Sorry for not updating in ages but I had some other inspiration which has lead me to start on a totally different Taiora story so I guess that means it won't be long after Lost Child till a completely different story is up -.- don't know whether that's good or not but anyway o.O
SoratoL.O.C.Fan- Thanks for taking the time to review :D
Reiye- Lol I know I should tone down the evil huh? But it's so fun. I'm glad you found some of it funny I like to keep it evil but sweet. I think its either this chapter or the next the evil peeps are revealed :)
Abckid- Firstly good point and why would I hate you? It's a fair question. In actual fact I had wrote an alternative start to this and it was all going to be from Tai and Sora's point of view but I felt I couldn't really show how the girl was feeling without them having to speak or meet her many times and I felt it might get a bit awkward. If it's any consolation somewhere I think its the ninth and tenth- possibly the eighth (no just checked it is ninth and tenth :)) you learn more about Tai and it directly links with Mistakes, And the eleventh about Malaika's point of view on it all and the twelfth is about confessions (I think) which also directly links to particular events in Mistakes! There is going to be more of Tai and Sora (or maybe just Sora Ice wolf) and I just want to say thanks for your review it's helped me write the following chapters I think I may have strayed from them a bit if you know what I mean. ;)
Kawaii-Q- Thanks I was describing them to my younger sister so I could give a clear picture of them in the story and to her- she now won't put my Yokomon purse down and I need to go shopping -.- Anyway Thanks for another positive review from you :D.
Taidigimon- Thanks so much for the review it was supposed to be a sad chapter and I'm glad you picked up on that . Kittymon and Dogmon Mini Yokomon purse says Hi! ;)
ICE WOLF 741- Awww but it's so fun, I could kill him slow and painfully, or suffer like mad and die quickly, 'sings' I've got the power :)
Agumon2004- Thanks for the positive review honey :D
Next chapter peeps
Chapter 7- What I should Have Told You
"Sora what's wrong?" Tai said his voice full of concern as he entered the apartment to find Sora sitting on the sofa with her face in her hands stray tears falling onto the carpet.
"Momma?" Malaika asked her little voice full of concern. "Aww daddy she's crying, Momma why you crying?"
"Malaika honey momma's just upset, can you be a big girl for me and play in your room while I talk to daddy?" Sora asked just managing a watery smile.
"Awww momma do I have to?" The little girl pouted crossing her arms in protest.
"Come on Lai, momma wants to talk to daddy look, you can come out in a minute." Tai said leading the girl to her room and settling her down before exiting and closing the door quietly. Sitting next to Sora on the sofa he placed an arm around her pulling her into a comforting hug before questioning her. "I think we've created a brat." He whispered causing her to giggle through tears as she drew back from the hug to face him.
"Tai, I saw her." She said clearly.
"Saw who?"
"Aroha." She whispered expecting him to laugh or call her joke but instead he placed his head in his hands momentarily as if trying to find a memory before turning to face her again.
"Where?" He finally asked.
"In here. Tai I felt her I...... I heard her sing. She sung the lullaby Tai. I'm not making it up honey. I saw her!" She rambled trying to convince Tai who looked unfazed.
"Look Sora don't think for one second I'm doubting you. There's something I should have told you, I should have said something, but Sora I didn't want to upset you, we'd just had Malaika and I didn't want to bring back the sadness of loosing her." Tai replied taking her hands in his.
"What?" Sora breathed scared of what she was about to hear.
"Sora I want you to take a deep breath first okay. Remember when Aroha died we found a crest and digivice?"
"Uh huh we put them in the trunk?"
"Uh huh but in the digital world there was also a digi-egg, when she died it grew cold and turned black. On the egg was our crests entwined and Aroha's. When the egg died Biyomon took it back to her nest, she wouldn't give up on it and kept it warm. Sora when Malaika was a baby the egg hatched. We know for sure Malaika is not a digidestined so....." Tai trailed off tears beginning the well up in his eyes.
"What does it mean Tai?" She whispered holding his hands tight.
