disclaimer: do we have to???

i know. i cant say how sorry i am. you all have the right to flame me if you want. go ahead, i deserve it. but please forgive me! i am mega sorry for not updating! and no, i didnt leave you all hanging because im evil, i was i mean, how cruel can you get? they completely took my computer away! i tried to sneak on, but i got caught. i will never forgive my brother for that...well, i really am sorry. it was killing me not being able to get on. but im back now, and i plan to shower you with chapters so dont worry! once i get back sunday from camping, i promise to update like mad. im posting two chapter right now so hopefully i wont be yelled at too much...well, once again, i am terribly sorry for all this. hope you enjoy the next two chapters and hang in there until i get back!

even though i didnt update forever, you all still reviewed...what would i do without my reviewers?

kittykat: "I think that you are the best writer on this web site! Wow. That's all that comes to mind right now! I love the way you write, it's brilliant! I absolutely love what you've done here. Obviously, you're the best writer I've come across in a long while! Crap, I think this is the best story I've read ever, and I've been here for about a year. I really love your story, keep up the great work!! " thank you thank you thank you!!!! i cant think of enough to express my thanks! im so glad you like the story! i wasnt expecting people to, but all the writing is worth it after reading all the reviews! thank you so much!!

leviyl: im glad you like my ideas. im really really sorry i havent updated in ages..forgive me?? and as far as harry's cluelessness, i agree. after reading what i had him saying, i realized i exaggerated his dumbness. glad you pointed it out, i'll try not to do that in the future!

luv2dance: lol, i know. glad you liked it.

drazill: thanks!! i do try to make the story seem more realistic by adding the classes and stuff the characters usually have to go through. glad i made my point!

fujiwara zakuro: im glad you liked the chapter. i liked the title, i was laughing when i typed it in..as for harry and hermione getting over their 'fight' all i can say is stay tuned to see what happens...i know my readers dont like them fighting, but it gives clues on how it affects the characters and all. dont worry- it wont be long...

rachael: lol, i know, harry should get points to Gryffindor just for punishing malfoy! thanks for the review!

acknowledge: lol, i like your suggestion. as a matter of fact i was gonna have harry duel with malfoy and then punish him with something more than a few house points, but i figured not to. but i loved the way you wrote that! maybe i'll add it somewhere in the story later on, with your permission that is. thanks for the review!

jedipirateelfydude: im glad it seems that way, i try to make the story as real as possible. thanks!!

artemisgirl: i know and im sorry. im gonna have them make up soon, so dont worry.

kay#4orlandoandhplvr: thanks so much! im really sorry about the cliffhangers! i hate it when other writers do that, so i know how you feel. i'll try to fill you in more next time, so not to make you more anxious. thanks for the review!

swimchick1614: i know, its coming up. thanks for the review!

beautyandbrainz: i always want to thank you so much for your reviews, but all i ever end up saying is 'thanks' over and over. i cant say how happy you make me with your kind words. your reviews have been some of my best! i can honestly count on you to brighten my day with your reviews! thanks so much!

oh, and i see where you're coming from with the hermione and draco thing. im not a big fan of that pairing. sorry to my reviewers who think they should be together!!

twinkle25: dont worry, hermione's pov is in this chappie. and i just had to add malfoy and harry getting into it somewhere, it would be hogwarts without them! thanks for the review!

trumpet-geek: thanks! and i hope you like this one just as much!

gldnsunsprite21: i know, forever to update. but i explained, and you know when me and the weasel 'bond' we always get in trouble. im sorry it took so long, but i hope this chappie makes up for it!

tamar-shaki: thanks, and im sorry about not updating...bad ashton..

once again, i am so so so sorry...

ok, and now...

chapter to Conclusions

Hermione lay on her bed in her private room. She was reading a book on the advancement of Charms, and was completly immersed. Coming to the end of a sentence, she slowly put the book down and looked for her essay that Flitwick had assigned today, that was due next Wednesday. Thank god it's Friday, Hermione thought. All this homework has been a complete stress, along with head duties and all my other activities. I don't know how Harry does it, he has quidditch along with everything else-wait, don't think about him, you'll get all upset again, and you don't need that, just stop thinking about him...

Tears sprand to her eyes as she thought about breakfast earlier that day. God, Hermione, stop being so emotional. You've really let all this get to you. It doesnt' matter, it was only a simple kiss on the cheek, that's all. And Harry looked surprised all the same. It didn't mean anything. Besides, it wasn't like you werent' expecting it, you knew it would come. Harry is definately attractive, you really didnt think the girls would ignore him now did you?

