Chapter Five

Seto's POV

My phone rings.

"Kaiba." I really don't need this right now. Would anyone that just found out their brother is suicidal need this?

"Uh…" Mokuba's voice, hesitant, afraid, but Mokuba.

"Mokuba?" I question, my voice coming out harsher than I had intended it to. "Where are you?"

"At a friends." I can picture him, teeth gritted, not wanting this conversation to continue. Well too bad because I want it to. And it will.

"Mokuba, where are you?" I ask again insistent. "Tell me." Please I add to myself.

"No." He's firm, when have I ever heard out right defiance from him? I want to scream at him, ask him why he would do what he did, tell him he's an idiot for almost killing himself. But I don't, barely.

"Mokuba…" My voice is soft, I can't yell at him… and I can't stop the tears from welling up in my eyes. I haven't cried in years, not even when Pegasus took him from me. Then I was filled with cold rage. But now the enemy is Mokuba but he's also the victim and I can never be angry with him, not truly. "Why…?"

"Because I like it big brother. Because it feels so good to see my blood flowing from my veins. That's why."

I hiss as I hear this. "How can it feel good, Mokuba?"

"You wouldn't understand. People who don't cut don't understand." Simple answer and incredibly infuriating because of that.

"God damnit Mokuba! What if you died?!" So much for not yelling…

"Maybe it would be better that way." Click, the phone goes dead. Damnit Mokuba. Have you forgotten I can call you back? Have you forgotten that cell phones register the number that called last. Have you- I blink at the screen that can't be right… It says Ryou called me last from his home phone. You're not there. Are you? We'll see when I get there.

Scene Change

Ryou's POV

I walk into the living room to see Mokuba gathering his things. "Where are you going Mokuba?"

He looked up startled. "Oh, Ryou." He looks away for a minuet "I can't stay here. I'm sorry Ryou but I need to be by myself."

"Are you sure, Mokuba?" I ask, in my opinion he shouldn't be alone but if he really wants to I will have to let him go.

"Yeah, yeah." He smiles softly, sadly. "Thanks. Thanks for everything Ryou."

"You have my number right? So you can call me if you need anything." I know it'll be awhile before he's really okay.

"Yep." He pulls out his cell phone from his pocket for a second, as if to reassure me. "I'll be fine, but, thanks. Well," he starts awkwardly as he reaches the door "I'll see you later." And the door shuts behind him.

I fall down onto the couch letting my arm cover my eyes. This is not going to end well, I can already tell.

Someone knocks on the door and I rise groaning. It's probably a salesman… "Yes?" I ask opening the door. Then my eyes widen "Oh hi, Seto. I thought you were going to look for Mokuba."

"I am." He growls. "Where is he?"

I move aside so he can enter. As he calls for Mokuba I rub my temples. This isn't going to end well at all. "He already left." I say softly.

Seto rounds on me, fire in his eyes, "What? What did you say?" His voice is soft, dangerous. And I would be a fool not to be scared, even if he is my boyfriend.

"I said, he left." I look up at him and I hate myself for not telling him when Mokuba arrived.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Now he's hurt. I can see it in his eyes, his voice is still menacing but he's upset. With me.

"I- you both needed sometime to cool off. I talked with him. Don't worry." I place a hand on his shoulder but he pushes me off roughly.

"Don't worry? How the hell am I supposed to not worry when my little brother could be hurting himself right now!?"

"I took his knife from him." I hand it to him. He looks at it for a long time. I can only imagine what he's thinking. "Things will be okay. Really. I understand."

His eyes snap from the pocketknife to me. "How could you possibly know?"

I sigh, he doesn't know about me. He's never seen me with my shirt off; things haven't gone that far. "I've been though this before." Simple explanation, but Seto Kaiba doesn't stand for simple explanations.

A/N: It's been a long time… I'm sorry for not updating sooner. Forgive and forget?