Chapter Ten

"Ya, we all do, especially me," Kagome saw Inuyasha's crooked smile and she felt herself smile a bit

"Okay I'll see if she is ready to come back. Oh and Inuyasha thanks but there's something I don't quite understand,"

Make believe close your eyes
I'll be anything for you

"One you're welcome but for what, and two what don't you get?" Inuyasha averted his gaze from the water's edge to her face.

"For what? Saving my life! But you were full demon only you didn't kill anyone and you helped me with my sprained ankle-"

"I caused that didn't I?" Inuyasha looked up at the sky as the rain fell onto his face

"No, no you didn't!" He looked at her, relief washed over his face. "The monster did it, anyway you never even hurt me. That's what I don't understand! Last time you killed without the second thought, but not this, time s'like you kinda had your demon blood under control, I dunno."

Goodnight, sleep tight
No more tears

"Maybe...I guess,'" Inuyasha looked at the sky. "The sun has just set, maybe we should get some sleep."

"Ya I ummm guess I'll see you in the morning, Night," Kagome crawled under a tree that provided her with some relief from the rain. Surprisingly Inuyasha's haori wasn't soaked through. Inuyasha stood up and jumped into the tree. Settling himself he waited for Kagome to fall asleep so he could take her back to the village where Sango and Miroku waited. After apologizing profusely he promised that he hadn't 'devoured' Kagome and that in fact he'd bring her to the hut. Strangely when he was demon he knew who he was and his mind didn't focus on only killing everything that crossed his path, though the temptation had been almost over powering, the lust for human blood had begun to cloud his mind and senses. It was beginning to get the better of him. But once he saw Kagome, he clamed down, though there was no transformation, he remembered who she was, who he was. And seeing that she was hurt he wanted to help her.

In the morning I'll be here

And when we say goodnight,
dry your eyes

When he was sure that Kagome was asleep he jumped down and looked her over. Her lips were purple and her face had minor scratches on them. He picked her up as best as he could and began to run lightly, hoping to not wake her. Soon the clouds that had looked so ominous before cleared up and the sky was clear. Stars dotted the night sky like glitter and enclosed around a full pale moon, emitting only insignificant light onto the dense forest. As a result now he was here with his mind, so he thought about what he had said earlier. He had told Kagome that he needed her, and during that whole speech he left out the most important line that had made him want to say what he did. Why couldn't he say four simple words? Kagome I love you. There, done! Over! He looked at her sleeping form in his arms and sighed. At least she no longer had that black shit on her eyes. That stuff made her eyes cold and empty, like hers. Kagome's face was cold and unemotional. He didn't like that. What ever she had done she was successful in making herself look like Kikyou. You know Kagome if you acted Kikyou I might notice you more...those words. He never meant to say them, they slipped out, and it was a mistake! An accident! But no matter how hard he tried to deny the fact, it still haunted him. He had said those words. The words that probably broke Kagome in every way: physically, mentally and emotionally the most. He had forbid her from going home to cool down, so she ran for a bit then came back and left. Right away he had wanted to say he was sorry, but the rest of the group wouldn't let Inuyasha to see her.

Because we said goodnight,

Did Kagome know she could never measure up to Kikyou? Did she ever try? But worse Inuyasha pointed out that in order to get his attention she needed to change first. Those words. He hated himself for them. Even worse, Kagome had called herself an 'object.' A mere tool that he used, a tool that had no life, no feelings and didn't deserve pity. And he had led her to believe that was all she was or all she could ever be. She had helped him, cried for him, worried about him, saved him a few times and remained by his side no matter what peril that put her in.

And not goodbye

And what did he have to thank her? Abusive words, that's what. Though she always came back. Inuyasha sometimes doubted her return, especially when the fights were bad enough. But she would always appear. Inuyasha, in spite of everything, had the feeling that they were still in a fight, and he wondered if this one was one that was going to drive her away for good.

We said goodnight
and not goodbye

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