CRUSH

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Chapter 1

This is a story, about a girl. Not ordinary girl, not your average girl but even a boy can make this incredible girl change into something else. She hid behind a corner for what seemed like hours. Spying would be out of proportion to describe what she was really doing behind that wall. All she knew was that she had to escape and he could not and must not see her. Not in that state. Not while she was feeling the way she did. If he did, he would...he would, what the heck, she didn't know what he would do or what he would say but if he knew there would be chaos. She thought. She looked around to see if the coast was clear. When it seemed safe to show her face she immediately ran down the steps. Before she knew it he was at the very bottom. It was as though she was playing a game of hide and seek with him and no matter how good her tactics were he always found a way of beating her. He turned around and gently smiled. She immediately blushed. She was so ashamed that she didn't want him seeing her that way. "Where are you off to in such a hurry?" he asked.

Sakura looked up and smiled. "Home." She said. He gazed at her and she felt even more ashamed. Her knees got weak and her hands began to tremble. She took one step forward but ended up falling in his arms.

"Sakura, are you okay." She immediately stood up and released herself.

"Of course, um...I really have to go." She said still blushing.

"Hey, do you want me to walk you home."

"Yeah, I mean no. I'll be okay. See, I'm smiling that means you have nothing to worry about. Bye!"

Sakura dashed out leaving Li stunned. He didn't understand, Sakura was acting strange, what he didn't know was that she didn't understand it either. She could not explain why it was that whenever he was around she drifted away from reality. She would blush like crazy. It wasn't always like this. Only a few weeks ago she could talk to him without hesitating, hold his hand without melting. But since the trip to the aquarium she hadn't been the same. She saw him in a whole new way. For starters he looked much cuter than he ever has and not to mention he was more soft than she had ever imagined him to be. What did it all mean? In a way she knew the answer to that but yet she wanted to deny it as long as she could. Everything she thought took a turn that very night.

"Where are you...?" Sakura said. There seemed to be no presence but she kept hearing a voice calling her.

"Who are you...?" she repeated. Suddenly a light beamed from the darkness. She kept running toward it but it seemed as though the closer she got the further it went. "Come back." She yelled.

"Sakura, what's the matter?" a voice said. She turned around and it was Li looking transparent. She walked toward him and said. "The light...it's running away from me."

"So..." He said.

"It's my only way out!"

"Hold my hand." Sakura slowly reached for it but she ended up slipping right through it.

"Are you a ghost?"

"Li didn't answer, instead he grabbed her wrist." He stroked her hair and softly touched her chin. For some reason she had an urge to touch him but no matter how hard she tried her finger went right through him. "Why can't I touch you?" she asked.

"You're scared." He said.

"No, I'm not."

He moved his face closer to hers "Then why can't you feel me?"

Ring!! (Sound of an alarm clock.) Sakura woke up from what partly seemed like a night mare. The dream was still fresh in her mind. In a way she was worried for her dreams usually meant something. She needed help, his face was everywhere.

"Tomoyo, I can't do this anymore." Sakura explained to her best friend.

"Avoid him?"

Sakura nodded "Last night I dreamt that I couldn't touch him. I couldn't feel him but he was holding me, he told me that I was afraid."

"Maybe you are." Tomoyo said.

"Afraid, what can I possibly be afraid of."

"Well, you've been trying to avoid him the past weeks."

Tomoyo had a point but what was she suppose to do, she was falling in love with her friend and for her that was anything but normal.

"I don't want to avoid him but, how am I suppose to act when he is around. I can barely control myself."

Tomoyo pondered for a second "I know. Avoid eye contact. Maybe his eyes are what weaken you."

"I've tried that, but I can't help it."

"Have you tried being yourself?"

"How can I? I haven't really been myself since I started having these feelings."

Tomoyo contemplated again "Sakura, there is only one thing you can do. Tell him."

Sakura sighed "I was afraid you would say that, is there another alternative."

"No, Sakura, think about it. You could be on the verge of something; you and Li are obviously meant to be. I thought he once had feelings for you."

Sakura moaned "They probably all disappeared when he went to China." She leaned on a table.

"What are the chances, I could film you two. I could see it right now on billboards all over town 'I DREAM OF LI' or even better 'DEEPER THAN DEEPER' by me. A love story Sakura a high school girl who has fallen hard for a mysterious young man. Sakura has no idea how this guy feels. She tells him and they share a passionate kiss, at the beach...during sunset...in the Bahamas...stranded on an Island with no food or water. All they have is each other. Li the romantic hero thinks Sakura is only a child who fantasizes too much about romance and Sakura thinks that Li lacks compassion and will never learn to love. In the middle of the movie they begin to develop a soft spot for each other. Ha...how do I come up with these things? I so smart it scares me." Tomoyo grinned to herself as stars practically shone in her eyes.

