A/N: Hello! Hello! I'm back again. Lately I have been having
more time to update this story. It could be because I have so many ideas.
Well, I went for the italic bold thing last chapter...didnt seem to work.
Darn I still can't figure it out! Anyhow, please tell me if you know how.
I can't wait for the next season of Degrassi to start here in the US...kinda sucks that Canada gets to see it first, huh? Oh well, guess I should be glad I have the channel to watch it in the first place.
I was just watching a very funny episode of Degrassi the other night. Yeah, I've seen it alot..but it always gets funnier. Its the one where Ashley takes drugs. Not Ashley's part, but Jt's and Toby's. I was in tears watching Jt being goofy around that lava lamp. It was hilarious!
I've been thinking about writing another story after I get done with this one ( That will be awhile). I want to do a plot that isnt so popular. Something different thats not already out there. Got any ideas? I am interested in writing a fic with another person also. Interested? Let me know ^.^
Looks like I've talked to much already...
NoLaBeLs- Thanks for stickin with me and revewing!
sethsduck17- Thats exactly what I wanted people to do! Think about another side of Jt...his home life. A side we don't see...thanks for revewing!
lil-anime-angewl- Hiya Sarah! Thanks for stickin with me and reveiwing again!
Disclamer: I do not own Degrassi
Look! I'm finally starting the story!!! :)
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I sit here in the dark...
Alone I am...
Which is what I fear I will always be...
So many emotions are going through me right now. I am glad I left. But, then I think where am I going to go after school? Sure Toby's parents wouldn't mind for a night or two...but I couldn't stay here forever. I am in eleventh grade now. Sure I can take care of myself. I always did. But now I couldnt hide in the house. And of course I couldn't afford to get my own place.
ow I'm sitting here on a old bench. It's in the middle of the city's park. The sun is long gone. And the wind pulls on the trees violently. I had been to my job today. Didn't have much time to think in that place. Not when you have the boss is down your neck constantly, not when your fellow workers a giggling like crazy when they swipe some 'special sauce' on someone's meal, not when you don't really know what to think over.
I knew I should get up and go to Toby's. But, something told me not to. Besides, me and Toby seemed to have drifted apart. We weren't as close as before. Maybe I would have to stay here...the whole night?
The moon is shining brightly this night. That is how I am able to write this. Well, along with some small lamps nearby.
In ways it is creepy just sitting here. No one else around...Let me tell you something...some people out in this world are crazy...and I think I might me one of them.
School was tommorrow. Now I realize that I have brought no other outfit to wear. Well, maybe nobody will notice.
It had to be only around nine or so...I couldn't last that long here. Guess I would have to go over to Toby's after all.
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"Great...", I muttered under my breath. The Isaac's house was totally pitch dark...no one was at the residence.
Was there anywhere else I could go?
A thought struck me at that moment. Manny is nearby...infact a couple houses down. Maybe she wouldn't mind if I stayed over...just tonight?
Her house was big. Big and clean looking. One word to desribe it would be: Homey.
I knocked three times on the large wooden door before me. She stood at the doorway with a suprised look.
"Oh..Jt?", she said with a smile. The smile I used to love. That I could no longer love.
"Yeah..hey Manny", I paused," Umm..do you mind if I just stay over? Just for while?", I asked hopefully.
She nodded stepping out of my way so I could enter.," Yeah just have a seat.", I did as I was told as she sat next to me.
"Parents aren't here..so you can stay as long as you like.", she smiled.
"Thanks.", I said managing a small grin.
" So what brings you here?"
"Oh well...I just needed a place to stay..for alittle bit", she nodded. A odd silence sat between us as I had to break it.
" So how things with Craig..and you know?", I asked. She hadn't grown any from stating that she was pregnant.
"Its fine..and it isn't going to happen anymore.", she said looking down.
A confused expression came upon my face.
" I decided not to have it anymore...I had a abortion.", she said softly.
As soon as abortion hit my ears a wave of sadness came upon me.," Why?", I asked remebering my parent's decision not to have me.
"Its not the right time.", she paused taking in a breath.," I don't feel that the baby would..have a good life."
"When did you get it?", I nearly muttered. Somehow I felt angry at her for a moment. It wasn't my bussiness...but ending the life of something was wrong in my opinion.
"A few weeks ago..", a wave of silents came over us as she broke it," And me and Craig are no longer."
I nodded.
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It was around two and me and her still hadn't went to sleep as we talked about old times. We were talking about spirit squad and how she couldn't wait to get back. Some way along the line we got into the topic of Paige.
" She's gotten nicer. Well atleast she hasn't been as mean to me.", I nodded," She talks about you sometimes..."
The sentence caught my attention," How so?", I asked as the candle she had lit glowed on her face.
"Not in a bad way...in a good. She sometimes wishes..you guys could be better friends..", she stopped herself," I've already said to much."
I laid in silence.
"Do you like her? I mean I know it was just alittle crush a couple years ago but..."
" I dunno..", I stupidly said.
Then she asked another question I did not want to answer," What about me?"
" We better get to sleep..", I murmered changing positions. I heard her blow out the candle.
"Goodnight..", she whispered.
The question stuck in my head the rest of my night causing me to get little sleep. Did I still have feelings for Paige? Talking to her was really easy...and somehow their seemed to be an attraction. Did I still have feelings for Manny? We had been friends forever...
Paige talked about me?
Slowly I drifted asleep.
