…"I never should have let you call me Sir."
Her forehead wrinkled before she even understood what he had said, "Excuse me?" She said shaking her head slightly as she tried to run his words through her mind one more time.
"I've been sitting here trying to think where I went wrong with you—and I think I've narrowed it down to me letting you call me Sir." There was a tone in his voice that she had never heard before and it set her off balance—something that told her he wasn't going to beat around the bush this time.
"You're my commanding officer—" She started but was soon cut off by Jack.
"Yeah I know—you're supposed to call me Sir…but I think that's where we went wrong." He was facing her now. The look on his face perplexed as he was seriously trying to figure out this situation in his head. "See—I have this theory that somewhere along the way this…wall… got put up between us and we just couldn't figure out how to get around it-"
"We're in the—"
"Air force—yeah I know...military rules and all. But, I think that was all just a bunch of bullshit."
All she could do was stare at him—her mouth gaped open as she sat away from the wall and looked at him closer. "It's all a bunch of…"
"Yeah—I was so determined to do things right and not ask you to give up anything and I didn't want to give anything up either—but I was an idiot—I should have given up everything—the Air Force, the SGC all of it—I should of walked away from it all the moment I realized I was in love with you."
He was being straight with her—actually talking to her and saying what he felt, and still she couldn't say anything.
"I know that if I had just stepped up and said something that I could have kept you from marrying Pete—not that you don't love him, but I'm pretty sure that I would have been better than him." He stopped talking for a moment, taking a breath and gathering his thoughts—Carter was still speechless and sat across from him with a look on her face that he'd never seen—dumbfounded.
He decided to let her think or a moment. It would take a few minutes for her to process everything he'd said—hell he was still processing everything he'd said. The words seemed to just flow right out of him for some reason—years of oppression finally released.
He looked over at her and noticed that she was staring at the ground again—looking at the light. He reached out and tapped her arm—she looked up at him not really knowing what to say…
"Did I just blow you mind?"