"Is anybody home?" Sakura said waving her arms in Tomoyo's face. Tomoyo shook the thought and looked at Sakura.

"You have got to find a way of telling Li how you feel."

Sakura frowned, for some reason she just didn't want to ruin a perfectly good friendship. "I'm sorry to burst your bubble but it's not happening. At least not in this life time"

Tomoyo showed a sigh of sadness. "Why not, I don't understand. All you have to do is say it."

"You make it sound so easy but it isn't. First I have to stop being so nervous around him and I'm not even sure on how he really feels about me."

"Maybe I can ask him for you, you know bring it out of nowhere." Tomoyo said.

"I'm not sure if I'm even ready to be more that friends but thanks anyway." Sakura said.

That next day at school Sakura was still playing her game of hide and seek. She crept to the classroom. She reach her seat and took a deep breath, before she knew it Li was already in front of her. As usual Sakura freaked causing her to lean against her chair which led to her falling straight on the floor.

"Sakura are you okay?" Li asked.

Sakura slowly opened her eyes, she heard Li's voice but the image was blurry. Her eyes fluttered and she began to see shadows. She assumed the whole class was around her. She immediately got up. "I'm okay." She said. She could hear a few of the students giggle. When she was finally on her feet she lost her balance but Li caught her again. The students laughed even louder.

"Sakura are you sure you are okay?" Li asked slowly releasing her from his arms. She nodded and picked up her chair. She sat on it and leaned on the desk burring her head in her arms. "Great, I'm the joke of the day." She frowned.

"Look at the bright side. You didn't get hurt." Li said.

"Sure." Sakura said. The embracement was too much to bear.

"I'm sorry; I should have never crept on you like that." Li said, hopping she would at least look at him but she didn't. She just said. "It's not your fault, I'm just a klutz."

"Yeah, your right." Li said lightheartedly.

Sakura smiled "I take it all back, it's your fault."

Tomoyo walked in and she made a gesture saying "tell him." But Sakura ignored it.

"So are you auditioning for Romeo and Juliet?" Li asked.

It just hit Sakura that she forgot to practice for a role. "Um...yeah of course." Sakura shrugged waving her arm.

"Which role are you auditioning for?"

"Um, the Mom." Sakura said for she had no idea what the play was really about. She only knew the basics.

"Which Mom?" Li asked.

"Both?" Sakura replied as though she was asking a question.

"I'm aiming for Romeo."

'Why didn't I just say Juliet?" Sakura thought. "Li, you do know there is a kissing scene...right?" Sakura ensured though the question began to sound awkward but then again they were friends.

Li nodded. "It's kind of weird doing a scene like that with someone you barely know. Hey...Sakura why don't you audition for Juliet" Sakura's face turned different shades of red in a second. The thought of kissing Li crawled into her mind and before she knew it she was out of breath. 'What is going through his mind?' Sakura asked herself.

"Um...you see the thing is...um." Sakura was so tense she didn't know what to say. A little voice in the back of her head told her to say yes but yet she didn't want Li to sense her excitement.

"Sakura, your all red!" Li said "Is it the kissing scene? You know, you don't have to do it."

"Wait!" Sakura exclaimed still blushing "I'll do it for all the right reasons of course." Sakura assured him.

The auditions were held in the morning and the results were to be announced after school. Sakura was more than nervous about the whole situation. She wanted to be Juliet but yet having a lead role was chancy especially when most of her scenes were with Li. She didn't want to end up looking like a tomato in space yet she didn't want to see anyone else kiss Li but her. Before she knew it some of the students were rushing to the library claiming that the results were out. "Sakura aren't you going to see which role you got?" said Tomoyo practically sweating. Sakura smiled "No, I'm better off waiting for the news to come to me."

"Okay, I'll tell you which role you got!" Tomoyo said running to the Library.

Sakura got out of the classroom and stepped outside. The corridors were empty.

Sakura had been in so many plays but she didn't know how she could be so worked up about a role. The whole thing was driving her crazy. She just had to get the part. She got up from her seat and walked across the room. She couldn't stand it, the suspense was killing her. She just had to know. Though she didn't really put much in it at the beginning she gave it her all. Soon she ran out of patience. She got out of the classroom and ran to the library. When she got there she peaked through an open door. The Sensei was explaining the level of spirit he expected from each one of them. Sakura spotted Li but he did not see her. The Sensei took out a white paper and said "Now to the roles." The moment he said these words Sakura went death. All she heard was him saying Rika as the nurse. Everything else was blank. The next thing she knew everyone was congratulating her. 'Did I get the part' she asked herself.

