AN: I forgot to add the part were Emily and Lily find out Remus is a werewolf but I worked around it. So just keep in mind that they know about it and that they're okay with it.

Chapter 11- Christmas, Already

The weeks remaining in the summer flew by fast. James met Dan and then everyday after everyone would gather at James house and we would hang out. Dan would play Quidditch with the guys and then we would just all hang out and talk. I have to admit that I will really miss Dan when I go back to school.

Emily and the others boarded the Hogwarts express. They found an empty cabin and began talking and joking around. Emily stared out the window and reflected on her summer. Currently she wasn't talking to her mother, she met the father she thought was dead, James and Lily started dating, she found out Remus was a werewolf, Sirius invested in a nice flat, and she was still debating if she actually loved him. And now that Emily thought about it, she and Sirius had been going out for months, they hadn't had sex but he still stayed with her and cared about her. This made Emily smile, she felt special.

School went by so quick, Sirius and Emily went to the Halloween Ball together, James and Lily seemed to be in love and Remus and Amy became closer. December was approaching now and everyone was in high spirits.

"Sirius.... Sirius...wake up!" Emily said excitedly while shaking Sirius.

"Emily?" Sirius said groggily "What's wrong?" He said while sitting up.

Emily had a huge smile on "Sirius there about 3 feet of snow outside! Come-on" She said while pulling on Sirius arm.

After Emily and Sirius were dressed for snow they went outside. Half the student body was out there already and having snow fights. Emily, Sirius, James, Lily, Remus, Amy, Peter, and some other guys from the dorms were all having a snow fight. It was girls against guys. The guys were advancing on the girls, they had faster and harder snowballs then the girls did. When the guys started running towards the girls with snowballs aiming at their head, Emily yelled 'RETREAT' all the girls started running away while trying to hit the boys with the last of their snowballs. Emily was zigzagging and trying to loose Sirius. Sirius saw a good opportunity and he tackled her to the ground, they wrestled each other until Emily was pinned under Sirius. Sirius smiled down at the gorgeous girl under him. He leaned in and gave her a soft passionate kiss. Emily stared into his eyes and with her free hand she launched a snowball at his head. Sirius caught off guard fell off Emily. Emily took the opportunity to run with Sirius quick on her heels.

Emily and Sirius decided they would spend Christmas at Sirius' new flat. Dan was going to come over Christmas day for dinner and on Christmas Eve Emily was going to go to her mothers. She didn't want to fight forever and she wanted to hear her mum's side of the story.

"It's home-ish, isn't it?" Sirius asked as we unpacked our things. It was 'home-ish'; it had a nice feeling to it. When we finished unpacking, Sirius and I cleaned and straightened the furniture (just in case we get company). When everything looked perfect we laid down on the bed and fell asleep.

Christmas Eve...

"Does this look all right?" Sirius asked. He had on a pair of nice fitted jeans but just a little baggy and a dress shirt.

"You look great" I said. I was wearing a regular black dress that went down to my mid-thigh.

When we arrived at moms, George answered the door. He allowed us to enter but didn't look happy to see that I brought Sirius. Mom was surprised to see him too. What did they expect? I wasn't going to leave him at home. Mom had invited over half our relatives. I greeted my cousins, aunts and uncles and then sat down with Sirius next to me. After we ate everyone gave presents out, (it's a tradition in my family, and on Christmas Eve the aunts give the kids presents and vice-versa). Sirius thought it was great. Everyone loved him and he felt like family. Seeing Sirius busy with my cousins, mom took the opportunity to talk to me. "Em, can I talk to you?" She said cautiously. I've been waiting for this all evening.

"Yeah" I answered. We went into the other room.

"I'm sorry I lied to you" She stated. "I was trying to protect you-"

"Trying to protect me? From what?" I said a bit angrily. "Dan wasn't trying to kill me!"

"I know...I wasn't in love with him, and I couldn't raise a child with him."

"So you left without saying anything? You could have had a divorce and at least I would have been able to see him"

"You don't understand, it's complicated"

"No, mom, it's not. And besides that, why did you lie to me. I would have loved to have Dan in my life but instead you married that prick, George"

"Emily, that's not fair"

"No, what's not fair, is that you lied to me my whole life.." I said "I trusted you, I loved you."

Mom paused, I think I hurt her feelings with that one.

"I'm sorry I-" I didn't get to finish because my moms' eyes teared up and she went up stairs. I went to follow her but stopped my self, 'I was the victim' I reminded myself, 'she lied to me'. Sirius and I left to go home at about eleven.

Christmas Day....

Sirius and I woke up on Christmas to find a lot of presents under our tree. All of our friends sent gifts and mom sent gifts and so did Dan. I got Sirius the new broom he had been talking about for ages. He wouldn't stop kissing and hugging me and saying thank you, it made me feel good. Sirius got me a heart shaped necklace, and on it said my name.

"Oh Sirius its beautiful" thank you I said while hugging him.

Later that night Sirius and I were just making out in a friendly way. I broke us apart after a long kiss and stared into his eyes.

"I'm ready" I told him, hoping he'd get the hint.

He looked at me shocked; "there's no pressure you know? I don't-"

"No, I want to" I said reassuringly. The rest of the night, well in as no descriptive as possible...it went well. Afterwards, Emily was lying on Sirius chest and he was slowly stroking her hair. Sirius was staring at the ceiling thinking about a lot of things. The silence wasn't awkward but it was comforting.

"I love you Sirius" I said. I did love him and it felt great to love someone. I wasn't expecting much, I just wanted to tell him that so when he answered. I couldn't get offended.

"Yeah" he said quietly.

It made me think that maybe he doesn't love me the way I love him and I was starting to get upset, so I pushed those thought to the back of my mind. I would just live in the moment. It'll be okay.

It wasn't okay. Sirius didn't have much to say the rest of the vacation and it got worse when they went back to school. Sirius always had an excuse not to hang out or avoided her at all costs. Emily kept thinking the worse. She thought how they had, had sex and then he just stopped talking to her. Were they over because he finally had gotten in her pants? Did he lie about not having sex with all those girls? Finally one day Emily got sick of the games and decided to talk to him about it.

"How come you've been avoiding me?" Emily asked calmly.

"What do you mean? I haven't been avoiding you"

Emily could tell that something was up "what's going on Sirius?" Emily asked more serious now.

Sirius sighed, then began to rub his face in frustration. "Em, I...Emily..I...I think we should take a break"

My heart fell through the floor. "What?.... was, was it.." I was mad now "it was because you had your fun with me and then it over, I was just like all the other girls"

"No, Em its not like that, you see-"

"I don't want excuses Sirius, bye" I said leaving to go to my dorm. I was crying harder then I've ever cried in my life. Why did he have to be like that? I thought he loved me.