If Tomorrow Never Comes
Chapter 6
"Zander! NO!"
Zander opened his eyes and dropped the board on the boxcar floor. "Emily?"
"Nice way to greet your only friend, don't you think?"
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry." He rushed forward helping her into the boxcar. He held her as she steadied herself. They looked into each other eyes. She caressed his cheek softly. "Hi." Clearing his throat he backed away dropping his hands from her waist. "So, what are you doing here?"
She smiled slowly, bringing a package out from her pocket. "Thought you might want one."
"It's not a pixie stick, right?"
"No. Here." She shoved the small bag in his hand. Opening it he found a chocolate covered doughnut. He looked at her quizzically. "Thanks but."
"I know you don't really like sweets but I figured Carly came to see you? Right?" He nodded his head not sure where she was going. "Well, it's a well known fact that Carly loves doughnuts and a little known fact that she doesn't get to eat them because Sonny won't let her so I thought."
"What? I could bribe her with a doughnut?"
"Pretty much." She walked to the crate in the middle of the car. Sitting down, her hands on her lap, she looked up at him. "It wouldn't hurt to suck up to her."
"Oh yeah. Well, for your 411 I think Carly already likes me. So there?" He said sticking his tongue out at her. "Or is that too unbelievable?"
"I never had a doubt she'd like you."
"What makes you say that?"
"Because I like you a lot."
There's a lot of things I don't understand
And there's a lot of things I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
To look me in the eyes
He looked into her eyes and realized what she wasn't saying. He shook his head, "Emily.no."
She stood in front of him racing for his hands. "No what?"
"You. and . I. we can't be."
"Why not?" she asked, moving to stand closer to him, pressing her chest to his. Zander closed his eyes sucking in a breath. His heart kicked into double gear and he felt the blood rush to his loins. He opened his eyes when she whispered his name. Looking into her eyes he groaned deeply bringing his mouth down to hers.
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it fast
Her hands roamed into his hair pulling him closer still to her. He gripped her head gently. Moving his mouth over hers, he ran his tongue across her lower lip. Emily lost all thought. All she felt was Zander. When she felt his tongue on her lips she groaned opening her mouth willing to him. He heard her groan and it was like a bucket of cold water. He pulled back quickly turning his back to her, struggling to stay in control.
Emily opened her eyes she no longer felt him. She saw his back to her and she reached over pulling him around to look at her. "What is it?" She looked to the ground as the tears rushed to her eyes. "It's me isn't it?"
The scent of Vaseline
In the summertime
The feel of an ice cube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small
When I begin to cry
"No, God, honey, no." He pulled her to him, stroking her hair gently. "Listen, it's not you, it's me. I'm not... I'm not good enough."
Emily pulled away to look at his face. She brought her hands up to his cheeks, framing his face in her hands. "Zander, don't say that."
"Emily, come on."
"Zander, you're not that guy who kidnapped me. You made mistakes but you're paying for them. Running like this isn't easy. I know how much it's costing you what you did but I forgive you. It was a mistake."
I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed
Emily watched as he pulled away from her touch. "Emily, please, this isn't good. You could get hurt. I don't think."
"Well, I do! I want to be here!"
"I don't! Just go, Emily. Please." Zander yelled, waving her toward the door and turning away. Emily started foward and thought better. He'd just push her away harder. She sighed, "Alright, I'll leave. for now. Be careful." She waited until he nodded and walked to the entrance turning back to look at her again. He heard her walk off into the trees. His head fell into his hand as he sat on the crate she's been on. What the hell I'm I going to do.He hadn't planned any of the things that had happened. Sorel. The raves. The drugs. Emily. Canada. Today. That kiss. He looked up to the entrance seeing her standing there. He hadn't planned any of it. Least of all falling in love.
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get off your back
I think God can explain
Sonny looked out over the docks, breathing in the crisp air. He was waiting for word on a new coffee shipment due in from Peru today but his mind kept drifting to his wife. He smiled just thinking about her.
"Well, Mr. Corinthos, I'm extremely glad to see you happy."
Sonny suppressed a sigh as he turned around and nodded. "Sorel."
"Corinthos. How are you this morning?"
"What do you want Sorel?" Sonny asked impatiently. He was at the end of his rope with the idoit and today was not a day when he wanted to deal with him.
"Aren't you being a tad rude?"
"I'm not being rude. You're just insignificant."
Sonny watched Sorel reign in his temper. He was going to break a tooth clenching his face that way. Sonny smirked at the man. "If that's all."
"We have things to talk about."
"I got nothing to say to you."
Sorel moved closer coming within inches of his face. "How about Emily and Zander? Or maybe you're father? Or perhaps that beautiful wife of yours?"
Sonny's face went blank, his eyes flat as he stared the other man down. Sorel's attention was distracted for a second then suddenly a vicious light came to his eyes. "Why Mrs. Corinthos. We were just speaking about you."
Sonny's head whirled around to see his wife frozen at the top of the dock steps. Sorel extended his hand, making his way toward Carly but he felt hand push against him. He looked up to meet Sonny's cold eyes. "Don't even think about it."
Lyrics: I think God can explain by Splendor
Chapter 6
"Zander! NO!"
Zander opened his eyes and dropped the board on the boxcar floor. "Emily?"
