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Chapter Thirteen: Fear of Rejection
'Can I tell her the truth?' Inuyasha thought to himself, as he paced back and forth in his room. 'I can't tell her I'm a hanyou. She'll turn away from me for sure.'
He winced at the thought of Kagome abandoning him. He didn't want to be abnormal or different from everyone else. He wanted a normal life. Unfortunately for him, he was right in the middle. He was not a demon, he was not a human. He was a mixture of both, and that made it hard for him to fit in.
"She'll be frightened of me for sure if I reveal the truth," he thought out loud.
"Talking to yourself again?" Sesshomaru interrupted Inuyasha. He stood at the doorway and looked over at his half-brother.
Startled, Inuyasha whirled on Sesshomaru, "And what are you doing spying one me?"
"It's kinda hard to sleep when you pace back and forth and create so much noise," Sesshomaru explained in a tone that was normally used for three year olds.
"I don't make too much noise!" Inuyasha replied angrily.
"Yeah, but when you're a full demon like me, you have super sensitive hearing."
"Just shut up," Inuyasha spat out bitterly. Deep down, he was jealous that his brother was a full demon and didn't seem to be having trouble with the world.
"So, what's on your mind?" Sesshomaru asked sarcastically. "What could possibly be so important that you would steal your beloved half-brother's sleep?"
"Oh?" Inuyasha mocked. "Am I robbing my dear half-brother of his beauty sleep? Wouldn't want any wrinkles now right?"
The two just glared at each other in the darkness of the room. Their amber eyes glowing in the dark. Finally, Inuyasha relented with a sigh, "Nothing's wrong."
"Don't lie to me," Sesshomaru stated calmly. "I can smell the lie all over you."
Inuyasha sighed again. "I don't know if I want to tell Kagome about me being a hanyou."
"So you're afraid she'll turn away from you when she finds out the truth?" Sesshomaru deduced.
Inuyasha nodded his head in defeat. "The spell that we cast over ourselves does protect us and hide our demonic features, but Kagome has to find out sometime. And she might leave me because...she fears me."
"Baka," Sesshomaru muttered with a sigh. "If she really does love you, she will accept you as you are. Rin accepted me when I told her. And Miroku and Sango know about our secret. The only person left is Kagome. It's your duty to tell her."
"You make it sound so official," Inuyasha snorted. But he had to agree with Sesshomaru. It was his job to tell her, and then face the consequences.
Sesshomaru just chuckled at his brother and left the room.
Inuyasha lied down in bed and decided that he should tell Kagome...tomorrow.
The next day, Inuyasha came by Miroku's place to pick up Kagome and Miroku.
Miroku raised a questioning eyebrow at Inuyasha's behavior, but decided that he only wanted to spend more time with Kagome. Miroku smiled knowingly at Inuyasha's back when they headed to his car.
They arrived at the university with no further mishaps and Kagome resumed her seat in the back of the classroom. This time, Inuyasha was sitting closer to her and he kept on playing with her hair.
"Does my hair amuse you that much?" Kagome giggled softly.
"It does, but I think your lips are way more amusing," Inuyasha flirted lightly with her. "How about you amuse me right now with a kiss?"
"Oh, quit joking around and pay attention to the professor," Kagome reprimanded him gently as she lightly hit him on the head.
Inuyasha pretended to pout until Kagome leaned in closer to Inuyasha. He smiled at his girlfriend. The day went by peacefully and the group decided that they were going off campus for lunch.
In the middle of feeding Inuyasha French fries, Kagome turned to the others and asked, "'So do we have any plans for this week?"
"Well," Miroku answered. "I'm taking Sango out this Friday evening."
"Yep," Rin offered. "And Sesshomaru and I are going out on Friday evening too."
"Well," Inuyasha replied. "This means that I'm going out with Kagome too."
"We are?" Kagome asked.
"Yeah," Inuyasha replied. "Can't leave you alone on a Friday night now can we?"
Kagome smiled at her boyfriend. Inuyasha looked at her smile and thought that he could tell her anything. This brought back his fear of revealing his identity to her. Kagome was just too pure, how could he possibly taint her with his demonic blood?
Inuyasha sighed and shook his head. Kagome noticed this and immediately turned her attention back to her boyfriend. "Are you alright?"
"Hm? Yeah, I'm fine, but maybe a kiss would make me feel better," Inuyasha replied.
Kagome giggled and leaned in to give him a quick kiss.
