A/N: Howdy! I'm here for my first update in awhile. I don't really
have much more to say...but Im real excited about the upcoming season of
Degrassi!!!
pickledxwriter-Thanks for your reveiw im so glad you seem to like it!!!^^
Jt'sChik- Dont know why I answer your reveiws, sis. But thanks..I guess...^^
Disclamer: I do not own Degrassi
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I sit here in the dark...
Alone I am...
Which is what I fear I will always be...
I've been abused by my parents for as long as I can remember. Sure, now I have gotten old enough to just walk out, but at a young age that was hard, nearly impossible. The thoughts of each breath I took in that house still haunts me at this moment. It's quite sad knowing you never had or will have real parents. So while Paige, who I am certain I am in love with, lays here in the hospital bed I will open up more to you. And only you. And maybe someday someone will find this sad excuse for a notebook and take pity on me. But that will never happen as I know you will not leave my sight until the day I die. No one must know. So, as the blank pages in my notebook become fewer I will fill them up with something halfway worthwhile. Things I will never forget.
I don't remember anything much until the age of four. My so called 'mom' had me already doing everything that needed tending to in the house. I remember doing the dishes one day. As we had just finished our macaroni and cheese. The plates were covered with interesting lumpy stuff of different colors as I tried to scrub them off with a small old rag. That 'stuff' hadn't seemed to want to move a inch though.
"Mama it wont come off!", I whined as the stuff squirted onto my rotten t-shirt.
"Boy, can't you do anything!?", she growled while looking up from our small television set," You do that or your not gonna go outside."
Well, eager as I was to go and play with the neighbor kids I simply placed the dishes in the cabinent sticky stuff and everything.
"I'm done, Mama", I called running and grabbing my shoes.After getting them on I ran outside to join the other children. I started a nice game with a boy my age and his dad. And boy were we having fun.
"Kid!", my father shouted while poking his head out the door.
"Be right back!", I called to my friends. A large grin was on my face as I ran up to my father. He pulled me inside quite roughly.
"Whats wrong?", I asked confused.
"Whats this!?", he shouted very angrily putting the disgusting plate in my face. I kept the confused look on my face," You can't even wash a plate!?", he continued," You-"
"You wouldn't help me!", I interrupted him," I told ya I couldn't get the nasty stuff off!"
"Don't you dare talk back to me..", he growled under his breath as he put his fingers on the rim of his belt and started to unbuckle it.
Thats when I knew my behind was getting a whippen. I-
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"Jt?", Paige asked in a whisper as she woke up. Carefully I put the pencil and book away. I knew I would finish it later.
"Paige", I smiled that she was awake.
"Why am I here-", she paused obviuosly recollecting her thoughts.
"Paige", I said trying to ask the question gently," Who did this to you?", I failed.
She sat silent as if she hadn't understood my question.
"Do you remember?", I knew she did.
Again she remained silent.
I had a pretty good idea on who would and most likely did bring this on her. I just needed to hear her say his name.
"Paige?", I asked again.
"It happened...", I waited for her to continue," It happened after me and Hazel came to see you."
I nodded waiting for her to go on.
"She had left with Jimmy and I was going on home,"she paused," It was dark and the street lights weren't working very well. And then he grabbed me", she took a deep breath as she had no emotion on her face," I didn't have a chance to kick or scream and there were more then one..."
A doctor suddenly walked in," I'm sorry visiting hours are over, sir.", she walked over to me.
I stood up," Who was it Paige!?"
I needed to hear his name from her mouth. The doctor began to lead me out," Im sorry sir you must go.", he shut the doors right on me.
After those doors shut I had made one desicion. Enough about me and my misery...this was about Paige. I made one promise I would never break, I would kill Dean.
I knew where his house was. And I knew I would do it in a instant when given the chance. I just needed the proper equitment. The first thing that came to my mind and would come to any guys mind was a gun. And the only place I had access to one was my house.
