DISCLAIMER: The song lyrics belong to the song called 'Breaking the Habit' by Linkin Park, and the characters belong to Mercedes Lackey, sadly enough.

I wrote this partly because of Writer's Block, and partly because my cousin inspired me two write it. I spent pretty well all last week at my grandparents' house, and we watched Much Music quite a bit. The song I'm using was on the top of all the charts, so I heard it a lot!

When I went home, this reminded me of Tylendel, and so now I'm writing this about him. I'm going to make this song-fic different from the last one I wrote, cause this time I'm gonna try to write more of my own words instead of song and book. I also think that there won't be any of the book's actual text in here. Hope you like this!

P.S. The lyrics are in italics, with nothing around them, don't worry, you'll see what I mean. also, not all the lyrics from the song are going to be used. Some will be cut out, because thy didn't fit right.

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He was standing weakly, in companion's field, two Heralds around him, Jaysen being the nearest. The Gate he and Van had created was being closed. Van was near, close enough to Feel. He was frightened, weak, the Gate was feeding off of Van as well as him.

'Gala's dead.' Images of Gala ran through his head, the one of her turning away finally sticking, the last one he would ever remember.

It was all he could think about, his Companion. His pure, innocent Companion, dead. It was all his fault, he had to seek revenge. Why did he have to think that way. He should have never been Chosen. Heralds weren't supposed to be that selfish.

Memories consume like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright

So I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight...

Tylendel looked around at the two Heralds. They were scrambling around, trying to close the Gate, which was fighting them.

They were trying to control him, he'd gone crazy, insane. Tylendel knew he didn't have much time before the illness spread throughout his body, and took over his mind forever.

That was when the Gate finally closed, collapsing in on itself, knocking those destroying it back. Van crumpled, and Tylendel Felt him, he was in great pain. He had seen the gate send a bolt of power at Vanyel, and now the same bolt, was traveling from Van towards him. It hit him, sending him into a violent shudder. He was snapped out of the Shock that was holding him in place. He closed his eyes for a moment, and let out a painful cry of despair. He opened his eyes again, to find that it felt as if he were looking through another's eyes.

The Person who was taking him over, was evil, utterly and completely Evil. He had to do it, he had to get rid of himself, before this Other could take over, and kill the real him. The Heralds around him were not really watching, it was perfect.

He saw Savil pivot, and reach for him, but he was not going to give in, he was not going to live through the night. He was not going to let this pain live in him for the rest of his life, and he was not going to let this Other take over him.

Tylendel saw the Grove near, and ran, to escape until her could find a reasonable way to take his life. He noticed that Jaysen was chasing him, and he ran even harder.

He looked around, past the trees, and spotted the church top. There was a small area, just big enough that he could jump from it, and end his pain.

Tylendel shot off, running for the church before him. He ran, as fast as he could carry himself, and when he got out of the shadows, and near the church, he saw Savil, and she saw him. He ran past his fallen-lover, and into the church. He climbed to the very-most top, and paused for a moment.

The Other looked out of the same eyes, and he could Feel it realize what he was up to. Tylendel locked him in his corner of their now-shared mind. He would not let the Other interfere with his plans.

Clutching my cure, I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more, than any time before

I have no options left again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize that I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight…

He looked out at the world around him, the world he had come to love so much. The people who lived around him for so long, would be broken, but this is how it should be. He was being taken over by Something who did not care for those people and the things he grew up with. It would only have broken them down even more with time.

He would miss them, and he knew thy would miss him. 'Goodbye my friends and family.'

There was one more thing he had left to do, and it was going to hurt him even more. He looked down at the Earth, down to where he had been moments ago. He looked at the Heralds, and found what he needed to see. Vanyel was laying on the ground, and Savil was beside him. Van's head snapped up in his direction.

Van would be hard to get along without, and he knew that it would be difficult for Van to live without him, but he knew that he would survive, and prosper some day. He spread his arms out, as if he were going to fly away.

'Goodbye Ashke, my love, my one and only. I love you.'

With that, he jumped.....

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight...

And this, is how it ends.......