In this chapter : Jin's POV on the events... angsty, not suicidal.

A/N : Meh.... stupid computer keeps crashing X.x. Driving me nuts x.x. Oh well, it's life. At least I still get good reviews! Just hit 30!!! =) ((throws mini-bash and gives cookies to everyone that reviewed)). I won't drop this fic XD. Only ze end of ze world will force me to stop it!! . ((hopes it won't come now)). Gotta get Jin and Hwo back together first! =) This chapter's kinda short as well, but once I'll go back with the flashbacks it'll be longer. Oh yeah... something's wrong with the HTML formatting X.X

Reminiscence
Chapter 15 : Mistake Part 2

And to think I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life... that stuff kills me. I should've listened to Xiaoyu earlier and chose someone else. The result : now I'm alone and heartbroken. It hurts because he was the only guy I've ever felt a really close connection with. With girls it wasn't the same thing, I have no idea why. But Hwoarang was.... special. He was everything I was looking for. I though I was everything he was looking for as well.

I was wrong. He had another guy in his life... hold on. I was that other guy. The thing I still don't get is why he was with me while he kinda seemed he hated me? Except for the fact we had met much earlier.

"Jin... you OK?"

"Heh... I've been better." I sigh. Why can't she leave me alone five seconds... oh no. No... everything but what I'm thinking of.

I bet that she thinks that she'll be able to go out with me because it's over with Hwoarang. She's wrong on that. If I want a girlfriend, I'll chose someone else. I love her... just not this way. Maybe I haven't been too serious about that issue. I spent my youth with her, and most of my teenagehood. So basically, she's expecting me to love her back. Which I don't do. She's extremely nice, she'd be the perfect girl for the perfect guy... but not for me. I don't want to know what would happen if we had a relationship going on, and if we'd break up... I prefer having her as a best friend than not having her in my life at all. I think that's why I always refused to go out with her. Yeah.

"The laundry's done. Just need to fold it now hehe."

"... alright."

There's not just my clothes. Most of Hwoarang's stuff is still here. I might send it back to his appartment through mail. No, have to find a better way. I'm going to drop it at the doorstep. Later though. I don't want to face him right now. Might turn into Devil or something like that... and I don't want to hurt him. Even though he hurted me. I don't want revenge, just him out of my life.

What if there's a fourth Iron First Tournament and he'll be there? He'd probably want to kill me for leaving or something like that. Or what if he wants to go out with me again? I don't trust him anymore and I'd have a hard time going back with him. Are all guys like this? I still love him but I'm not ready to be with him once again. I'm not even sure I'll get another boyfriend... I never was into guys. Being raised by Heihachi didn't help anything. If he'd have seen me with Hwoarang two days ago... he would've kicked me out his house – mansion.

Anyways, got to fold that laundry now.

When I'll have answered the phone, that is. Wish I'd have brought the cordless phone with me in the living room... "Moshi moshi?"

"Jin?"

"Hwoarang?!"

"... yeah. Look, it's all a big mistake -"

"Hang up now."

"Jin LISTEN to me, just a sec.... Jin..." Gotta hang up. I don't want to talk to him.

Now the laundry.

As soon as I have my back turned away, the phone rings again. God... "Xiao, can you answer this one for me please?"

"Alright!"

NOW the laundry. Have to do it some time.

That's where I miss Hwoarang. When I see his clothes. I'm pissed off at his behaviour, yes. But somehow... I wish I'd still be with him. Or that Xiaoyu didn't follow him around.

Or that we never met after the Third Iron Fist Tournament.

This way I wouldn't be hurt, and he would still be happily living with his gang, seeing who he wants whenever he wants. Might be better this way actually. I'm going to find a girlfriend, getting a family, kids, a big house...

I could've gotten all of this with him as well. Without the kids part. And even there... adoption. I think he would be a great father. Unless he'd cheat all the time. For the sake of his next lovers, I hope he doesn't. Must be hard getting cheated all the time without knowing it. Why can't I stop thinking about that? It's over with him. I'm done with it. I should be able to get over it... but I can't. I just can't.

It hurts me because I was happy. I had the chance to know much better someone who I thought hated me, had a loving relationship with him and now, it happens. I'm being cheated on and I have no idea why. Should've asked him.

Nah. It's going to stay this way. And if he comes to see me, I'll send him away. When I look at those pictures... it kills me. On one, he's in Ran's arms. On the other as well. There's once where Ran has his arm over Hwoarang's shoulders, and one where they're having sex. I'll never be able to touch him like this, to hold him in my own arms again. He smelled so good, and he tasted good as well. I loved to hold him close to me, with his skin so soft... I should've listened to me last night and asked him to be more intimate.

In another way... nope. I would've get too much attached, and right now I'd me much more heartbroken. So it's better this way.

This photograph...

Hold on. Something's not right. Something I can't really pinpoint... but it's not right. How come I never noticed Hwoarang had tattoos...

Holy shit. If he doesn't have any tattoos, then how come on this one he has? Or he got them... no he didn't get them at all... he never left the house without me except today, and the tattoos would probably be bleeding on the pic.

So does it mean that Hwoarang was right, and that Xiaoyu lied to me..... ?? In that case I'd better get my ass out of here before he does anything crazy!

And I know where he might be.

His appartment.

To be continued....

A/N 2 : WHEW! Jin finally realized he was wrong! =). What about Hwoarang though? If you know me, very predictable XD. Now trying to get 45 reviews! =D