Alyx frowned a bit looking at the next page and let out a saddened sigh, leaving the pen aside, trying to get a comfortable position on the chair to continue reading. Darkness was falling. She noticed that page was stained, lots of words were almost illegible, like someone had poured water into them... and she had. She had cried over those pages...
"Thursday, June 22nd, '93
I want daddy! I WANT MY DAD!!! Dad and Gaudi died this morning on a car crash near Berlin... They... they were coming back from going to visit Gaudi's grandma... Someone called around 9:00 AM this morning and mom has been crying since then. They said something hit daddy's eyes and made him loose control of the car, then a truck hit it... I want Gaudi! I can't stop crying, my eyes hurt. I don't want people to come around and tell me that its ok! It's not!
Mom said the funeral would be tomorrow, on Gaudi's birthday. I don't want to go and I don't want to leave Germany too! I want to stay here, my friends are here, but mom say's we'll leave Germany after the funeral, we'll go to the United States, to the reservation where she was born. I DON'T WANNA GO!! I want my daddy!!!
I'm so sorry dad... I didn't wish you a good trip nor did I kiss you goodbye yesterday, I was more interested with playing the SEGA game... and Gaudi... I'm so sorry... the last thing I said to you was that you weren't my blood brother and that I hated you, just because you ripped an arm out of my teddy bear... I'm so sorry, I never meant that... I love you dad, I love you Gaudi.
I'll always miss you..."
Alyx felt her eyes watering with her own innocent words. She remembered like it had been on the day before, she just needed to close her eyes. She was still asleep when the phone had rang and she had waken up at the sound of it... her mother had answered the call and fell on her knees crying. She remembered she had felt frightened, walking up to her mother on her pink pyjamas, seeing her blue eyes filled with tears. Her mom had hugged her then, on the floor of the living room giving her the news. Then both had cried, though Alyx was still very young to understand it all.
Only on the cremation of the bodies she had understood it all... all that people she had never seen before dressed in black, the flowers, the flames surrounding the coffins... Though no one got to see bodies then. The doctors said they were too damaged to be seen. She remembered that during almost two weeks she didn't say a word and barely ate, unable to sleep on her bedroom, as she shared it with Gaudi. Her mother got a deep depression from which she only recovered on the United States, months after the deaths.
Mostly, Alyx remembered her inner guilt. Before Gaudi and her dad had the accident, she had a big fight with Gaudi. He was always a prick, he enjoyed teasing her but he loved her so much... She had told him that she hated him, that he wasn't her brother... and in some way he wasn't. Gaudi was four years older than her, a child from her father's previous marriage. His mother had died when he was one year old and Alyx's mother had adopted him as her son when she married Hans. Gaudi had her father's clear blue eyes, the pale skin and the almost white blond hair. Alyx had also her dad's eyes, but her smooth black hair and tanned skin she got it from her mom, Lanaya. No one believed them when they said they were brothers, half- brothers. He was a beautiful 10 year-old boy, a rebellious one, a prick. Alyx was calmer, a 6 year-old smart girl.
Alyx looked at the court, the game between Gaudi and Lucea seemed have ended ages ago, as now they were in some other kind of game that involved their lips and very tight hugs and she smiled sweetly at them. She was so happy that Gaudi was back, that he hadn't died on that accident... Twist and Silence passed in front of her on the newly cleaned bike, turned around and left it on the garage before the entered the mansion. The lights on it were starting to light up, one by one.
She turned to the next page.
"Thursday, June 22nd, '93
I want daddy! I WANT MY DAD!!! Dad and Gaudi died this morning on a car crash near Berlin... They... they were coming back from going to visit Gaudi's grandma... Someone called around 9:00 AM this morning and mom has been crying since then. They said something hit daddy's eyes and made him loose control of the car, then a truck hit it... I want Gaudi! I can't stop crying, my eyes hurt. I don't want people to come around and tell me that its ok! It's not!
Mom said the funeral would be tomorrow, on Gaudi's birthday. I don't want to go and I don't want to leave Germany too! I want to stay here, my friends are here, but mom say's we'll leave Germany after the funeral, we'll go to the United States, to the reservation where she was born. I DON'T WANNA GO!! I want my daddy!!!
I'm so sorry dad... I didn't wish you a good trip nor did I kiss you goodbye yesterday, I was more interested with playing the SEGA game... and Gaudi... I'm so sorry... the last thing I said to you was that you weren't my blood brother and that I hated you, just because you ripped an arm out of my teddy bear... I'm so sorry, I never meant that... I love you dad, I love you Gaudi.
I'll always miss you..."
Alyx felt her eyes watering with her own innocent words. She remembered like it had been on the day before, she just needed to close her eyes. She was still asleep when the phone had rang and she had waken up at the sound of it... her mother had answered the call and fell on her knees crying. She remembered she had felt frightened, walking up to her mother on her pink pyjamas, seeing her blue eyes filled with tears. Her mom had hugged her then, on the floor of the living room giving her the news. Then both had cried, though Alyx was still very young to understand it all.
Only on the cremation of the bodies she had understood it all... all that people she had never seen before dressed in black, the flowers, the flames surrounding the coffins... Though no one got to see bodies then. The doctors said they were too damaged to be seen. She remembered that during almost two weeks she didn't say a word and barely ate, unable to sleep on her bedroom, as she shared it with Gaudi. Her mother got a deep depression from which she only recovered on the United States, months after the deaths.
Mostly, Alyx remembered her inner guilt. Before Gaudi and her dad had the accident, she had a big fight with Gaudi. He was always a prick, he enjoyed teasing her but he loved her so much... She had told him that she hated him, that he wasn't her brother... and in some way he wasn't. Gaudi was four years older than her, a child from her father's previous marriage. His mother had died when he was one year old and Alyx's mother had adopted him as her son when she married Hans. Gaudi had her father's clear blue eyes, the pale skin and the almost white blond hair. Alyx had also her dad's eyes, but her smooth black hair and tanned skin she got it from her mom, Lanaya. No one believed them when they said they were brothers, half- brothers. He was a beautiful 10 year-old boy, a rebellious one, a prick. Alyx was calmer, a 6 year-old smart girl.
Alyx looked at the court, the game between Gaudi and Lucea seemed have ended ages ago, as now they were in some other kind of game that involved their lips and very tight hugs and she smiled sweetly at them. She was so happy that Gaudi was back, that he hadn't died on that accident... Twist and Silence passed in front of her on the newly cleaned bike, turned around and left it on the garage before the entered the mansion. The lights on it were starting to light up, one by one.
She turned to the next page.