"Nice way to greet your only friend, don't you think?"
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry." He rushed forward helping her into the boxcar. He held her as she steadied herself. They looked into each other eyes. She caressed his cheek softly. "Hi." Clearing his throat he backed away dropping his hands from her waist. "So, what are you doing here?"
She smiled slowly, bringing a package out from her pocket. "Thought you might want one."
"It's not a pixie stick, right?"
"No. Here." She shoved the small bag in his hand. Opening it he found a chocolate covered doughnut. He looked at her quizzically. "Thanks but."
"I know you don't really like sweets but I figured Carly came to see you? Right?" He nodded his head not sure where she was going. "Well, it's a well known fact that Carly loves doughnuts and a little known fact that she doesn't get to eat them because Sonny won't let her so I thought."
"What? I could bribe her with a doughnut?"
"Pretty much." She walked to the crate in the middle of the car. Sitting down, her hands on her lap, she looked up at him. "It wouldn't hurt to suck up to her."
"Oh yeah. Well, for your 411 I think Carly already likes me. So there?" He said sticking his tongue out at her. "Or is that too unbelievable?"
"I never had a doubt she'd like you."
"What makes you say that?"
"Because I like you a lot."
There's a lot of things I don't understand
And there's a lot of things I don't want to know
But you're the only face I recognize
It's so damn sweet of you
To look me in the eyes
He looked into her eyes and realized what she wasn't saying. He shook his head, "Emily.no."
She stood in front of him racing for his hands. "No what?"
"You. and . I. we can't be."
"Why not?" she asked, moving to stand closer to him, pressing her chest to his. Zander closed his eyes sucking in a breath. His heart kicked into double gear and he felt the blood rush to his loins. He opened his eyes when she whispered his name. Looking into her eyes he groaned deeply bringing his mouth down to hers.
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I believe I'm the same
I get carried away
It's all right, I'm O.K.
I think God can explain
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get over it fast
Her hands roamed into his hair pulling him closer still to her. He gripped her head gently. Moving his mouth over hers, he ran his tongue across her lower lip. Emily lost all thought. All she felt was Zander. When she felt his tongue on her lips she groaned opening her mouth willing to him. He heard her groan and it was like a bucket of cold water. He pulled back quickly turning his back to her, struggling to stay in control.
Emily opened her eyes she no longer felt him. She saw his back to her and she reached over pulling him around to look at her. "What is it?" She looked to the ground as the tears rushed to her eyes. "It's me isn't it?"
The scent of Vaseline
In the summertime
The feel of an ice cube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger than both of us
Yet it seems so small
When I begin to cry
"No, God, honey, no." He pulled her to him, stroking her hair gently. "Listen, it's not you, it's me. I'm not... I'm not good enough."
Emily pulled away to look at his face. She brought her hands up to his cheeks, framing his face in her hands. "Zander, don't say that."
"Emily, come on."
"Zander, you're not that guy who kidnapped me. You made mistakes but you're paying for them. Running like this isn't easy. I know how much it's costing you what you did but I forgive you. It was a mistake."
I'm so much better than you guessed
I'm so much bigger than you guessed
I'm so much brighter than you guessed
Emily watched as he pulled away from her touch. "Emily, please, this isn't good. You could get hurt. I don't think."
"Well, I do! I want to be here!"
"I don't! Just go, Emily. Please." Zander yelled, waving her toward the door and turning away. Emily started foward and thought better. He'd just push her away harder. She sighed, "Alright, I'll leave. for now. Be careful." She waited until he nodded and walked to the entrance turning back to look at her again. He heard her walk off into the trees. His head fell into his hand as he sat on the crate she's been on. What the hell I'm I going to do.He hadn't planned any of the things that had happened. Sorel. The raves. The drugs. Emily. Canada. Today. That kiss. He looked up to the entrance seeing her standing there. He hadn't planned any of it. Least of all falling in love.
I'm relieved, I'm relaxed
I'll get off your back
I think God can explain
Sonny looked out over the docks, breathing in the crisp air. He was waiting for word on a new coffee shipment due in from Peru today but his mind kept drifting to his wife. He smiled just thinking about her.
"Well, Mr. Corinthos, I'm extremely glad to see you happy."
Sonny suppressed a sigh as he turned around and nodded. "Sorel."
"Corinthos. How are you this morning?"
"What do you want Sorel?" Sonny asked impatiently. He was at the end of his rope with the idoit and today was not a day when he wanted to deal with him.
"Aren't you being a tad rude?"
"I'm not being rude. You're just insignificant."
Sonny watched Sorel reign in his temper. He was going to break a tooth clenching his face that way. Sonny smirked at the man. "If that's all."
"We have things to talk about."
"I got nothing to say to you."
Sorel moved closer coming within inches of his face. "How about Emily and Zander? Or maybe you're father? Or perhaps that beautiful wife of yours?"
Sonny's face went blank, his eyes flat as he stared the other man down. Sorel's attention was distracted for a second then suddenly a vicious light came to his eyes. "Why Mrs. Corinthos. We were just speaking about you."
Sonny's head whirled around to see his wife frozen at the top of the dock steps. Sorel extended his hand, making his way toward Carly but he felt hand push against him. He looked up to meet Sonny's cold eyes. "Don't even think about it."
Lyrics: I think God can explain by Splendor