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Author: Penguin
Title: LIKE GLASS
Part 2
Draco
couldn't sleep. He kept twisting and turning in the near-dark, listening to
unfamiliar street sounds because they couldn't be shut out, listening intently
for sounds through the wall because he couldn't help it. But from Potter's room
there was nothing but silence.
The hours wound on, and Draco finally gave up trying to sleep. He lit the
candle by his bed and lay watching shadows dance on the walls as the candle
flame flickered and fluttered in the draught.
What would happen tomorrow? (Today, Draco corrected himself as he saw the first
glimmer of light in the sky.) What would happen to Potter? He looked as though
he hadn't eaten properly for months, it was obvious that he hadn't slept,
either, and there was something very wrong with him even apart from the drug
abuse; underneath the drug abuse.
Something seriously wrong.
Why had Potter turned over his wand to Draco so easily? No wizard, however
exhausted, frightened or confused, would ever willingly hand over his wand to
another wizard. But Potter had acted as if his wand was an ordinary, dull
object, like a rock or an apple or a piece of string. And this was the wand –
holly, phoenix feather, eleven inches – that had defeated the Dark Lord.
Draco suddenly realised that it was the mystery of Potter's wand that had kept
him awake all night.
The wand was lying innocently on the desk by the window now, and Draco's eyes
kept wandering to it. He couldn't help wanting to go over to it, to pick it up
and hold it… just to try it and see what would happen…
He turned around in bed to face the wall, but the image of the wand stayed in
his mind, nagging, refusing to leave him alone.
He had carried it to his room last night, but he had been too shaken then to
want to try to use it. As a matter of fact, he had carried it between his thumb
and his forefinger and hurried to put it down, as if afraid it would bite. Then
he had gone straight into the shower and stayed there for a good twenty
minutes, so upset by the emotions stirred up by seeing Potter that he needed to
be soothed. It wasn't only the sadness at seeing Potter in this lamentable
state, but he also had to fight sudden memories of school, of their childhood,
of more recent events that he rarely allowed to surface in his mind: His father
imprisoned in Azkaban; his own loss of faith in everything he had believed in.
Those who had died. And those who hadn't died but would have been better off if
they had.
Lord Voldemort was defeated and gone, but in a way, he had still won this war.
Evil always wins a small victory simply by showing its face – it will always
remain alive in those who have seen it.
Sadness, grief, pain – that was the lasting effect of war. They had naïvely
expected happiness to return instantly when the war ended, like... well, like
magic. But in reality, the magical world was as ill-equipped as the Muggle
world to handle the aftermath of war. They had expected their dark memories to
be erased and their wounds to be healed, but it hadn't happened. It might never
happen. Only time might accomplish what the healers hadn't.
Draco got out of bed, padded over to the desk and stood looking down at the
wand. The dark wood looked polished and gleaming despite the rough treatment it
must have received. Potter hadn't looked as if anything in his life had been
taken good care of lately.
In a sense, wands were custom-made, and wizards never used each other's wands
if they could help it. Sometimes it was unavoidable, but if there was a choice,
they used their own. Draco wondered why he wanted to try this one so badly. It
belonged to one powerful wizard and had destroyed another – did he want to be
part of that power? He didn't believe that was the reason. After all, he had
never wanted to try his father's wand, or Bellatrix's, although he had had the
opportunity to do so on several occasions.
He stretched out a hand, touched the polished handle and slowly closed his
fingers around it. He lifted it up, held it in front of him and suddenly,
inexplicably felt like a beginner – there was even the echo of old, old
instructions in his head: "Swish and flick, Draco! And you must pronounce the
spell very clearly."
"Lumos," he whispered hoarsely.
He was prepared to drop the wand, to extinguish sudden flames, to run for cover
– but nothing happened.
Nothing at all. Not a stir; not even the tiniest spark.
The wand was dead in his hand.