"Get a room you two!" Miroku teased the couple.
The two immediately blushed at the comment.
"Oh yeah!" Kagome said as she just thought of something. "My mom wants to meet you Inuyasha!"
Inuyasha blanched at the comment. He nearly choked on his drink. "Your mom wants to see me?"
"Yep!" Kagome replied happily. "I talked to her on the phone yesterday and she wanted to meet the guy that was taking me out. She also wants to see you Miroku."
"Ok," Miroku answered. "It's been awhile since I say her. When do we leave?"
"Saturday morning," Kagome supplied. She then turned back to Inuyasha. "Are you nervous to go?" "Keh," Inuyasha replied. "I'll go."
Deep down, Inuyasha was nervous. Miroku had told him that Kagome's family lived at a shrine and that Kagome was actually a miko in training. Her grandpa was a priest and he would be able to sense demons. Inuyasha was afraid that Kagome's family would figure out that he was demon before he actually got the chance to tell Kagome. He then resolved to tell her as soon as possible.
The group headed back to their class after lunch. Inuyasha caught sight of Kikyo and glared at her. If looks could kill, then she would have dropped dead in a millisecond.
Kagome looked in the direction that Inuyasha was glaring at and noticed Kikyo. Kagome immediately wrapped her arms around Inuyasha's waist. Inuyasha was surprised by this action but it was not unwelcomed.
They resumed their seat in the science class, but Kouga had to saunter over to Kagome. He was surprised that Kagome was with Inuyasha.
"Hey Kagome," Kouga greeted her. "What are you doing with this moron over here?"
Inuyasha growled at this and snapped, "I'm her boyfriend, jerk! So back off!"
Kouga blinked in surprise when Inuyasha pulled Kagome even closer to him.
Realizing that he was telling the truth, Kouga sighed. He then returned to his seat. He was mad at Inuyasha for managing to win Kagome's heart that he promised he would have his revenge.
Suddenly, Kouga smiled. He smelled the demonic aura on Inuyasha. Being a demon himself, he knew it when he sensed a demon. 'Kagome was going to be in for a big surprise,' Kouga thought.
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Chapter Thirteen: Fear of Rejection
'Can I tell her the truth?' Inuyasha thought to himself, as he paced back and forth in his room. 'I can't tell her I'm a hanyou. She'll turn away from me for sure.'
He winced at the thought of Kagome abandoning him. He didn't want to be abnormal or different from everyone else. He wanted a normal life. Unfortunately for him, he was right in the middle. He was not a demon, he was not a human. He was a mixture of both, and that made it hard for him to fit in.
"She'll be frightened of me for sure if I reveal the truth," he thought out loud.
"Talking to yourself again?" Sesshomaru interrupted Inuyasha. He stood at the doorway and looked over at his half-brother.
Startled, Inuyasha whirled on Sesshomaru, "And what are you doing spying one me?"
"It's kinda hard to sleep when you pace back and forth and create so much noise," Sesshomaru explained in a tone that was normally used for three year olds.
"I don't make too much noise!" Inuyasha replied angrily.
"Yeah, but when you're a full demon like me, you have super sensitive hearing."
"Just shut up," Inuyasha spat out bitterly. Deep down, he was jealous that his brother was a full demon and didn't seem to be having trouble with the world.
"So, what's on your mind?" Sesshomaru asked sarcastically. "What could possibly be so important that you would steal your beloved half-brother's sleep?"
"Oh?" Inuyasha mocked. "Am I robbing my dear half-brother of his beauty sleep? Wouldn't want any wrinkles now right?"
The two just glared at each other in the darkness of the room. Their amber eyes glowing in the dark. Finally, Inuyasha relented with a sigh, "Nothing's wrong."
"Don't lie to me," Sesshomaru stated calmly. "I can smell the lie all over you."
Inuyasha sighed again. "I don't know if I want to tell Kagome about me being a hanyou."
"So you're afraid she'll turn away from you when she finds out the truth?" Sesshomaru deduced.
Inuyasha nodded his head in defeat. "The spell that we cast over ourselves does protect us and hide our demonic features, but Kagome has to find out sometime. And she might leave me because...she fears me."
"Baka," Sesshomaru muttered with a sigh. "If she really does love you, she will accept you as you are. Rin accepted me when I told her. And Miroku and Sango know about our secret. The only person left is Kagome. It's your duty to tell her."
"You make it sound so official," Inuyasha snorted. But he had to agree with Sesshomaru. It was his job to tell her, and then face the consequences.
