Key:
(Flashbacks)
("Speaking Flashbacks")
-Song-
-"Being Sung"-
"Talking/Speaking"
'Thoughts/Thinking'
Some Words:
Hai- Yes
Iie- No
Kami- God
Takusan- A-lot
Sukoshi- A little
Doko- Where?
(Domo) Arigato- Thank you (very much)
Sumimasen- Excuse me/Sorry for quick mess up
Moshi moshi- Hello on phone
Konnichiwa- Hello (until the afternoon)
Ja'ne/ Ja ne- Extremely casual goodbye. Not used when talking to elders.
Sayoonara- Formal Goodbye.
Gomen nasai- Sorry, for big mess up.
Aishite-iru- I love you.
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Input- How Would You Know?:
"Hai, how would I know. I don't know what happened in that house. But I know one thing."
"Hai, what is that?"
"That... You're hiding something from me. From all of us."
"What's there to tell, Ami-chan?" I stand up and look down at her.
"Mako... Please, I want to help you." She stands up and looks up at me with those pleading eyes again.
"Ami, you don't need to know."
"Hai, I don't. But... I want to know, 'Koto. Please...?" 'Those eye... AGAIN!!!' I sigh.
"Let's head home before the others worry, because I didn't leave a note." I walk to ward the house and notice she isn't walking next to me.
I turn around. "Ami, do you want to get mugged or something, or come some with me? It's..." I pause to look at me watch, "7:06. Let's go." I wait for her to catch home, once she does we walk home with silence, but with the enjoyment of each other's company.
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Night Alone- C. 3: 'Night Alone'
(-Makoto's Point of View-)
When Ami and I got home, we went upstairs and went our separate to our own bedrooms. After I closed and locked my door; I plugged in my headphones in my CD Player, MP3 RCA; turned in all the way up and listened to number 4. 'Night Alone' by MEST. Then I lie down on the soft, crimson-red, carpeted floor staring at the ceiling.
-This wasn't just another night alone. My mind has cornered me against the wall. Bleeding, scratching-Fingernails are gone. The scars on my wall will tell this all.-
I just lie there, while questions bullet in one second then out another second in my mind. 'Why are you lying to your friends? Do you think they will disown you as a friend because you haven't told them a long time ago? Tell them, or don't? Tell? No. Yes. No.'
-I'm feeling like the worst is yet to come, because the night has just begun!-
I close my eyes and half doze, 'cause I can't sleep with this loud music on.
-Please let me breathe! You're choking me! And, my feelings...-
("I can't believe you told my mom! You fucking little snitch!" Suno grabs me by the throat and chokes me.)
My eyes snap open and I gasp then sit up.
-This is my fault! Downward I fall! My mind's slipping... My mind's slipping away.-
I stand up, unlock to the door and head on downstairs to the Music Room. But, I call it 'The Basement.' Because, that's what it originally was before we re-did the house.
Once I got downstairs, I put the CD in the stereo, plug in my guitar, turn the AMP on, turn the Microphone on and skip to the part that it originally was on. Then I start to sing.
-"I never thought this night could come again. My mind has proven me wrong in the end. And, confidence in me is wearing thin. No mater what... My mind will win!"-
I used to sing, in a band. Called Sentaku Shito X-10. But, then we split up due to school, work and all. But, don't get me wrong, I still sing 'cause it's what I do. I kinda gave it up because of Kickboxxing, Jujitsu and Karate.
Singing for me, when I'm bored or whatever, is like a... A... A natural high. I like doing it for the hell of it.
I close my eyes and continue to sing.
-"Please let me breathe! You're choking me! And, my feelings..."-
(Suno-san starts choking me with his hand and punching my stomach with the free one. I kick him, as hard as I can, where it hurts the fucker.)
My eyes snap open and I keep singing.
-"This my fault! Downward I fall! My mind's slipping... My mind's slipping away."-
I start playing my Eleckie (Electric Guitar), and play the mini-solo I made up. I like remixing songs a bit, but not like turntables. I mean, sometimes, but not all the time.
I mostly 'remix' songs, when I'm all by myself, with an Eleckie/Acoustic/E. Acoustic/12 String.
-"Away... Away... Away... Fading"-
I go back up to the microphone, inhale deeply and go at it.
-"Quietly Please let me breathe, you're choking me and, my feelings..."-
Ami, Minako and Michiru walk in quietly, but I don't know and I'm not paying much attention to much accept my vocal status. And, also, the door is 47 feet behind me and I'm facing the windows looking out at the beach and the city. I hate Surprise Visitors. Unless they're old band mates and all.
-"Louder, Almost Screaming PLEASE LET ME BREATHE! YOU'RE CHOKING ME! AND MY FEELINGS!"-
-I run to the door leaving Suno-san lying there. I open the door and the next door, slip my sneakers on and run. Just, run. Forgetting what happened back there. I just keep running. Not knowing where I am heading or going. 'I will run until I am completely safe. Away from there.'-
I take the guitar off, take the mic in my hand and keep singing with what anger and pain I have in me.
-"This is my FAULT! Downward I FALL! My mind's slipping... My mind's slipping... AWAY!"-
The whole time I was singing, I kept my back toward the door. No matter what I did. If I ended up facing the door, I turn back around. But, that only happened once during this session.
So, I'm looking at the beach, which has a beautiful orange-ish, reddish, gold-ish color mixed together. Even though the rising sun is on the other side, all the mixture of colors are just... There. It's gorgeous.
After the song is completely over, I turn everything off and unplug everything but the stereo. Then, I turn around, eyes still closed and head down. I lift my head up as I'm walking toward the door. 25 feet and counting down. I open my eyes.
"WAAAAAIIIII!!!!!!!!!" I jump and fall down on my back. "Koi..."
"Smooooooth, 'Koto-chan." Minako giggles while Michiru and Ami are like... All... Worried if I can say so.
"Oh, my god! Are you okay? Is anything broken? Gomen nasai!!" Blah... Blah... BLAH! I stand up and tell them I'm fine, nothing's broken, and no need for an apology.
"Are you sure?" Ami says checking on me and straightening my shirt and brushing dirt off me.
"I'm... Fine..." I say trying hard not to stiffen at her touch.
"Just making sure. You never know." Mina' says. I smile.
"Thanks for your concern. Now, let's go upstairs. I'll make you a big breakfast." I keep smiling.
"YAY!" hey squeal. I cover my ears 'cause it hurts. Hahaha.
"Don't tell the guys, they'll get jealous of me cooking for you instead of them cooking for you... Like they can cook anyway. Don't tell them I said that either." I chuckle.
"We promise." They all say in unison.
"Okay. Atten-tion!" I say. They line up in formation. "About. Face!" They do so, giggling. "March!" They keep giggling and head upstairs while I'm right behind them, turning the off the lights and shutting the door.
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To Be Continued... C.4: Take My Hand