…He looked over at her and noticed that she was staring at the ground again—looking at the light. He reached out and tapped her arm—she looked up at him not really knowing what to say…

"Did I just blow you mind?"

She blinked hard--really hard. But his words were still flying around in her head like butterflies. "Uhmmm…I uh—yeah…I don't know what to say…"

He couldn't help but smile at her as she leaned back against the wall and looked up at him with the most uncertain look he'd ever seen on her face. "Say something?" He pleaded softly, he had a good idea as to what she was thinking—but right now that wasn't enough, he wanted to hear her say it.

"What do you want me to say?"

"Uhmmm, something along the lines of "I know what you mean" hell I'd even take a "I need to think about this" right now…but seeing as how we don't have that much time I don't think you should be thinking about it too much."

"I…uh…I…" She was still trying to get her mouth to work right, but it was steadfast in its protest.

He could see that she was racking her brain. She was looking down again… he reached out and pulled her chin up to look at her. "Sam…should I not have said anything?" He said brushing her bangs away from her eyes.

"No…I just…I don't know how this happened—it's why I pushed it away, it just didn't make sense to feel like this for someone that I never even—I mean, we've never said that we—and we never even…kissed…how can I be so sure—"

"Once…" He blurted out—causing her to lock her eyes to his and all the color drained from her face.

"What?" She said, cocking her head to the side as she glared at him.

"We kissed once." He was smiling—just the thought of it made him smile, it always had.

"Me acting like a cavewoman doesn't count." She said, trying to hint at what he was talking about—when she really had no idea what he was talking about.

"I'm not talking about that—" The look on her face was priceless. He could almost hear her thought pattern hitting the brick wall in her mind—and then it shifted to a look that made him smile, and with that he attempted to explain, "When me and Teal'c were caught up in that time loopie thing—and we told you that we had gone through about a million times and learned—"

"I remember…" Her eyes shot open the moment it hit her. "You didn't."

"I thought it would be the only way…"

"You…kissed me? And then let me forget it?"

"Well—"

"So—all these years… you knew what would happen if you…and you didn't say—you didn't do anything?"

"I didn't want you to give anything up for me—I'm not worth it."

"Christ—what is it with men and always trying to decided what is best for me? First my dad—then Pete and that stupid house—and now you…you should know better than that."

"Yeah…I should—I'm sorry."

"You know—I thought for sure when I told you that what we said on the Za'tarc test didn't have to leave the room—I was sure that you were going to say something against it—I thought that sooner or later you'd say that you—"

"That I was stupid and that all I wanted to do every time I saw you was pull you into my arms and never let go?"

"Something like that."

"Well…you were with Martouf then and you guys had this whole bond thing going—I thought for sure you'd end up with him."

"But he—"

"I figured that one day he'd get another host and he'd come back—"

"That's such a lame excuse."

"The only time I ever came close was—was when I was Jonah…"

"I think that's when I realized how you really felt."

"I shouldn't have let you call me Sir, that one damn word is what did it—everything was fine and dandy until you called me Sir and then that damn wall or whatever it was between us was right were it always was—and I let it happen."

"It's not all your fault."

"I know it's your fault too—you and your wacked out choices of boyfriends…"

"Pete is the only—"

"Narim, Martouf…" He counted off on his fingers. "And ya know—I bet you even had a thing for that ambassador guy that the Achen kidnapped—"

"Oh—you have no room to talk—I'm not the one who almost died because I fell for the first woman that batted an eye lash at me."

"Hmm, Kentia…"

"And Laira and Hathor—you even kissed the alternate reality me—Which I will never understand as long as I live!!!"

"HEY! You promised that you'd never bring up the Hathor thing!"

"Oh well…I've said a lot of things…"

"Both of us have—just not the right things…"