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You took your coat off, and stood in the rain.

You were always crazy like that.

I watched from my window,

Always felt I was outside looking in on you.

You were always the mysterious one,

with dark eyes and careless hair

You were fashionably sensitive but to cool to care.

You stood in my door way,

with nothing to say,

besides some comment on the weather.

Incase you failed to notice, incase you failed to see,

this is my heart bleeding before you,

this is me down on my knees.

These foolish games are tearing me apart,

and your thoughtless words are breaking my heart,

Your breaking my heart.

-Jewel

Chapter 12-Foolish games

Sirius was heartbroken about the split. The truth was Sirius was so in love with Emily. Sirius had never actually loved any girl or anyone for that matter. Emily was special; he wanted Emily to be his life. Since he had never been in love, he got nervous and wasn't sure how to handle it. He told himself, that good things never last and it was better to break it up now rather then when he was even more attached. So for the last few weeks Sirius would see Em in the hallway or in the common room and they wouldn't even look at each other. James and Remus tried getting it out of him but he refused to talk to them.

Sirius was walking down a corridor one night, when he bumped into Emily, all her papers spread across the floor. Instead of picking them up they both stared at each other.

"Hey" Emily said softly "how are you?"

"I'm good.... I miss you" he said hesitantly.

"Me too" Emily said. "Why did we break up?" She asked, she knew the reason but she wanted to hear him answer it.

Sirius stared into her eyes and then looked at the floor when he answered "I don't love you" he stated flatly. He walked away. To Emily he seemed to not care about her anymore. But in reality Sirius didn't want to cry in front of her. He would never admit to her that he loved her because if he did, then he would have given her his heart to break or bury.

The next week Emily saw Sirius walking around with other girls. On the outside he seemed to be back to his old self but on the inside he was screaming at himself. And so it went on Sirius would have a new girl each week and Emily would cry herself to sleep.

Easter vacation came and Emily spent it at her fathers. She told Dan about everything that had happened between her and Sirius. He understood and comforted her the best he could.

Sirius on the other hand had thought it over a thousand times, he finally came to a conclusion.

Emily sat at the desk trying to finish her homework. It was raining really hard out side. She heard a noise outside and looked out her window. On the corner of the street Sirius was looking at her. He was drenched from the rain, and he gave her a small wave. Emily headed down stares but Sirius had beaten her to the door. There was a knock and Dan opened the door. When he saw Sirius he smiled hoping that things would be fixable. Dan looked towards Emily, making sure she wanted to talk to him. She shook her head yes and Dan left them alone. Sirius was on the doorstep with water dripping off him. He looked nervous. "The rains coming down hard" he said obviously trying to feel comfortable about the situation. I stared at him with hurt in my eyes.

He sighed and began to talk "Emily, listen, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings, I'm sorry that I paraded around with other girls, I'm sorry I didn't talk to you and most of all I'm sorry that I lied to you." This got Em's attention, so Sirius started up again. "I lied to you Em. I lied to you when I told you I did not love you, I do love you Em I love you more than my life itself." Emotions clear in his voice. "I've never loved before and I thought that this new feeling would go away if we broke up so that way I wouldn't have to ever get hurt. But I don't want to play it safe I want to be with you, I want to love you" he finished.

Emily believed him. But she felt as though she couldn't just say okay and let things go back to normal. She made up her mind, with tears going down her cheeks she stood on her tippy-toes and kissed Sirius on the forehead. "Bye." She said and shut the door. Em sat down at the bottom of the door and started crying non-stop. Sirius in shock that he had just lost Emily forever, began to walk to his flat, this time he didn't try and hide the tears.

(Mid-February)

Sirius and Emily went back to pretending the other doesn't exist. One day when everyone was in the great hall eating breakfast Professor McGonagall came over to Em.

"Ms. Demintrov, will you come with me, Professor Dumbledore would like to speak to you." She began to walk out of the great hall. I looked at Lily with a look saying 'what's going on?'. The professor led her to Dumbledore office before leaving to go talk to Sirius.

Emily got to Dumbledore's office and sat in the chair across from his desk. He smiled weakly at her his eyes had nothing but sympathy in them.

Meanwhile...

Professor McGonagall Informed Sirius of the situation about to occur. Sirius didn't think twice. He would be there for her

"Emily I'm afraid that something has happened to your father." My heart dropped.

"You mean George?" I asked, hoping to god it was a yes.

"No, Emily I mean Daniel" Dumbledore said sadly. "Your father has been in a secret organization with me. We fight against Voldemort's death eaters-"

"The ones in the paper?" I asked quietly. I didn't like the way this was going.

"Yes, Emily. Your father was on a secret mission the other night. His cover was blown, Emily. The death eaters killed him"

Tears began to pour from my eyes. "Are you sure? Are you sure he's dead? Are you sure it was him?"

"I'm sorry Emily-"

I didn't let him finish because I ran out of his office. I ran out into the cold rain, into the darkness of the night with no idea were I was going. I didn't get far when Sirius caught up with me. I fell to the ground on my knees, crying profusely. Sirius rushed to my side and rapped his arms around me. I didn't want to be hugged I wanted Dan, I wanted my dad. I was hitting Sirius trying to make him let me go. He wouldn't he just held on tighter and eventually I gave up and hugged him back. Being in his arms made me cry even harder. I just wanted things to go back to the way they were before. I wanted to be Sirius' girlfriend and Dan's daughter. I just wanted to feel loved again.