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Simple Things -4: Back in the Apartment/ The Aftermath of Cho's Words
I look over at the clock and see that it's already 1:30 A.M. "I know Cho was right, but now what should I do? Should I do anything at all?" I say out loud while just lying on my bed.
I stayed awake for a few more hours just lying down, pacing around the room, or walking around the apartment. Finally when I have practically roamed all around the large apartment, I end up in Oliver's room- don't worry, I'm allowed to go in. I take my time to walk around his room lined with quidditch this and quidditch that everywhere.
I stop when I see his desk lined with pictures. I laugh when I catch the sight of one after our first game. We were all muddy and soaking to the bone since it was raining so hard that we all had to even grip to our brooms with our feet to make sure we won't fall off. I continue looking and stop again when I see the picture of the summer when he got the letter saying he was gonna be team captain. "Ugh, how can I forget when you kept shoving the letter on my face?" I continue once more and stop when I see the picture of our last year when we won the Quidditch Cup. There we were, Wood and I holding up the beloved cup into the air. All of us were crying then and giving goofy grins all at the same time. Then I skip onto the final picture, which is of him and myself after his first game as Puddlemere United's keeper. I swear that night was so long since he kept on reliving the whole match over and over. I laugh again as I see my photo-self hit Oliver on the head which results to him carrying me.
I sit back on his bed and think back to the question I've been asking myself the whole time I've been walking around the apartment: "Should I stay or should I leave?" I mumble again to myself as I start playing again with the ring I have. "I love him, yeah, but do we even have a relationship at all? I mean to be honest, he barely here with me, so it's like..." I trail off getting even more confused than I was in the beginning. I look at his bedside table and see that it's already 5 A.M. Great, I didn't even sleep yet!
I walk, well drag is a better word to use, myself to my bed where I immediately fall asleep.
Finally, I wake up since I forgot to pull back the curtains last night and the light coming in is seriously blinding me. I start to walk to the kitchen for some cereals when I remember what I was thinking about last night-or was it this morning? As I stuff the first spoonful of food into my mouth, a tawny owl comes swooping in narrowly missing my head. "Hey there Fritz! How are you doing?" giving it a treat as you pet it. Fritz is my owl by the way, has been with me since Hogwarts. "What have you got for me today?" I ask slowly untying a letter on its foot. "Oliver? Wow, I wouldn't think he had time now that the Quidditch World Cup thing is coming up and he needs to train" I say before opening the letter.
Dear Katie,
How have you been? Good I hope. How did you like Cho's and Victor's wedding? From what I heard there were so many reporters there but aside from that, it was spectacular. Hope you're not too stressed from your job like I am here. Coach wants us to train 6 hours a day! You have to admit that it's a lot worse than mine was in Hogwarts.
Well in case you don't know, we have a game this coming Saturday against the Foulmouth Falcons. If you weren't busy maybe you'd like to come. I have tickets here for you and a few more just incase the twins, Angelina, and Alicia might want to come. Also I have a few pictures of me with the team during one of our practices so you can see how grueling they can get and a bracelet I found while we were in Germany. I hope you like it and will go to the game. I'll wait for you to owl me back.
Always,
Oliver
(P.S. Would you mind giving Fritz a few extra treats since we're a little far from you back there in Scotland. Thanks!)
(P.P.S. I forgot to mention that I also put in some money so you can pay the rent and buy some stuff. And don't even think about sending it back like you did last time!)
After reading the letter, I look inside the envelope and take out the remaining contents. I first look at the pictures and laugh; they're pictures of Oliver as he falls down on the mud, pictures of him clumsily falling of his broom not to high above the ground, and one of him and the team who look absolutely exhausted but somehow smiling. I then look at the bracelet, which I have to say -as usual- is very beautiful. I put it on before taking out the money. As usual, I was stunned to see the amount of coins that was able to fit the tiny envelope. I swear! That's a lot of coins for a tiny envelope, must have been around 300 galleons in there.
I put it aside for a while and start to clean the dishes. I sit again on the couch just to finish off what I was thinking before. "So, should I or shouldn't I stay? I mean, I'm happy with him...but, then again will I be happy to be in this relationship where the guy is mostly nowhere to be seen? I mean I do love him, but it's just that, I have to be honest with myself; can I truly be happy in a relationship like this for a long time?" I stop and look up to check if the dishes are done. Turning back, I look at my imaginary friend whom I've been talking with, "Did I even make sense?" Great, I must belong in St. Mungo's now since I'm practically talking to myself! "Can I be truly happy in this kind of relationship?" I repeat. I think back to the past 3 years since I left Hogwarts and realize that during the times when Oliver's not here, I've been lonely. Yes, now I realize that that's what I've been feeling in our times apart. And that if this relationship is gonna be long-term, I don't wanna feel this loneliness in my life.
Still in deep thought, I manage to shower, change, and then sit on my bed. I know now what I have to do but the question is, is it the right thing to do? And moreover, can I do it?
I'm sorry for keeping you in suspense but please read my next one!