December 4th, 2009

Week 24

Faith couldn't believe Sully was dead. Even when she watched his casket being lowered into the ground, she couldn't believe it. How could something like this happen? Why would he do this to himself? He was so loved by everyone. Didn't he know it? Faith found herself crying about it at odd moments. Maybe it was her pregnancy hormones, but maybe it wasn't.

"Mommy?" Vincent slowly walked into the living room, balancing a cup of tea on a plate. He was trying hard not to spill a single drop. She looked up from the couch.
"What do you want?" She asked.

"Charlie made tea for you." Vincent said holding out the tea. Faith took it.

"Thanks." She sipped it and glanced at Vincent. His blue eyes were staring deep into as if he was trying to read her soul.

"Is Sofia bothering you?" He asked. Faith shook her head.

"No. She's just fine, Baby." She said. His little brow creased as he sat next to his mother. His hand rubbed her arm.
"Uncle Sully will be just fine." Vincent said. Faith stared at him.

"I know, Baby. He's in heaven." She said. Vincent cuddled into her more.

"If you and daddy die will you go to Heaven?" He asked. Faith was shocked that he asked that.

"That won't happen for a very long time, baby. All right?" She asked.

"I know that but you're a policewoman and daddy is a policeman." He said, "So was Uncle Sully. You could get shot."

"I won't." She told him.

"But if you do or you get cancer, will you go to heaven?" Vincent asked. She couldn't believe he was six and talking like this.

"That won't happen for a very long time, Baby." she said.

"Will. You. Go. To. Heaven?" Vincent asked firmly. Faith sighed and nodded.

"I will go to heaven if I pass away. So will daddy. So will Em. So will Charlie. So will Isaac. So will Sydney. Everyone will." Faith said, "But you don't have to worry about that for another eighty years."

"Will I see you when I go there?" Vincent asked. Faith nodded.

"Yes, you will see everyone who has passed on." She said to him, "And you will be with them forever and ever."

"Forever and ever is a very long time." Vincent said as he cuddled into his mother.

"Yes it is." Faith kissed him softly, "Stop talking like this thought, Vince. You don't have to worry about this."

"I know." He said sitting up and looking at her belly. "When Sofia comes will I still be your baby?" Faith smiled.

"You will always be my baby." She tickled him. Vincent squealed and slid off the couch.

"You're nuts!" Vincent laughed and ran out of the living room. Faith sighed deeply as she leaned back against the couch.

"Yes, I am nuts." She said softly. Charlie stood in the doorway.

"Do you need anything, Ma?" He asked. Faith smiled.

"I'm fine. Thanks for asking." She asked. Charlie nodded and left her to stew in her own thoughts. Maybe that wasn't the best, but right now it was. She smiled softly. Her boys were trying really hard to cheer her up and it was working.

December 18th, 2009

Week 26

Faith just turned forty-three three days ago. She couldn't believe it. Her mood was slowly changing now towards happy. Sully was gone, but it wasn't here fault. She had to remember that. Something was wrong in his head. It just wasn't her fault.

"This is so boring." Bosco groaned.
"No it's not." Faith said waddling down the aisle.
"Shopping is boring for men." Bosco said. Faith bit back a comment.

"Well, Sofia needs a theme for her nursery." Faith picked up a blanket that was bright pink and had cream sides. Pink and purple flowers were all over it. Bosco groaned, "What?"

"It looks like the Energizer Bunny threw up in there." He said.
"Fine." She chuckled.

"I don't like a lot of pink." Bosco said, "Purple is fine."

"Purple...All right." Faith looked back over the bedding. She picked up one that had soft pinks, lavenders and green in an array of patterns and textures including checks, floral and terries. "How about this one?"

"Something a little bit lighter. That purple is too dark." Bosco said. "And it looks like it'd belong to a Yuppie's baby."
"All right." Faith groaned. "How about you pick one and I'll approve it?"

"Okay." Bosco walked over to the bedding. There was too much pink. He found some purple and pulled it out. The bedding had a variety of vintage floral prints combined with solid lavender and embroidery accents of green. "How about this one?" Faith glanced it over.

"It's kind of cute." She said. "We could paint the walls lavender or Green."

"Lavender." Bosco said putting the bedding into the cart.

"Hey now. I didn't approve of it yet." Faith chuckled.

"Oh I know you like it." He said walking to find the accessories that were supposed to match the bedspread. Faith smiled softly. he was lucky that she liked it.

"Can you believe in fourteen weeks Sofia will be here?" Faith asked.

"No." he said, "Can you believe we'll be grandparents again in fourteen weeks?" Faith chuckled softly as she picked up a stuffed elephant.

"No." She said softly, "I can't wait to meet Savannah."

"Me too." He said, "Sydney is going to make a great big sister." Faith nodded as she watched Bosco put stuff into the cart. He seemed to be more excited with this pregnancy than the last one. She didn't mind it.

"Vince is going to be a good brother as well." She said pushing the cart to the register. Bosco chuckled softly and then went into thought.

"How different are baby girls than baby boys?" He said, "I assume they don't spray you when changing them." Faith chuckled.
"You've never changed Sydney's diaper?" She asked.
"Nope." He said.
"Girls can still spray you. Trust me." Faith smiled. Bosco grimaced. he didn't care though. Sofia was going to be wonderful. He just knew it!

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