Tears and Smiles

Chapter 1: Never Ending Nightmare

By: Elbereth

Rated: PG-13 for violence, occasional language, and some fluff later on

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha

~*~*~A/N~*~*~ Lot's of OOC stuff in this story. That includes people's personalities.

Sesshoumaru bolted out of the house at five a.m., hoping that no one would wake up to see him leaving. His silver hair was in a ponytail at the nape of his neck, and his amber eyes flashed with worry. He left this early every morning just to stay away from his stepfather. Glancing around the school courtyard to make sure that not even a teacher was there he sauntered in quietly, pulling two biker gloves on as he did. He looked like a badass with his baggy jeans and tight t-shirts that showed off his well muscled but lean, tall body, but in reality that was his front. No one knew that he was really just some quiet guy who had an abusive stepfather. Checking the courtyard again he sighed and decided that even this was early for him.

He'd started leaving earlier and earlier depending on when his stepfather got up. He never wanted to run into him in the mornings, so steering clear by getting up and leaving before Yugasagi got up seemed the best way. Sesshoumaru wandered out into the street and walked to his friend Inuyasha's. He sat outside for a while, just watching Inuyasha's house and thinking on how much he envied him. Inuyasha was rich, had a loving family, and was going out with Kikyou, the most popular girl.

The front door opened and Inuyasha and his older brother Miroku(A/N weird, ne) walked out of the house. Their black hair and grey eyes were the only traces of their relationship. They both stopped when they saw Sesshoumaru, Miroku with a slight grin. Inuyasha walked up to Sesshoumaru and slapped him on the back. "Hey Sesshoumaru. You leave early again?" Sesshoumaru nodded. Miroku raised an eyebrow at the two but walked with them toward Kikyou's house. "Why do you leave so early anyway?" Sesshoumaru just shook his head. "No reason." Inuyasha took that as a good answer and started rambling about his date with Kikyou. As if called she popped up with a bright smile on her face, her black hair looking a little fried, like it'd had a bad hair drying accident. She had light blue eyes that were sparkling.

"Hi Inu." She batted her lashes at him and Inuyasha turned into puddy. "Hi Kikyou." Sesshoumaru and Miroku rolled their eyes and watched as Kikyou led Inuyasha away, her chatter driving them up the wall. Sesshoumaru mentally took back his thought about envying Inuyasha for going out with Kikyou. She was just too damn annoying. Miroku tapped him on the shoulder and Sesshoumaru looked at him. "Before Kouga gets here and ruins the peace and quiet I want to ask you something. What's really going on? You're not leaving this early out of pure pleasure." Sesshoumaru gave a nervous laugh and coughed. "What if it is purely pleasure at the wonderful morning Miroku?" Miroku rolled his eyes. "You've never been a morning person Sesshoumaru. Every time you stay at our house you don't get up till noon. What's going on, ka?"

Sesshoumaru sighed. "Nothing Miroku. Just leave it alone." Miroku's concerned face never changed but he did agree to drop the subject, for the moment at least. As they arrived at the school courtyard again they were mobbed by Kouga and Sango, who were closely followed by Rin and Jaken. Miroku immediately wrapped his arms around Sango while Jaken followed Sesshoumaru around. Jaken had a slight, shall we say, obsession, with Sesshoumaru. Miroku and Sango followed Kikyou and Inuyasha very closely in mushy fluffiness. Then they were tailed by Kagura and Naraku(yes they're ok ppl O_o), as the third cutest couple in the school. Sesshoumaru didn't see the point of voting on cutest couples. Shippou and Kanna walked up followed shortly by Kagura and Naraku. The group was now complete. Well almost. They still needed Sango's younger brother Kohaku and Ayame to show up. Just as soon as it was thought they were there. Kohaku and Rin were suddenly holding hands while Ayame and Kouga made out.

Sesshoumaru sighed as he looked at the couples. Everyone else was happy with a boyfriend or girlfriend, but there he was, girlfriendless. Everyone had tried to hook him up, but he was just either too badass or not badass enough for anyone they tried to hook him up with. He glanced around the courtyard that was slowly filling up with people. The mindless conversation his friends were having didn't seem important as he watched different people walking around. He envied them for the fact that they didn't have to deal with what he had to deal with.

He snapped out of his thoughts when a new face caught his eye. A girl was walking into the school courtyard with her head bowed slightly. Her long ebony tresses swayed slightly in the breeze and from where he was he could tell her eyes were chocolate brown. Sesshoumaru watched her as she sat down on a bench and pulled a book out of her bag. He glanced at his friends, who were all busy either making out or talking, and walked up to the new girl. "Er...Hi....I'm Sesshoumaru. And you are?" The girl looked up at him from her book and smiled a shy smile. "I'm Kagome." Sesshoumaru smiled and sat down beside her. "This your first day here?" Kagome nodded. "I just moved here from Yokohama."

"Yokohama, ka? That's kinda far away from Tokyo isn't it?" Kagome nodded again. "My mom wanted to live on a shrine that has been in our family. My aunt was the owner but when she died the whole place went to my family." Sesshoumaru nodded. "Hey... The bell's about to ring, but I'd like to get to know you a little better, ne. How about I walk you home after school?" Kagome put a finger to her lips in thought. "Find me at lunch and you'll get my answer." The bell rang just then and Kagome got up with her stuff and left Sesshoumaru to stare at her.