Tomoyo walked in Sakura's direction.

"Am I Juliet?" Sakura asked.

"Yeah, weren't you listening?" Sakura showed a sigh of relief. "And who is Romeo."

"Um...was it Eroil." Tomoyo said.

Sakura's eyes widened with shock.

"No...no, I remember it was Li."

Once again Sakura sighed in relief. She looked around for Li but there was no sign of him.

That afternoon as she walked home she kept thinking weather or not this play would make Li like her when she heard someone calling her name. She turned around and it was Li almost out of breath. 'Be cool.' Sakura said to herself.

He finally reached her. Taking a deep breath he looked at her. "I was calling you, didn't you hear me?"

Sakura nodded sideways "What's wrong, it's not everyday you follow me home."

"Did you get the role of Juliet?"

"Yup!" Sakura smiled proud of her achievement.

"Good, we need to practice." Li said walking past her.

"Practice?" Sakura asked.

"The play is three weeks; I don't think anyone can learn Shakespeare in three weeks without practicing."

"Huh...I guess we have to."

"Since we are close to your house we'll practice there...by the way is your brother home?"

"No, he's helping out with something at the community centre."

The moment they reached Sakura's house Sakura grabbed a meal and they practiced. Their first scene together was to take place at Capulet's party. This is where they first meet. They go through all the lines till they realize they skipped the kissing scene.

"Sakura, I think we forgot our first kiss." Li began to blush.

To Sakura it was almost as though he was talking about the two of them but he wasn't. She turned a bright shed of red as she waited for him to say something.

"So...um where do we start?" Li asked.

"Li, I've got a confession to make...I've never been kissed so if I do it wrong. Don't laugh." Sakura said softly. Sakura assumed that Li was more experienced then her.

"Okay, um when you kiss first you close your eyes." And Sakura did. What she didn't know was that while her eyes were closed Li was trying to figure out which side his face should be when he kisses her. He looked at her, still with her eyes closed.

When Sakura realized that she was not feeling anything she opened one of her eyes.

"What's the matter?' Sakura asked as her heart pumped faster than it ever had.

"I don't want to do it wrong." He said.

"It doesn't matter, its only practice." Sakura said.

They both closed their eyes and their heads drew closer, they bumped into each others nose.

"I'm sorry." Sakura said.

"No, I'm the one who should be sorry." Li said. He looked at Sakura who was blushing almost as much as he was.

"Let's take a break." She said.

"Um Sakura..." Li began. "Just for the record, I've never kissed anyone before neither."

Sakura looked at him then turned away with a smirk on her face. Maybe she would be less hesitant about the whole thing since it will also be Li's first time.

"So...do you really want me to be your first?" Li asked.

Sakura didn't know what to say, the obvious answer was 'yes' but what will she tell him.

He looked at her anxiously waiting for an answer.

"I don't know, I mean we are friends so it's better than kissing a stranger, right?"

Li nodded. "It's past five, I better get going." He said.

"Okay, I'll walk you to the door."

Li was now gone and she couldn't shake the thought that he will be the first guy she would ever kiss. She kept thinking of him and how it must have made him feel. Before she could think any further the door opened. It was Touya with a bag of groceries.

"Hey, what are you smiling about?" he asked in a bothered tone.

Sakura tried wiping off the smile on her face but she just couldn't. She helped Tori with the groceries and by the time she was done placing them in their rightful places she still had that smile kept Touya wondering.

"Something happen at school today?" He asked in a more friendly tone.

Sakura took a deep breath as her eyes brightened "No, nothing out of this word." She shrugged almost dancing on her tip toes.

"You look like you belong in a musical." Touya commented but Sakura ignored him.

That morning she went to school extra early and believe me this was unlike her. The reason was partly to tell Tomoyo what had happen the previous afternoon and partly to see Li's face again after all he was always punctual. Sakura explained from when he followed her home to when he left. She didn't say much on the almost kiss part of her was too embarrassed to even talk about it.

"So you're practicing again?" Tomoyo asked.

