Notes: Back to Marky's POV.

Chapter 7 – Urania (Astronomy)
Mark's POV

If I wasn't sick because of what she's killing herself with now
If she wasn't so young and beautiful

The next reel starts with a good view of the night sky. I hear some people yelling off camera and my own heavy breathing. When Roger joins me on the roof a few minutes later I realize it was him and Mimi yelling.

Film Roger is flushed and angry. He collapses angrily beside me.

"I hate her."

The camera turns to completely capture him. "No you don't, Rog."

"She won't listen, Mark. And she's killing herself."

Camera Mark sighs. "I know you're upset Rog, but fighting about it isn't helping."

He glares. "What am I supposed to do, Mark, huh? If you know so much."

"Have you actually taken time to talk to her? Tell her how much she means to you and how much you want her to be healthy."

"I tried that! She won't listen to me!"

The camera moves as I shake my head. "Try again."

He sighs heavily and moves closer.

"This is dumb but, can I just sit out here for a while?"

"You know you can, Rog." Camera Mark says, turning the lens back toward the sky.

The film is silent for a few moments. It zooms in on a little patch of stars over to the right and then Roger speaks again.

"Do you think I'm fated to be this fucked up? Or is it really all my fault?"

His face is in front of me again and Camera Mark sighs. "I don't know, Rog."

"I hate thinking that there's a way I could have changed all of this, you know?"

"But that's true." Camera Mark says.

"I know it is." Film Roger sighs. "I just hate to admit it."

The screen goes black, I remember having turned the camera off then.

I know it far too well
It never meant much to me
But now it's not them saying it, it's you

When I had woken up, I was laying on my back on the roof with Roger's head on my shoulder. My arm had fallen asleep because of his head. I nudged him to move him off and he'd blinked sleepily and sat up.

"Where am I?"

"On the roof. Why don't you see if Mimi has calmed down yet?"

"I don't want to see her."

I had sat up as well and given him a disgusted look. "Well if you're going to be as much of a bitch as her then you fucking deserve each other." I had rolled my eyes. "And all your misery."

"Fuck you."

But he had apologized later to both of us.