"I don't know Sora. I just don't know!" He said the first solitary tears rolling down his cheek. "I spoke to Gennai about it and all he could say was 'has she had any contact with the digital world at all' he didn't even explain his fucking question!" Tai spat angrily the river of tears continued.
"I never went to the digital world when I was pregnant with her. I mean back then I kept my digivice beside me at all times and my crest around my neck but never once did they beep or glow."
"What does this all mean. What does it fucking mean!" Tai cried his feeling of helplessness returning. "When I think I've finally got over it and finally realised she's not coming back there's this glimmer of hope and then my guilt returns I can't take it!"
"Tai? What do you have to be guilty for?" Sora soothed cupping his face with her hands as tears ran down both their faces.
"I wasn't there for you when you were pregnant, I was halfway around the world trying to start a new life while you were carrying one. I was having a good time while you were having scans and check ups. If only I was there if only I had been able to have been by your side while all this was going on. I hate myself for that, for leaving you. You know what if I hadn't have come home for Christmas I would never had been there and seen her. I could have missed out on holding her in my arms and I hate myself for that!" Tai cried his tears flowing faster. "Don't get me wrong I love you and Malaika so much that I couldn't possibly love anyone as much, but there's still this part of me saying so does that mean you don't love her is it okay now to forget her and it just makes me wonder is that what I'm doing?"
"Oh Tai. Why should you be guilty? I never told you, so what does that make me huh? Mega guilty? Its just something awful that happened and we can't change that. Sometimes, sometimes I get lost in my happiness with you and Lai and I stop and think is that wrong. I guess that's a part of grieving for her." Sora replied her own tears flowing faster. "You know when Lai was in my tummy. I would wake up in the night and hear a small child crying, I would walk around the house in the darkness, searching. I don't know what I expected to find I just felt so helpless it was like the child was trapped. I used to sing the lullaby, the one I sang to her before she left us and the child used to stop. But sometimes just sometimes, I'd let her cry a while just so I could imagine she was there still, that she was still with us now. As the pregnancy progressed the crying stopped but still I waited up at night to hear her crying for her momma and daddy. I thought maybe just maybe somehow she was still alive."
"I know Sora but it's like changing fate, is it that we just can't seem to let go or what?" Tai whispered stroking her hand that was still cupping his cheek.
"It's us it's got to be us Tai, we just got to except she's not coming back, she's not coming back to us, but it doesn't mean we still don't love her."
"Your right." Tai breathed kissing her on the lips comfortingly the salty tears tasted sweet upon her lips but still he didn't feel entirely convinced.
"Do.. Do you think we should look in the trunk?" Sora stuttered looking into Tai's chocolate eyes.
"I.... I I don't know Sor." Tai mumbled back it wasn't that he didn't want to look but that he could hold onto the little bit of hope that she was alive still, looking into the trunk would bring him back to reality.
"Maybe that's where were going wrong, it can't hurt to look can it." Sora replied standing up still holding his hands motivating him also.
"I guess." He muttered still trying to hold onto his hope the only bit of her he had left. Did he want to ruin it? Did he want conformation that she wasn't ever coming back? These questions plagued his mind as Sora lead him to their bedroom and to their wardrobe. Where the chest lay. Unopened. Concealing the truth. "Sora I don't think we should do this!" Tai blurted out as Sora placed her hand on the clasp.
"Why not?" She said in surprise, removing her hand from the lid to look at him.
"I don't think we should have to, maybe another day, but not today." Tai said not moving from his spot as she rose to meet him.
"Then when Tai. Tai I want to see, I want to look in the trunk and know she's safe in eternal bliss, so my mind will stop causing my so much pain!" Sora cried her eyes pleading with him, the tears of despair rolling down her cheeks.
"And that's it so you can have peace of mind knowing she's not coming back, it's not like that for me Sora I can't just except she's gone and I don't want to just yet." Tai sighed not meeting her eyes directly.
"So you can suffer everyday thinking that maybe she is unhappy, maybe she is somewhere and we can't help her, Tai I know you feel guilty for some absurd reason but you mustn't Tai I love you, I love Lai and I also love Aroha that's why I need to know, so I know she's listening to my prayers so that even though she's not with me she knows I love her." Sora gasped in despair clutching Tai's hands she did not want to go against his wishes but felt she must.