Sesshomaru just chuckled at his brother and left the room.
Inuyasha lied down in bed and decided that he should tell Kagome...tomorrow.
The next day, Inuyasha came by Miroku's place to pick up Kagome and Miroku.
Miroku raised a questioning eyebrow at Inuyasha's behavior, but decided that he only wanted to spend more time with Kagome. Miroku smiled knowingly at Inuyasha's back when they headed to his car.
They arrived at the university with no further mishaps and Kagome resumed her seat in the back of the classroom. This time, Inuyasha was sitting closer to her and he kept on playing with her hair.
"Does my hair amuse you that much?" Kagome giggled softly.
"It does, but I think your lips are way more amusing," Inuyasha flirted lightly with her. "How about you amuse me right now with a kiss?"
"Oh, quit joking around and pay attention to the professor," Kagome reprimanded him gently as she lightly hit him on the head.
Inuyasha pretended to pout until Kagome leaned in closer to Inuyasha. He smiled at his girlfriend. The day went by peacefully and the group decided that they were going off campus for lunch.
In the middle of feeding Inuyasha French fries, Kagome turned to the others and asked, "'So do we have any plans for this week?"
"Well," Miroku answered. "I'm taking Sango out this Friday evening."
"Yep," Rin offered. "And Sesshomaru and I are going out on Friday evening too."
"Well," Inuyasha replied. "This means that I'm going out with Kagome too."
"We are?" Kagome asked.
"Yeah," Inuyasha replied. "Can't leave you alone on a Friday night now can we?"
Kagome smiled at her boyfriend. Inuyasha looked at her smile and thought that he could tell her anything. This brought back his fear of revealing his identity to her. Kagome was just too pure, how could he possibly taint her with his demonic blood?
Inuyasha sighed and shook his head. Kagome noticed this and immediately turned her attention back to her boyfriend. "Are you alright?"
"Hm? Yeah, I'm fine, but maybe a kiss would make me feel better," Inuyasha replied.
Kagome giggled and leaned in to give him a quick kiss.
"Get a room you two!" Miroku teased the couple.
The two immediately blushed at the comment.
"Oh yeah!" Kagome said as she just thought of something. "My mom wants to meet you Inuyasha!"
Inuyasha blanched at the comment. He nearly choked on his drink. "Your mom wants to see me?"
"Yep!" Kagome replied happily. "I talked to her on the phone yesterday and she wanted to meet the guy that was taking me out. She also wants to see you Miroku."
"Ok," Miroku answered. "It's been awhile since I say her. When do we leave?"
"Saturday morning," Kagome supplied. She then turned back to Inuyasha. "Are you nervous to go?" "Keh," Inuyasha replied. "I'll go."
Deep down, Inuyasha was nervous. Miroku had told him that Kagome's family lived at a shrine and that Kagome was actually a miko in training. Her grandpa was a priest and he would be able to sense demons. Inuyasha was afraid that Kagome's family would figure out that he was demon before he actually got the chance to tell Kagome. He then resolved to tell her as soon as possible.
The group headed back to their class after lunch. Inuyasha caught sight of Kikyo and glared at her. If looks could kill, then she would have dropped dead in a millisecond.
Kagome looked in the direction that Inuyasha was glaring at and noticed Kikyo. Kagome immediately wrapped her arms around Inuyasha's waist. Inuyasha was surprised by this action but it was not unwelcomed.
They resumed their seat in the science class, but Kouga had to saunter over to Kagome. He was surprised that Kagome was with Inuyasha.
"Hey Kagome," Kouga greeted her. "What are you doing with this moron over here?"
Inuyasha growled at this and snapped, "I'm her boyfriend, jerk! So back off!"
Kouga blinked in surprise when Inuyasha pulled Kagome even closer to him.
Realizing that he was telling the truth, Kouga sighed. He then returned to his seat. He was mad at Inuyasha for managing to win Kagome's heart that he promised he would have his revenge.
Suddenly, Kouga smiled. He smelled the demonic aura on Inuyasha. Being a demon himself, he knew it when he sensed a demon. 'Kagome was going to be in for a big surprise,' Kouga thought.
Please Read & Review!
Thank you for the past reviews and I'm very glad that so many of you have expressed your feelings about my story. If you don't like it, just feel free to tell me so. Please don't feel obligated to compliment me if you really don't like my story every time you review. But thank you for even giving me a response!
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