Chapter: I won't say
A/N: The song I use for this chapter is from Disney's Hercules. I love this song and just had to put it in. I hope you guys like it.
Random thought: Have you ever noticed that Cho Chang's name sounds like the sound a cash register makes?
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"How long has this been going on?"
Ginny did not respond.
"How long Ginny?"
"A year and two months."
Hermione felt oddly light headed.
Tears swelled in her eyes as she watched Hermione drop the picture to the floor.
"I never meant to hurt anyone."
"Ginny, this will hurt Harry."
"I know. I never meant to." Tears fell down her cheeks in frequent streams.
"You know you will have to tell him."
She hung her head and cried.
Hermione pulled her into a hug.
"I can't do this."
"Yes you can Gin."
"No…I can't." Tears fell onto Hermione's shoulder.
"You can't hurt him any longer."
"I can't do that to him."
"How about this, I will help you find the things to say to him so when he comes over tomorrow you will break the news."
She nodded.
"Movie?"
Ginny nodded once more.
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The scent of pancakes filled Hermione's nostrils. Her eyes fluttered open and she stared a te ceiling. She sat up and noticed Ginny wasn't in the bed. Hermione pulled back the covers and put her feet on the floor. She stretched her arms into the air and gave a big yawn.
Her feet shuffled on the floor as she followed the scent to the kitchen where Ginny made a plate of pancakes.
"Hey Gin."
"Morning Hermione."
"Morning."
"Pancakes?" Ginny held out the plate.
Hermione nodded and sat down at the table. Ginny smiled and forked three pancakes on to a plate.
"So your telling him tonight aren't you?"
Ginny's smile faded.
"Yes you are."
"Okay."
"Need help?"
" I think I will have to do this myself."
Hermione nodded and cut a large piece and placed it into her mouth. "Great pancakes."
"Thanks."
Hermione smiled. Ginny gave a quick smile before returning back to the stove.
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Harry moved his finger along the flat edge of his glass of butterbeer. He waited for Ginny at their favorite table in their favorite restaurant. His hair was messy so he ran his fingers through it.
"H-Hello Harry."
Harry looked up to see his girlfriend adorned with a look of guilt and sadness. She nervously intertwined her fingers around each other.
"Hey babe." He got up and kissed her on the cheek.
She quietly sat down and would not look directly at Harry.
"What's troubling you?" Harry asked as he sat down.
Ginny sadly raised her eyes to his. She reached across the table and took his hand into hers.
"Is something wrong Ginny?"
"I can't lie to you anymore."
Harry frowned. "What?"
Her eyes gathered tears at the corners.
"Harry, you know I love you."
"…Yes."
"You have always been so kind to me in our relationship, but in the back of my mind I did not believe I deserved it. I thought you were too good for me."
"Too good for you? What are you talking about?"
"Harry, in the back of my mind I knew I would screw this up. And I did." Ginny began to cry.
Harry gave her a caring look.
"Let me start from the beginning. Remember last year when you went on an auror mission for a whole weekend with Ron?"
"Yeah."
"Well I went out that day to the Leaky Cauldron, seeing if I could find someone to hang out with. That is when he walked in."
"He?" Harry did not like the way he stressed the word.
"Draco walked over and sat next to me. Well, I was lonely and you know how much I flirt. Well we got into a deep conversation and decided to go out to dinner with him, you know to catch up on old times."
Harry had a bad feeling about the direction this story was going.
"So we met up for dinner where Draco ordered me a lot of drinks. I did not know why at the time. I ordered a virgin cocktail but with every drink I became more, alive. By the time we left. I had drunk 8 of them. Not to find out till later that they weren't virgin cocktails."
"You were drunk."
"You can say that. So Draco held me up as I stumbled out of the place. Next thing I knew we were in his flat."
Harry definitely had a bad feeling about his.
Ginny tried to keep her composure. "He smiled at me and then handed me a glass of champagne. I wasn't in the right mind so I took it. But after I did so, I blacked out. The next day I woke up next to him, in his bed with a wicked hangover. He gave me some potion to fix the hangover and we got to talking. He told me that he liked me and he began to kiss me. Suddenly I felt that it felt right. I wanted to kiss him. A wave of emotions came over me and I could not control myself. I left his house the next day to return to your home to welcome you back."
Harr's mouth fell into an "o" shape.
"After you had returned I would miss him and crave for his attention. I knew it was wrong of me but knowing that drove me to do it. I did not feel like we were really in love in the first place. I thought of us as two people who fancied each other who wanted to live together. So when you would go on missions, I went and spent time with Draco at work."
Harry pulled his hands away from her. "No."
Ginny cried for him. "Yes. I have a relationship with Draco now. I love Draco and he loves me. I stayed with you this long because I did not want to hurt you. You used to mean the world to me but then I felt like I had to fight for your attention. I needed someone I could spend time with since you were always busy."
"Don't turn this on me Ginny. I was working. I have an important job. I work to help people and to support myself. You don't do anything but sit around at your desk all day. I expected you to be faithful, I remained faithful to you."
"I couldn't tell you because I did not want to hurt you."
"Well you did a good job of that didn't you?" Harry bellowed.
Ginny cried harder.
"Why Ginny, why me?"