"I know Sora, I love you, Lai and Aroha too, but why should we condemn ourselves to a life in which the logical understanding rules over our minds, why cut our minds off from the glimmer of hope that still shines. Think, think back to when we entered the digital world, did you not then feel that anything could happen, so why let that stray and disappear when there's no need to remind us she's not coming back but rather the hope that we will see her again someday." Tai replied his eyes red clutching Sora's hands tight.
"One..." They heard there little girl say from her room.
"Listen Tai we have one beautiful daughter with us and one beautiful daughter in a spiritual form, why can't you let me clarify that if anything I should be the guilty one, why do you want me to suffer for my mistakes!" Sora cried letting go off Tai's hands and throwing hers up in the air in frustration.
"You think this about punishing you! You think I don't want to look because I want you to suffer? God Sora stop being so stupid! I want to let my imagination rule over logic for once can't you see that!" Tai spat in reply.
"Two....." The girl chimed from her room.
"Tai this isn't fantasy, we live in the real world! Why can't you see I just want to face reality rather than hide from it! I don't want to go through my life scared that she's unhappy. Tai why won't you let me do this? Why won't you let me look!?" Sora sobbed.
"What and going to the digital world was a fantasy huh? Was meeting Biyomon and saving the digital world a phase of our imaginations? Was it so horrific you were gagging to be pulled back into reality? Why can't you understand that sometimes reality is harsh, unfair and cruel yet it's blessed us with another beautiful daughter and hope that some where there is our other why ruin it all?" Tai stated trying to stress his point.
"Free......." The girl stressed from her room.
"How am I ruining Lai, how? Your making it out that I don't care. You know better than me that I loved every moment I spent with Biyomon why drag her into this? Tai I.......... I hate it. I hate the reality, I hate the fact that I can feel her when she's gone but know she's not truly there, that my mind tricks me when it knows I'm weak!"
"Sora please, just see it my way, just let us not face up to it yet. Honey I love you but I don't want to see you in pain I don't want you to feel like I feel anymore I want to make to sugar coat the world for you an Lai I want to make you both feel that anything is possible. I don't want to forget that and know she's gone!" Tai soothed.
"Four............." The girl giggled from her room.
"Tai I love you too, but, let me put my mistake right let me look."
"There was no mistakes, what mistake could there have possibly been, getting with me? Having two cute kids? You have nothing to put right?"
"But I do Tai, I.... I hated her when she was a part of me, I can't ever forgive myself for that but worst still I hate myself for not being able to tell her and know she heard me."
"Sora stop it! The world isn't against you! Stop beating yourself up for something you couldn't control."
"HOW WOULD YOU KNOW, SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE MOST FOR THE BETTER BUT WHAT ABOUT THE BAD STUFF TAI, WHAT ABOUT LOOSING MY DAUGHTER OUR DAUGHTER HOW CAN YOU STILL HAVE FAITH THAT FANTASY CAN STILL RULE OVER LOGIC!"
"ONLY IF YOU LET IT! GOING TO THE DIGITAL WORLD AND EVERYTHING SORA I USED BELIEVE ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN AND IT MAY SEEM CHILDISH BUT I STILL DO WHY LET THAT PART OF ME DIE! IN LIFE YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT AS IT COMES, YES WE'VE LOST BUT WE'VE ALSO GAINED. CAN'T YOU SEE THAT CAN'T YOU SEE THAT IT'S BLESSED US WITH ANOTHER DAUGHTER. CAN'T YOU JUST ONCE THINK THAT MAYBE LIFE'S LOOKING UP FOR US THAT THE BAD LUCK'S IN THE PAST!"
"Five................................"
"Tai, I'm sorry!" Sora cried before bending down and lifting the lid of the trunk up. And revealing
That
The crest
And the digivice
Was gone.
But as they stared in disbelief they had yet to realise that the crest and digivice were not all that was missing.
To be continued
Hope you liked the story all opinions considered- yes I've learnt from my mistakes.
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