Chapter 3

S-POV

"Syd?"

I stopped and thought.

I had this overpowering desire to just wipe my tears and turn around and smile at him. But there was no way in hell I'd do that for him. Why should I give him the satisfaction of seeing me happy? Or making myself look good for him? Why should I look pretty for him?

"Syd, Please don't cry" His voice was raspy, but I could hear the emotion in his struggling voice.

Who the hell did he think he was?

I whirled around on my heel and let my raging brown eyes do the rest.

He looked scared.

He should be.

"Don't Cry? Don't Cry! Can't you see you've done this to me Vaughn? YOU and YOU alone! This is your work…I'm crying because of you Vaughn! And quite frankly I think I deserve to. I mean you married another woman-"

"That I divorced"

"For me?" I said, sarcasm in my voice.

He nodded and opened his mouth.

"No Vaughn, you did it for yourself, to ease your guilt of leaving me. And Lauren must have done something wrong as well, or you wouldn't have left her for me…because then you'd be guilty again"

"Sydney-"

"No, you've talked enough, its my turn." I blinked back tears, "You knew that I was hurting but you still wanted us to be partners. Youknew the pain in my heart but you still kissed Lauren in front of me, You knew that we were meant to be, but you stayed with her up until a couple of days ago"

"Sydney-"

"No, I hit you as I reversed, that's the only reason I'm here, but your okay. So I'm leaving."

I reached over to where my purse was on his side table.

He grabbed my arm.

"Don't hide from me, I know it hurts you and I'm sorry, but how do you think I felt when you told me you slept with Will?"

"You know it wasn't the same."

"Why's that?"

"Because I don't love Will the way I love you."

"And I don't love Lauren the way I love you."

I stopped and thought.

What was he trying to say? That he never loved Lauren? Or that he never stopped loving me? Or both? Is it possible for it to be both? And if so, why did he stay with her if he loved me?

"Sydney" I heard. I heard him not the professional man I've known and hated since I got back but the man I fell in love with. My handler, My soul mate, My Vaughn not Lauren's Michael.

Suddenly a wave of fear hit me. I couldn't think this way, I wasn't ready. And when I'm not ready- I hide.

"Sydney Please" His voice was flowing with love and pain.

I couldn't do this, no I can't.

"I'm, Uh, I'm hungry…so I'm…gonna go…eat…..at, at the…the…" I was lost for words.

"The cafeteria?"

"yeah" I said softly.

"Come back" he whispered to me as I left.

I didn't even bother to turn back and look at him.

As I shut the door the nurse walked up to me.

"He's awake."

She nodded.

As the door shut again I walked to the elevator. Stepping inside I hit G. Then I hit the Emergency Brakes.

I sat on the ground of the elevator and sobbed. It was like this weight from my heart needed to be lifted and either I go to him and tell him I want to be with him, or I let all the pain out. So I used my tears.

I was so confused. I mean how was it that two years ago I was so happy? And now i'm here at the point of my life that I don't mind taking huge risks on missions, because the truth is, I have nothing to live for.

I finally stopped and mopped up my tears and pressed the Emergency Brakes button again. With a jolt the elevator was working.

I walked out and turned towards the cafeteria. As I walked in I saw Weiss walking into the building. He saw me and walked up to me.

"Syd" his voice full of concern as he saw my face puffy from my tears, "Is something wrong?"

"Nothing, sit with me?" I asked.

He nodded and waited as I got some food.

As we ate he handed me a fortune cookie.

I raised and eyebrow.

"Go on" he said.

I broke it open.

True Love Will Prevail

I tossed it to the ground.

"Hey, did you know the fortune cookie was invented in LA by a noddlemaker?"

Leave it to Eric to know a unkown fact about food.

Eric smiled trying to get me to be happy.

"You should go see him, I need to be alone"

He nodded and got up and left.

I stared at the fortune on the floor.

True Love Will Prevail

Will it?

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