Ginny continued to cry. "You were too good for me. You deserve better."
"Damn right I deserve better!"
Her eyes fell to the floor.
"I can't believe this. How could you?"
"I don't know."
"That isn't a good enough answer."
Ginny bit her bottom lip.
"I can't sit here any longer. Goodbye Ginny. Maybe someday I will forgive you. But not now. Right now it hurts too much."
Ginny looked away. She couldn't bring herself to watch him walk away.
Hermione got out of her booth and walked toward her friend. "It's better this way."
"I guess you're right."
Hermione stroked her head as she cried.
"I think I will go to Draco's tonight because I have a feeling Harry will be looking for you."
"I guess you're right."
Ginny wiped her tears and apparated to the Malfoy household.
Hermione apparated to Ron's home thinking Harry would go there first.
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Luna and Raven were watching a children's movie when Hermione arrived.
"Hello Luna."
"Hermione is that you?" Luna began to turn around.
"Yes. I came here in case Harry did. Did he?"
"Not to my knowledge, why?"
Hermione watched Raven drinking out of her sippy cup. "Ginny just told Harry that she cheated on him."
Luna's jaw dropped. "You're not serious."
Hermione nodded. "So I was thinking that he would apparate here to talk to Ron."
"Well Ron just ran out to get some dinner. Would you liked to stay for dinner?"
"Sure as long as I am not in the way."
Luna shook her head. "No of course not. Let me call Ronald." Hermione smiled.
Luan pulled out her cell phone and dialed her husband's number. "Ron…hey honey. I invited Hermione to eat with us. She has some interesting news to share…you can't find out until you get back. Love you…bye." Luna looked up at Hermione. "Sit down, get comfortable."
Hermione sat down and Raven smiled.
"Aunt 'mione! Aunt 'mione!"
"Hello Raven."
"Mommy and I are watching a princess movie."
"Are you a princess Raven?"
She nodded. "Are you a princess?"
Hermione looked at Luna. "Yes."
"We can play princess together." Raven jumped on the couch.
"Of course we can.
Raven scooted herself off the couch and ran toward her bedroom.
"She has dress up clothes."
Hermione began to laugh.
"How has it been living with Ginny?"
"It's been one day."
"Still."
"Great, we has a great girl time last night."
"That's good."
Luna paused the movie Raven was watching and turned to Hermione.
"I am surprised you have a television." Hermione giggled.
"I had one as a kid. I wanted Raven to live like a muggle except she would have wizard blood."
"I see."
"Hermione I have a question. Some thing has been bothering me."
Hermione was shocked. What would be bothering her? "What is it?"
"Do you fancy Harry. In a romantic sense, not just as a friend."
"Harry is my best friend, I don't have any other feelings."
"But you did date him back at Hogwarts."
"I know but we have grown up and matured since then."
"Why did you guys break up in the first place?"
Hermione twisted some hair on her shoulder.
"Well, first we used to fight over little things. He would get mad when I would partner with someone other than him during class. Then I would get mad when he would spend all of his free time at quidditch practice. We loved each other but I think we were too young for love."
"I remember hearing that other Griffyndor girls were jealous of you and Harry so they would tell Harry wrong information just so he wouldn't trust you."
Hermione looked shocked. Well anyway I am doing great on my own. I finish my healer training soon. I don't need a frustrating relationship right now."
Luna raised her eyebrow.
Hermione: If there's a prize for rotten judgment,
I guess I've already won that.
No man is worth the aggravation.
That's ancient history,
Been there, done that!
Luna: Who'd ya think you're kiddin'
He's the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and who you're thinking of
Hermione got off the couch and shakes her head.
Hermione: No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
Luna got to her feet and imitated her.
Luna: you swoon, you sigh
Why deny it, uh-oh
Hermione spun around and folded her arms.
Hermione: It's too cliché
I won't say I'm in love
Hermione approached a picture of Harry and Ron from Ron's wedding.
Hermione: I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry you're heart out, oh
Luna took the picture into her own hands breaking Hermione from her trance.
Luna: You keep denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
Hermione faced her and put her hands on her hips.
Hermione: No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
Luna rolled her eyes and placed her hands on Hermione's shoulders.
Luna: Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
Hermione felt her mouth which was smiling and quickly frowned. She walked toward a picture of their graduation day. Harry and Ron stood on either side of her and they all had their arms on each other's shoulders.
Hermione: This scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love
Luna put a picture of Harry holding Raven when she was born next to the picture Hermione was looking at. Hermione smiled.
Luna: You're doin' flips
Read my lips
You're in love
Hermione wiped the smile from her face and walked away from Luna once more walking down the hall toward Raven's room.
Hermione: You're way off base
I won't say it
She turned around to see Luna following her. She opened the door to Raven's room and quickly stepped into it and closed the door behind her. She leaned against it.
Hermione: Get off my case
I won't say it
Luna folded her arms and waited outside the door.
Luna: Girl, don't be proud
It's okay you're in love
Hermione looked at a picture Raven had from what looked like her last birthday and Harry has giving Ron bunny ears.
Hermione: Oh, at least out loud
I won't say I'm in…
Hermione slid along the door until she reached the floor.
Hermione: …Love
Luna smiled and went back to the living room and returned the picture she held to it's proper place.