He followed shortly after and sped to his classes. Lunch didn't seem to come early enough, but when the bell rang he raced to the lunch room and sat at the first table, watching the door intently. Kagome came in only a few minutes after him and looked up to smile at him. She sat down across from him and nodded. "You can walk me home but I better not feel any wandering hands." Sesshoumaru nodded and smiled. "Don't worry. I'm not a perv." Kagome nodded again. "Right. Well I guess I'll see you after school. Meet me at the same bench we met at this morning." With that she stood and walked off.

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Kagome stood up as Sesshoumaru approached the bench she was sitting on. "C'mon before that weird guy Hiten messes with me again. I don't think I could've lasted class much longer and he was stalking me in the hallway." Sesshoumaru nodded and walked with her down the street. They walked for a moment in silence before Kagome cleared her throat. "Well... What do you want to know?" Sesshoumaru shrugged. "What's your family like?" Kagome sighed. "I have a younger brother named Souta who's really into video games. I can time it perfectly when he'll start a game and when he'll finally turn his game console off. I can even time when he'll beat the game. My mom is really nice and we're kind of poor now that we've moved, but jii-chan is going to move in with us and help with the finances."

"That's cool." Kagome glanced at him as they walked. "If I tell you a secret will you promise never to tell anyone?" Sesshoumaru nodded. Kagome looked around to make sure no one was nearby to overhear her. Even she wasn't sure why she was trusting him with this. They were alone walking down the sidewalk but she still lowered her voice. "My dad is in prison and my mom is actually an adoptive mother. My real mom died when I was two and left me to my dad. He fell into a depression and started beating me whenever I annoyed him or he was angry. My teacher called DHS on him and I was taken to a man who took care of me at age six, but he started beating me too. He turned out to be an ex-con and a drunk. I was taken to Mrs. Higurashi when I was eight. " Sesshoumaru looked at Kagome in shock.

"So you mean.... Your real dad was abusive and then you got adopted by another abuser but were finally adopted by Mrs. Higurashi." Kagome nodded and Sesshoumaru smiled. "Well at least your away from your dad and that other guy. What would have happened if no one had found out and you turned up beaten so badly you were dying." Sesshoumaru stopped talking suddenly when he realized he was giving her the same pep talk that he should have given himself a long time ago. Kagome was nodding as they approached the stairs to her shrine. "Do you want to come up and meet my mom and Souta?" Sesshoumaru nodded. He followed Kagome up the stairs and by the time he reached the top was breathing heavily. Kagome gave him a playful shove and smiled. "You can't be that out of shape." Laughing she walked to the front door and opened it while trying to pull her shoes off at the same time. Sesshoumaru followed her and walked into a living room with a little boy sitting on the couch, controller in hand, tongue sticking out slightly, and staring at the TV like it was the world.

"That's Souta. He'll come out of his trance around dinnertime. As for my mom..." A door opened and a kind woman's voice came from the kitchen. "Kagome are you home?" Kagome smiled and hauled Sesshoumaru to the kitchen. "Hai okaasan. I brought a friend to meet you. This is Sesshoumaru. Sesshoumaru this is my mom." Sesshoumaru bowed to Mrs. Higurashi and she returned the bow. "So nice to see that Kagome has friends. No one seemed to like her in Yokohama." Kagome blushed and mumbled, "He doesn't need to know about that." Mrs. Higurashi smiled and nodded before turning back to Sesshoumaru. "How about you call your parents and ask if you can stay for dinner? I'm making meso soup and fish." Sesshoumaru smiled and nodded. "Sounds great! Where's the phone?"

Kagome handed him a cordless and he dialed his mom's cell without a thought. "Hai?" Came his mother's voice. "Okaasan? It's Sesshoumaru. I was wondering if I could eat dinner at a friend's house tonight." There was a pause on the other line before Sesshoumaru's mother spoke. "When will you be home?" Sesshoumaru turned to Kagome for help. "I'll be home by seven- thirty." There was another pause before his mother spoke again. "Seven-thirty it is." There was a click and Sesshoumaru knew she'd hung up. He handed the phone to Kagome who put it on its stand and turned to him. "So it's a yes?" He nodded.

"C'mon, we'll wait for dinner in my room." Sesshoumaru followed Kagome up to the second story where she shoved a door open and he entered his dream room. Her shelves were full of books. No TV, just books and CDs and a radio. There was a desk against the wall that the door was on, only spaced from the door by a trash can. It held a lamp and some other miscellaneous objects. On the right hand wall there was a closet and a night stand with an alarmclock on it. On the wall opposite the door was the bed and a window. Then on the left hand wall were the shelves with all the books. "Have you really read all these books, Kagome?" Kagome blushed and nodded. Sesshoumaru looked at the titles of the books. "You have The Iliad?" Kagome nodded again as Sesshoumaru continued looking over her books. "You can borrow some if you want." Sesshoumaru blinked. "Hontouni?"

