wan and felt her strength waver. She had to go though. Not just for the Jedi, but also for all the beings she could save. She would go through much, but she promised herself she would come back as a Knight. He looked so much like a child for a moment and she knew that no matter what happened, how she felt about it would never change. Leaning over, she kissed him on the forehead, gently. "I love you Obi-Wan..." she whispered, then headed for the door.

She paused once more, looking at him. He looked at peace asleep like that. A peace she was sure had been missing since Qui-Gon's death. For him to look peaceful now mean that he would soon have that peace again. It was a slight reassurance.

With a sigh, she turned and walked out of the room, out of the apartment, and to her new life.

A few hours later Obi-Wan stirred awake and smiled as he woken up expecting to have Siri right next to him as he reached over to stroke her cheek he felt nothing but air and as he opened his eyes he found he was alone.

"Siri?" He asked looking around the room and looked down seeing the note and picked it up reading it. He never knew how quickly his whole heart could crash from words on a piece of paper. It did though and his heart breaking from it. It couldn't be true, she couldn't have just left him like this. Obi-Wan frantically got up and pulled on his pants and tunic and rushed out of his room and to the com and keyed in Siri's number waiting for her to answer. But there was none. He tired again, and again, and still no one answered. He just shook his head, devastated and pulled on his boots rushing out of his apartment to hers, which was down the hall.

He knocked and there was no answer. He knocked again and there was still no answer. Finally after a few more he went into the apartment finding it just as it was. No one was there though and he rushed to Siri's room finding it cleaned out. Adi's things were still there but Siri's things were gone. "What the hell was going on!" Obi-Wan exclaimed to himself and just left the apartment heading for the hanger.

He spent an hour looking for her in the Temple's six different hangers and she was nowhere to be found. He kept trying her com and there was still no answer. It was as if her whole existence had been erased.

This letter he held in his hand was the only thing he seemed to have of her but the way she wrote it. It was as is she was never coming back, and that worried him. He couldn't go through his life without her. Not now. He couldn't lose someone he loved again. He went back to his apartment and just stood at the door for a moment. He had never been in so much pain in his life. Even Qui-Gons death did not affect him like this. He loved Siri and now he had lost her.

And how she had written the letter it would be for a very long time. He didn't know how he could go on without her. Going into his room he closed to door and just started crying. He understood now. He understood why the Code forbid love. It was to protect them. Now he wished he had listened. No, he was glad he had not listened. This was a lesson to show him that love was not for a Jedi and he would always follow it. Always.

Only a few days later Obi-Wan returned to Siri's quarters and knocked on the door. He had seen Adi was back and was hoping Siri was with her.

Adi opened the door and for a moment a flicker of surprised crossed her features. "Obi-Wan, this is a surprise," she opened the door a bit more to allow him in. She knew why he was there, and knew the news she would have to tell him would be hard. Adi knew her Padawan was a good friend of Obi-Wan's. She had even told Adi how they had stayed up all night talking before she had come back so they could leave on their mission.

Obi-Wan came into her apartment and gave her a bow out of respect. "Hello Master Gallia. I'm actually here to see Siri."

Adi paused, a tired look on her face. "Siri is no longer here."

"Where is she?" He asked.

"She is gone," Adi answered vaguely, distain in her voice, that she found easy to place there. She had prepared herself though, as had Siri.

"Where?" Obi-Wan frowned.

"I don't think I should discuss that."

"Master Gallia please. She is my friend."

"Siri Tachi is no longer a Padawan at the Temple," Adi answered

"What?!" Obi-Wan exclaimed. "Why? Where is she?"

Adi gave him a stern look. "She is gone, as I told you."

"Where? You must know!" He gave her a desperate look. "Please tell me."

Adi sighed. She couldn't tell Obi-Wan the truth. But the lie would hurt him more than she wanted to. At least this soon after Qui-Gon's death. "She is not coming back."

Obi-Wan felt his heart fall as he looked at Adi, hurt. "Is she...dead?" He managed.

"To me she is," Adi replied after a moment

Obi-Wan stared at her again trying to figure her statement out. "Has she turned to the dark side?"

"It is close enough," she replied coolly.

"How?" He whispered, head hanging. "I just...saw her..."

"We spoke and words were exchanged..." she sighed shaking her head. She really was worried about her Padawan.

"So that's it? She's gone?"

Adi nodded. "It was her choice."

"Just..." Obi-Wan felt his emotions taking over and he just turned to leave. He couldn't handle this. Not now. He couldn't lose Siri too.

"Do you need something?" Adi asked him as he turned around. She could tell this upset him, but the Council had agreed this had to be a secret between Council members and Siri.

Obi-Wan shook his head as he left her quarters.

The trip back to his quarters seemed so long and drug out to the point where he wondered if he was even going in the right direction. He was in pain, a pain he had felt before. Loss. He had experienced much pain in his life. Yet this was even stronger. A nagging pain to where he felt himself begging to the Force to make it stop. His heart was tearing from his soul and there was no way to relieve the pain he was in. He had to live with it.

After what seemed like hours of walking, Obi-Wan looked up and saw he had arrived at his apartment, which he shared with his young apprentice. He looked at the name on the door, which read, Kenobi/Skywalker. It once had read Jinn/Kenobi, but since Qui-Gon's death and Obi-Wan's Knighting they had changed it. Obi-Wan still hadn't gotten accustomed to seeing it, but it seemed he would have to get used to many things.