"I don't know." Sakura replied uncertain. She looked at her wrist watch and there still was no sign of Li 'where could he be?' she asked herself restlessly. The day went by so slow and Li did not show up. Sakura felt even more worried, she began to think of the worst possible things that might have happened to him 'what if someone kidnapped him or if he got hurt.' She became conscious that her mind was playing games with her; the obvious reason would be that he fell sick. But if he was sick would he get well fast enough to do the play with her. Questions filled her mind as she tried to forecast why Li didn't show up. This time around she didn't want to avoid him anymore; she wanted to be with him.

That afternoon she decided to pay him a visit straight after school. She found herself on his doorstep trying to fix her uniform that was in a mess. She finally rang the door bell. The door opened immediately.

"Oh... hey" Li said in a distressed tone.

Sakura glanced at him for a second. "Your sick aren't you." She said in great sympathy.

"Yeah, I sort of came across a fever." He said as his voice weakened even more.

"Well, what are you doing standing here, you better get into bed." Sakura was more than concerned; she was terrified that her Romeo was sick.

"It's okay, it's no big deal."

"No big deal, you need to have your strength for the play."

"I don't think I'll be able to do it."

"Don't say that." Sakura said panicky. If he quitted then she would have to quit too.

She got into the house not forgetting to close the door. "I've got the scripts and I can make soup. All you have to do is rest. If you're too sleepy I'll read them to you while you're asleep, I read somewhere that psychiatrist recommend it. You can rest on the couch.

10 minutes later

"Oh Romeo where art though Romeo." There was no reply. "Where art though Romeo?" she repeated. She turned around to see that Li was already fast asleep. She could just melt, for some reason ever since she began having feelings for him, it seems as though no matter what it was he was doing he always looked cute. She glanced at him. "What would you do if I told you?" she whispered to him.

She stroked his hair and embraced him. "I don't understand, one minute I'm worried about what I'm going to do this summer and the next thing is...I can't stop thinking about you." She slightly smiled "I wonder what you would do."

Still deep in slumber Li turned his head to the other side "You would probably laugh or think I'm joking." She sighed. She ran her fingers through his hair as she hummed a song.

Li woke up, he was not sure how long it had been since he fell asleep but for some reason he felt better. Before he could get up he realized that Sakura's head was lying on his chest. He couldn't move. He looked at her. She was so peaceful, he couldn't help but wonder what it was she was dreaming about. She rubbed her head alongside his chest her actions were similar to those of a cat while sleeping. "Sakura" Li said trying to wake her up. He shook her head, but the more he did, the closer she moved to his face. He tried moving again but he was too weak. Li took a close look at her "get up." he said as his face slowly began to turn red.

"Li, I have feelings..." Sakura mumbled. Li could not make out what she was trying to say. He kept quiet waiting for her to say something else

"Li, I'm in love...Romeo and Juliet." She mumbled again. This time Li heard half of what she was saying.

Sakura felt great warmth of comfort. She knew she was on the verge of waking up but she didn't want to. She felt safe and free from everything else. There was a beating sound but she didn't care. Who would in such a situation? She slowly opened her eyes. She noticed that she was not in her room. She looked up to see Li's face. Her face turned red. She instantly removed her head from his chest and got up.

"Did I fall asleep?" she said still blushing.

"Yeah, you're such a deep sleeper, no wonder you are usually late for school."

Sakura felt even more humiliated. She grabbed her backpack and smiled. "I'm really sorry, I haven't been myself lately."

Li just grinned "Do you normally talk in your sleep?" Li asked.

Sakura remembered her dream where she and Li were on a date. "What did I say!" she panicked.

"Not much, you kept saying my name though and something about love."

Sakura couldn't breathe; she turned her head away from him so he could not see the look on her face.

"Um...really...did I say that, I don't even remember what the dream was about?" She lied.

"It must have been good, you just couldn't wake up." Li said sitting up.

"Yeah..." Sakura said with a dreamy look on her face.

"I get it." Li began "I know what your dream was about."

Once again Sakura was in fright, part of her wanted him to get it right but instead- "Sakura you were dreaming about the play." Li said.

"You really think so?" --!

"You're memorizing too much; you need to take it easy."

"Well I better be on my way." Sakura said slowly regaining her cool.

"Why? You don't have to leave so early."

"No it's not that Li; I kind of have some things I need to take care of."

Li nodded. "Maybe, next time we will get somewhere."

A beam appeared on Sakura's face. She looked at him with hope "You mean you're still going to do play." She asked walking toward him.

"Of course, After all you are counting on me."

Sakura was full of adoration for Li, sometimes he would be so sweet and he wouldn't know it. "Thanks Li, I love you.-'Oops.' Sakura thought 'I said the wrong words.

To be continues- read and review if you want it finished kay.