"Yes really. I've read almost all of them at least twice." Sesshoumaru smiled and started to pull a few off the shelves. After grabbing five books he put them in his bag and sighed. "Thanks for lending me some of these books. I've always loved reading." Kagome nodded. "Me too." They started to discuss their favorites and found that they had a lot in common as the conversation turned. Kagome's mother called them down for dinner. They ran down the stairs like little kids, laughing and smiling. Kagome's mom set the food down in front of four of the places at the table, which was made for eight.

Souta came in a second later and sat across from Sesshoumaru, right next to Kagome. "Kagome nee-chan. Who's this guy?" Kagome smiled and introduced Souta to Sesshoumaru. Souta cocked his head to one side and said, "Are you my sister's boyfriend?" Kagome popped her brother on the back of his head as their mother carried the pot of soup in. Their plates held the fish and vegetables. She spooned out soup to everyone and sat down at the head of the table. "You know Sesshoumaru, it's really good to have company for dinner. It's been so long since Kagome's had a real friend. I mean one that would actually come over and have dinner and you know the rest." Sesshoumaru nodded and Kagome buried her face in her hands. She looked up and continued eating, but not without seeing Sesshoumaru smiling at her.

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Kagome walked Sesshoumaru down to the bottom of the stairs at seven-fifteen. They had finished dinner by six-thirty but Sesshoumaru had wanted to talk some more. Kagome had shown him around the shrine a little, explained the different artifacts and stated that her crazy grandfather would know more. Sesshoumaru listened to her explanations and put in his sarcastic comments or whatever came to mind. Finally seven rolled around and they decided to go get his stuff and head back down the stairs. As they walked down the many steps Sesshoumaru talked about his friends and told Kagome she'd meet them tomorrow. As he stepped off the last step he said he'd come by her house tomorrow morning before school. Then he darted off towards his home.

As Sesshoumaru entered his house he heard his mother and stepfather watching the TV and tried to creep as quietly as possible up the stairs. He reached his room and had just opened the door when his stepfather yelled at him. "SESSHOUMARU!!WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN ALL EVENING? YOUR MOTHER SAYS YOU WERE AT A FRIEND'S, BUT I THINK YOU WERE AT A CLUB!!"

Sesshoumaru sighed and took the stairs two at a time. He knew that his stepfather was drunk so he simply stood before him. "I really was at a friend's house. You can call and ask." Yugasagi turned purple with rage and screamed, "YOU'RE JUST LYING YOU UNGRATEFUL SON OF A BITCH!!! I OUGHT TO..." Instead of finishing what he was going to say Yugasagi stood up and backhanded Sesshoumaru. His mother was up immediately trying to calm him and keep Sesshoumaru safe.

She was shoved out of the way and Sesshoumaru felt a fist connect with his stomach. He fell backwards and ended up sitting on the fireplace. The bricks hurt but he was glad they didn't knock him out. Yugasagi yanked him up by the collar and threw him into the opposite wall. Sesshoumaru felt a cut form on his forehead where a picture frame made contact. He didn't care though. He was thrown again, this time into the bookshelves he wasn't allowed to touch. He felt an uncomfortable crack and knew something was at least sprained. Sure enough when he made to push himself off the floor his left wrist was sprained. Yugasagi hoisted him up again and Sesshoumaru saw it all through slow motion like in the movies. He was being picked up and was then thrown towards the fireplace. He watched as the bricks came closer and put his arms up to shield his face. The next thing he knew he had made contact and a blissful unconsciousness took him.

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Sesshoumaru woke up in serious pain and glanced around his room. His mother had her head on his bed with her arms folded as a pillow. She was on her knees on the floor and looked worn out. Sesshoumaru tried to sit up and winced. Everything hurt from where he'd met the bricks, and his wrist was still sprained but had been properly bandaged. He was glad nothing had been broken. He looked at his alarm, it read four- thirty. He sighed and started to climb out of bed, not ready to tell his friends he'd gotten into an accident or street fight as usual. What was he going to tell Kagome? Sighing again he pulled on a pair of blue jeans and a baggy black t-shirt. He yanked his shoes on and grabbed his bag along with his gloves, which he shoved on gently.

He walked to Kagome's house slowly, knowing it was still way too early for her to be getting ready for school. He didn't care though, and just continued up the stairs to her shrine. He stood outside watching the silent house and shrine grounds. He could feel a mysterious pull coming from the well-house, kind of like a wisp of a memory. You could just almost grasp it. He shook his head and walked up to the door, the sun just then starting to rise.

~*~*~A/N~*~*~ So what do you think so far??? I like it, but that's just me. I didn't know about the pairing at first but it turned out pretty cool. I'm a Kag/Inu fan myself, but then again opinions can change. Look for chapter 2 within a week or so, depending on if I get writer's block or not. Give me a review or no more chapters!!

Ja ne!!

Elbereth

Glossary:

Hontouni~really

Okaasan~mother(formal)

Nee-chan~sister(informal)

Hai~yes

Jii-chan~grandpa(informal) used only by young children, girls, sort of like calling an old man gramps

Ka~huh

Ja ne~bye