I would get it and:
I WOULD KILL DEAN.
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pickledxwriter-Thanks for your reveiw im so glad you seem to like it!!!^^
Jt'sChik- Dont know why I answer your reveiws, sis. But thanks..I guess...^^
Disclamer: I do not own Degrassi
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I sit here in the dark...
Alone I am...
Which is what I fear I will always be...
I've been abused by my parents for as long as I can remember. Sure, now I have gotten old enough to just walk out, but at a young age that was hard, nearly impossible. The thoughts of each breath I took in that house still haunts me at this moment. It's quite sad knowing you never had or will have real parents. So while Paige, who I am certain I am in love with, lays here in the hospital bed I will open up more to you. And only you. And maybe someday someone will find this sad excuse for a notebook and take pity on me. But that will never happen as I know you will not leave my sight until the day I die. No one must know. So, as the blank pages in my notebook become fewer I will fill them up with something halfway worthwhile. Things I will never forget.
I don't remember anything much until the age of four. My so called 'mom' had me already doing everything that needed tending to in the house. I remember doing the dishes one day. As we had just finished our macaroni and cheese. The plates were covered with interesting lumpy stuff of different colors as I tried to scrub them off with a small old rag. That 'stuff' hadn't seemed to want to move a inch though.
"Mama it wont come off!", I whined as the stuff squirted onto my rotten t-shirt.
"Boy, can't you do anything!?", she growled while looking up from our small television set," You do that or your not gonna go outside."
Well, eager as I was to go and play with the neighbor kids I simply placed the dishes in the cabinent sticky stuff and everything.
"I'm done, Mama", I called running and grabbing my shoes.After getting them on I ran outside to join the other children. I started a nice game with a boy my age and his dad. And boy were we having fun.
"Kid!", my father shouted while poking his head out the door.
"Be right back!", I called to my friends. A large grin was on my face as I ran up to my father. He pulled me inside quite roughly.
"Whats wrong?", I asked confused.
"Whats this!?", he shouted very angrily putting the disgusting plate in my face. I kept the confused look on my face," You can't even wash a plate!?", he continued," You-"
"You wouldn't help me!", I interrupted him," I told ya I couldn't get the nasty stuff off!"
"Don't you dare talk back to me..", he growled under his breath as he put his fingers on the rim of his belt and started to unbuckle it.
Thats when I knew my behind was getting a whippen. I-
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"Jt?", Paige asked in a whisper as she woke up. Carefully I put the pencil and book away. I knew I would finish it later.
"Paige", I smiled that she was awake.
"Why am I here-", she paused obviuosly recollecting her thoughts.
"Paige", I said trying to ask the question gently," Who did this to you?", I failed.
She sat silent as if she hadn't understood my question.
"Do you remember?", I knew she did.
Again she remained silent.
I had a pretty good idea on who would and most likely did bring this on her. I just needed to hear her say his name.
"Paige?", I asked again.
"It happened...", I waited for her to continue," It happened after me and Hazel came to see you."
I nodded waiting for her to go on.
"She had left with Jimmy and I was going on home,"she paused," It was dark and the street lights weren't working very well. And then he grabbed me", she took a deep breath as she had no emotion on her face," I didn't have a chance to kick or scream and there were more then one..."
A doctor suddenly walked in," I'm sorry visiting hours are over, sir.", she walked over to me.
I stood up," Who was it Paige!?"
I needed to hear his name from her mouth. The doctor began to lead me out," Im sorry sir you must go.", he shut the doors right on me.
After those doors shut I had made one desicion. Enough about me and my misery...this was about Paige. I made one promise I would never break, I would kill Dean.
I knew where his house was. And I knew I would do it in a instant when given the chance. I just needed the proper equitment. The first thing that came to my mind and would come to any guys mind was a gun. And the only place I had access to one was my house.
I would get it and:
I WOULD KILL DEAN.
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