I know, she told herself. It's just weird, I guess I never really thought what it would be like for Harry to have a girlfriend. But now that the time has come, I guess I'll have to get over it. I don't want to lose Harry over something stupid like a peck on the cheek.

I need a break, she thought. Something to take my mind off things. She thought about taking a long, hot bath to soothe her tension and just to relax, but decided aganist it. I'll go for a walk, That'll help me sort out everything.

Standing up, she placed her books on the table and set out to find some shoes. Once she had located them, she slowly walked out of her domitory and headed down the stairs. To her relief, Harry wasn't there. She didn't feel like listening to him apologize once more, especially when he didn't know what he was apologizing for.

Ten minutes later she was walking out the oak front doors and headed towards the grounds. Where should I go? she asked herself. First she thought about the quidditch pitch, but decided not to, she didn't want to run into Harry or Ron. Lately they had been taking their brooms out at any possible chance, even if it did mean in the dark. So instead of risking it, she walked towards the lake, and stood on the shore.

She listened to the soft sound the waves made as they lapped onto the shore. Sitting down, she took off her shoes and let them be rinsed by the water. She closed her eyes and relaxed. It's been a long time since I've been able to do this, she thought. This first week back has been total hell, with all the homework and Harry.

Then she frowned. In truth, she knew she shouldn't be mad at him. She didn't want to be mad at him. She knew Harry had the right to like whoever he wanted, and it was not up to her to decide. But that still doesnt cover up the fact that Harry hadn't told her. After all, she was one of his best friends, why shouldn't he tell her? Well, maybe he wanted to keep something private for once, said the same voice in her head. After all, he doesn't have to tell you everything does he? He is allowed some privacy.

Hermione thought about this for a while. It was true, Harry did deserve privacy. Why would he tell her who he liked? He hadnt' told her he liked Cho, but she had figured that out herself. So why would he tell her now?

Maybe I'm being selfish...

But what about dinner today? What was all that about?

Stop. Just stop.

Maybe he didn't tell you because he knew you would panic like you are now...

I'm NOT panicking. I'm just angry at him for not telling me. Whats wrong with that?

You didnt care that Ron hadn't told you he liked Lavendar, now did you? asked the voice.

Hermione thought about this. It was true, Ron hadn't told her he liked Lavendar, and it hadn't bothered her the least. So why did it bother her so much that Harry hadn't told her that he had liked Alexa?

Hermione sat lost in her thoughts for while longer. Then standing up, she decided to take short walk before she headed inside. Carrying her shoes in her hand, she made her way around the lake. She was so confused about Harry. She didn't know what to do . Should she try to talk to him and make him understand how bad it had hurt her to know he didn't trust her with things like this? Or should she not mention it and say she was sorry for being a prat?

He probably won't even talk to me now...after yesterday...

Hermione came to a stop shortly before the place where she had started and slowly sat down. She had to just muster up her guts and apologize. She was sick of this stupid fight, and since she had started it, she had to stop it. Harry had already proved being the better person in trying to set things straight last night, and now she had to do the same.

But why do I feel so lonely still? Why do I feel like there is a part of me that isnt there? I dont' feel complete...What part of me is missing?

Hermione thought of this. Why did she feel so empty? Ever since the beginning of the summer last year, she had felt this way, but it has never been so noticable. She felt as though she had lost part of her.

And she had.

She had lost Harry.

Harry was the missing piece of the puzzel. She needed him to be complete. Without him, she wasn't herself. He made up the rest of her, and her being without him killed her.

Why didn't I realize it before? How could I have missed it?

I knew it all along, she thought. I just woudn't admit it to myself. All those times I dismissed the funny feeling in my stomach when he looked at me or when he held me close..those were real feelings towards harry, and I ignored them..

She now knew the reason why she had been so mad at Harry for liking someone else. She was jealous. Harry belonged to her, or so she felt. And she didn't want to share him.

But now she had lost him. Lost him to Alexa.

Not really, Alexa didn't take him away, he chose it. He chose her.

And now he was lost for good.

A knot formed in her throat. She felt the tears at the bottom of her eyes. She forced her eyes shut. Her body shook slightly as she continued to fight the tears. Then she gave up.

Hermione put her head in her hands and let the unwanted tears fall freely.

What am I going to do?

i know, another short chapter, but i think this one told you alot. i'll let you decide for yourselves. i know most of you were hoping for harry and hermione to get over their fight, but thats later on. this chappie has alot to do with the next..well, hope you enjoyed it! dont forget to review!

Ashton