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A/N: I wanted to confuse people in this chapter alittle. Plus I wanted to add alittle more romance. Well PLEASE REVEIW!!! ^_^
I can't wait for the next season of Degrassi to start here in the US...kinda sucks that Canada gets to see it first, huh? Oh well, guess I should be glad I have the channel to watch it in the first place.
I was just watching a very funny episode of Degrassi the other night. Yeah, I've seen it alot..but it always gets funnier. Its the one where Ashley takes drugs. Not Ashley's part, but Jt's and Toby's. I was in tears watching Jt being goofy around that lava lamp. It was hilarious!
I've been thinking about writing another story after I get done with this one ( That will be awhile). I want to do a plot that isnt so popular. Something different thats not already out there. Got any ideas? I am interested in writing a fic with another person also. Interested? Let me know ^.^
Looks like I've talked to much already...
NoLaBeLs- Thanks for stickin with me and revewing!
sethsduck17- Thats exactly what I wanted people to do! Think about another side of Jt...his home life. A side we don't see...thanks for revewing!
lil-anime-angewl- Hiya Sarah! Thanks for stickin with me and reveiwing again!
Disclamer: I do not own Degrassi
Look! I'm finally starting the story!!! :)
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I sit here in the dark...
Alone I am...
Which is what I fear I will always be...
So many emotions are going through me right now. I am glad I left. But, then I think where am I going to go after school? Sure Toby's parents wouldn't mind for a night or two...but I couldn't stay here forever. I am in eleventh grade now. Sure I can take care of myself. I always did. But now I couldnt hide in the house. And of course I couldn't afford to get my own place.
ow I'm sitting here on a old bench. It's in the middle of the city's park. The sun is long gone. And the wind pulls on the trees violently. I had been to my job today. Didn't have much time to think in that place. Not when you have the boss is down your neck constantly, not when your fellow workers a giggling like crazy when they swipe some 'special sauce' on someone's meal, not when you don't really know what to think over.
I knew I should get up and go to Toby's. But, something told me not to. Besides, me and Toby seemed to have drifted apart. We weren't as close as before. Maybe I would have to stay here...the whole night?
The moon is shining brightly this night. That is how I am able to write this. Well, along with some small lamps nearby.
In ways it is creepy just sitting here. No one else around...Let me tell you something...some people out in this world are crazy...and I think I might me one of them.
School was tommorrow. Now I realize that I have brought no other outfit to wear. Well, maybe nobody will notice.
It had to be only around nine or so...I couldn't last that long here. Guess I would have to go over to Toby's after all.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Great...", I muttered under my breath. The Isaac's house was totally pitch dark...no one was at the residence.
Was there anywhere else I could go?
A thought struck me at that moment. Manny is nearby...infact a couple houses down. Maybe she wouldn't mind if I stayed over...just tonight?
Her house was big. Big and clean looking. One word to desribe it would be: Homey.
I knocked three times on the large wooden door before me. She stood at the doorway with a suprised look.
"Oh..Jt?", she said with a smile. The smile I used to love. That I could no longer love.
"Yeah..hey Manny", I paused," Umm..do you mind if I just stay over? Just for while?", I asked hopefully.
She nodded stepping out of my way so I could enter.," Yeah just have a seat.", I did as I was told as she sat next to me.
"Parents aren't here..so you can stay as long as you like.", she smiled.
"Thanks.", I said managing a small grin.
" So what brings you here?"
"Oh well...I just needed a place to stay..for alittle bit", she nodded. A odd silence sat between us as I had to break it.
" So how things with Craig..and you know?", I asked. She hadn't grown any from stating that she was pregnant.
"Its fine..and it isn't going to happen anymore.", she said looking down.
A confused expression came upon my face.
" I decided not to have it anymore...I had a abortion.", she said softly.
As soon as abortion hit my ears a wave of sadness came upon me.," Why?", I asked remebering my parent's decision not to have me.
"Its not the right time.", she paused taking in a breath.," I don't feel that the baby would..have a good life."
"When did you get it?", I nearly muttered. Somehow I felt angry at her for a moment. It wasn't my bussiness...but ending the life of something was wrong in my opinion.
"A few weeks ago..", a wave of silents came over us as she broke it," And me and Craig are no longer."
I nodded.
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It was around two and me and her still hadn't went to sleep as we talked about old times. We were talking about spirit squad and how she couldn't wait to get back. Some way along the line we got into the topic of Paige.
" She's gotten nicer. Well atleast she hasn't been as mean to me.", I nodded," She talks about you sometimes..."
The sentence caught my attention," How so?", I asked as the candle she had lit glowed on her face.
"Not in a bad way...in a good. She sometimes wishes..you guys could be better friends..", she stopped herself," I've already said to much."
I laid in silence.
"Do you like her? I mean I know it was just alittle crush a couple years ago but..."
" I dunno..", I stupidly said.
Then she asked another question I did not want to answer," What about me?"
" We better get to sleep..", I murmered changing positions. I heard her blow out the candle.
"Goodnight..", she whispered.
The question stuck in my head the rest of my night causing me to get little sleep. Did I still have feelings for Paige? Talking to her was really easy...and somehow their seemed to be an attraction. Did I still have feelings for Manny? We had been friends forever...
Paige talked about me?
Slowly I drifted asleep.
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A/N: I wanted to confuse people in this chapter alittle. Plus I wanted to add alittle more romance. Well PLEASE REVEIW!!! ^_^