I collapsed to the ground in shock.
"Oh Shit!" I heard someone cry out. "Are you OK?"
I looked up and saw the boy from before looking at me. Behind him were two worried looking Autobots.
"Are you OK?" He repeated.
I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out.
"Geese Ironhide! Way to go!" He yelled back at on of the Autobots.
"Sorry! I forgot to disengaged my lasers." He admitted.
"Yeah, well you almost got her killed!" Kicker helped me up and bent down and picked up my identification card. It must have fell off when I fell. "Here…Emiko."
He read the card and handed it back. I quickly pinned it back on my hoody and looked at him. His eyes were a deep brown and it matched his hair. I saw something in his eyes that disappointed me very much.
"So you're the girl my dad told me about." He said. "I must admit you look a lot different than what I imagined."
"And what exactly would that be?" I asked regaining my voice.
Kicker blushed and I simply smiled.
"I'm really sorry!" Ironhide said.
"You should be Ironhide!" Said the other Autobot.
"What were you doing anyway?" I asked.
"Prowl and me were dueling." Ironhide admitted.
I looked at the one named Prowl or a moment, remembering what Jetfire had told me earlier.
"So what brought you and your dad here? I'm sure your not here just because my dad asked you to come." Kicker asked.
"Yes, well. I…" I couldn't bring myself to tell him. "I heard you could sense Energon and well…I…"
"What?" Kicker asked raising his voice. "Ganna call me a freak?"
I looked at him a bit shocked. He could change his mood really fast. I regretted not responding.
"You one of those politically correct Christian girls?" He asked me angrily. "I'm not some freaky human light bulb you know!"
I didn't answer him. I just turned around and tried to ignore his angry demeanor. He grabbed my shoulders and forced me to look at him. "Why don't you answer me?"
"Stop it Kicker!" Ironhide told him.
"Answer me!" He yelled.
I starred at him and broke.
"I'm jealous!" I hadn't realized what I said till he let go.
"Jealous? Of what? That I tell where Energon is?"
I shook my head feeling the tears coming.
"You're not scarred!" I felt my grip on my energy slip.
Kicker back up and starred at me shocked.
"Your not like me!" I screamed. I came to my senses and looked shocked and scared at Kicker and the two dazed Autobots.
I didn't want to be there anymore so I ran. I ran out the room and kept on going even thought I had no idea where I was going, but I didn't care. All I wanted was to find a place to hide and die!
I don't know how long I was in that closet but it felt like days. I ran that scene in my mind trying to find out someway of salvaging it. It was most likely it was too late. I wonder if anyone was looking for me. I stayed there and cried. I cried for my mother to come back and help me make it all better like she did when I came home bloody and broken that one time. I wasn't bloody but I was hurt. I wish my dad would find me so I could pretend like everything was better.
I heard the door to the room open. I was in the closet huddled together sobbing.
The knob of the door turned and opened. Kicker bent down next to me and looked at me sympathetically.
"Your dad' told me everything," He said quietly. "He's worried about you."
"I didn't mean to yell at you…before." I told him trying to hold back my sobs. "I just wanted you to be like me so bad!"
"No one is the same. Even though you have similar abilities than mine were different." He placed his hand on my head and I lunged forward grabbing him and sobbing. He fell back on his butt but didn't object.
"I'm sorry!" I felt like anchoring my self to him. I don't know why I was ever jealous of him. I suppose what I saw in his eyes told me we were different, that he wasn't like me and that I was completely alone. I wondered if he ever felt this hopeless and pathetic. Did he ever really feel alone? How could he have? People who understood his powers surrounded him and he was never tortured because of it. We were truly different, but at the same time we were the same.
I never figured out if I found what I was looking for that day, but whatever it was I found something better; I found a friend.