Something to Regret – Chapter Two
Dumbledore lead Sirius up to his office and sat quietly in his armchair at his desk, eyes twinkling behind his half moon shaped spectacles.
"Now Sirius" Dumbledore spoke up. "You must know that I may acknowledge and understand your problem, but I am afraid I cannot fix it for you, Severus' grudge runs deep."
Sirius sat quietly and listened intently to what Dumbledore had to say.
"Your previous relationship with Severus although obvious was hidden well from your friends, of course not well enough for me to miss it."
Sirius shifted uncomfortably in his chair as Dumbledore continued.
"In time that relationship grew and Severus grew with is. He in his own way loved you even more than he understood himself. He slowly began to question and fear your closeness to our dear Mr. Potter. You had assured him many times that James was nothing more than your friend, but Severus still went on fearing and loathing him. You had secretly promised to meat him one night, unaware that on that very same evening your poor friend Remus Lupin would escape transformed, as I am sure you remember. Being suck a danger as it was, you rushed off without a second thought to help with the situation, leaving the unaware Severus to wait."
Sirius gave a small grunt in confirmation.
"Severus as I said was unaware of the situation and had no idea why you weren't there, though he waited just as promised. The only problem was that a one Lucius Malfoy had gotten wind of what had been going on between the two of you and decided, well that he would take advantage of the situation."
"What do you mean take advantage?" Black blurted out curiously.
The twinkle in Dumbledore's eyes dimmed as though saddened. "Lucius had thought it would be amusing to cast a curse on James Potter and I must say that he was well punished for it afterwards. The cures had made James enraged at Severus of whom was waiting for you in the dungeons." Dumbledore looked downward, smile and twinkle gone. "Lucius' curse had directed James to do something he would never have dreamed of doing. Sadly he overpowered Severus easily."
Sirius stared into Dumbledore's eyes as if searching for comprehension of what he now knew, but didn't want to believe had happened.
"If only I had gotten there sooner" Dumbledore said "I could of stopped him before he had raped Severus."
NO! Sirius couldn't and didn't want to believe him.
"James wouldn't-"
"Not of his own free will, no he wouldn't have. When I finally got to them they where both curled up in separate corners in complete shock. Lucius' spell was designed so that it ended right when James had...finished, leaving James with full knowledge of what he had done. You remember don't you? Visiting James in the Hospital Wing when he wouldn't speak a word to anyone and you had thought that Severus was angry and avoiding you, when in actual fact he was in the Hospital Wing to, four beds from James I believe" Dumbledore said.
"I-I-" Sirius mumbled. His first instinct, KILL LUCIUS, was brushed off by his second that was a need to talk to Snape.
"Now I am sorry but I must leave you now, I have a bit of business to attend to." Dumbledore stood up abruptly and walked towards the door pausing just behind Sirius. "I do advise you Sirius not to be wandering about the school, you are still sadly a murderer in far too many people's eyes." Dumbledore said then exited the office silently, leaving Sirius sitting there in that small uncomfortable chair with nothing but his thoughts.