Pressing the button to go in, Obi-Wan watched as the door slid open. He stood there though, just a bit long, before stepping in. He heard the door close behind him and felt relief knowing that the closed door allowed some kind of privacy, something he desperately wanted.

How could this have happened? Adi wouldn't have lied to him, so he could rule that theory out but how could Siri actually leave the Jedi? It was her dream to be a Knight, a defender of the peace and protector of the galaxy. She worked so hard for it and now she was just throwing it away?

He couldn't believe it. He couldn't believe that the woman he loved would do this, would leave the Jedi…leave him.

Then Obi-Wan paused in his thoughts. Him. He wasn't concerned for the Jedi he was concerned for himself. He was being selfish. He wanted Siri to stay for him, to be there for him, to love him. And he was angry for her not thinking of him.

She must have known she was leaving, came to say goodbye to him in the most intimate was possible. She must have really loved him then, to be that way with him.

It didn't matter anymore though. She was gone. She and Adi had gotten into a fight and this time Siri left, for good. Siri and Adi had gotten into many fights over their years. It was normal. Even he and Qui-Gon fought. Being with each other so much took its tolls on the Master and Padawan teams. Fights did occur but they were most often resolved. Obi-Wan had learned not to push Qui-Gon. When the Jedi Master said something, he meant it, and after a while Obi-Wan would not challenge him. Siri, however, wanted to challenge everyone and everything. She would show respect to the Master's but she still most often thought she was right and hated anyone to prove her wrong. If she kept doing this Adi might have thought it best to do exercises with her. Siri would have refused and stormed out proclaiming she was done with the Jedi.

Obi-Wan had a hard time imagining her doing such a thing but this was Siri. She was unpredictable, something he liked at times, but not this unpredictability.

It was his fault he was feeling this way. This was Siri's choice, not his. Jedi were not prisoners to their life at the Temple. They could choose to leave the order. Many did. They either didn't want this life or found they were not meant to be a Jedi Knight. But Siri was. He knew it. He had seen visions of them fighting together, side by side. Did those visions not apply anymore? Was he going to watch his vision fade out into nonexistence? Perhaps. He couldn't see the future and the Force was not showing him the way. He couldn't even feel the Force, only the pain that had consumed in.

Why did he let himself get attached? Why did he have to fall in love? He had learned many years ago the dangers of falling in love and becoming attached. Why had he allowed himself to falling into this trap again? Why did he not guard his heart and emotions? Why did he have to be so stupid?

These questions ran through his mind over and over again and the only answer he could arrive at was that, he made a mistake. He had a chance to redeem himself of his emotions and he blew it. Again. When would he learn? Today. Today he learned never to give into this weakness of his. Today to he would make himself stronger than he had ever been before. He would no longer be depressed about Qui-Gon's death or Siri's departure. He would act like a real Jedi from now on. He was going to be the Jedi Knight he had to be.

"Help me Master." The soft whisper came from his lips and he sighed looking over his apartment. He sun had barely come up. This was the time Obi-Wan could normally get up and begin his mediations. He knew exactly what he would be meditating on today.

Walking into his room Obi-Wan went through his normal morning routine. He took a shower and got himself ready for the day and then went to his window to meditate. He found mediation hard though. The nagging voice alerting him to his pain was there and distracting him. Obi-Wan refused to listen and opened himself up to the Force, releasing the pain to it. And relief came. He came out of mediation almost an hour later and immediately felt better. He had learned about love and was going to uphold the code. A Jedi shall not know love.

After his futile attempts at making some kind of breakfast for Anakin he gave up and went to the cafeteria and got some, bringing it back to his apartment for his apprentice. He was starting to get used to the fact he now had a young boy to care for but he knew the others in the Temple would help him adjust. He wasn't in this alone.

Coming back into his apartment he saw Anakin sitting at the table waiting for him. "Hi." The boy greeted him. "Where did you go?"

Obi-Wan held up the food to show Anakin. "Breakfast. My attempts were…unsuccessful." He said dryly and made his way towards the table setting the food out for Anakin.

"Thank you, Master." He boy grinned at him but Obi-Wan found himself unable to smile back and he just nodded. Anakin immediately picked up on this and frowned. "Master? What's wrong?"

"Hmm?" Obi-Wan asked looking at the boy. He hadn't heard a word Anakin had said. "I'm sorry, what did you say?"

"What is wrong?" Anakin asked.

"Nothing." Obi-Wan answered. "Nothing for you to be concerned about. I want you to concentrate on training today."

Anakin looked him over, skeptically and Obi-Wan was once again surprised at Anakin's insight. Most children would just accept this but Anakin could tell something was amiss. Thankfully he said nothing more and just smiled. "Alright. We are learning more about the code today in class."

"Well my lessons should go with what you are learning in class. The code is the most important thing in a Jedi's training. It is who we are and what we live by."

Anakin nodded. "I know. So what are you going to teach me today?" He asked as he ate his food.

Obi-Wan's eyes became distant as he looked up and passed Anakin out the window in his apartment. He shut his eyes as his mind drifted to Siri once again but he shut the thoughts off and then answered his apprentice…

"Love."