How It All Began
Disclaimer: I don't own a thing!
Author's Note: Sorry! So terribly sorry! Life has been hectic, and well, I have been lazy. Yes, I admit it, I have been lazy. I hope this is well worth the wait thought!
Chapter 13
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(Lily's PoV)
"I can't believe my own bloody best friend would so something like that!" Sirius shouted while we were walking up the stairs to the common room.
"I don't know what to say really. I'm speechless."
"Don't you give me that speechless shit Lily! You fancy James. Get over yourself and admit it!" Sirius bellowed.
"Excuse me!" I was quite taken aback. "If you hadn't gotten all jealous, you and Lindsey would be upstairs snogging right now!" I shouted back. By now, I was red in the face. Sirius had walked over to a window that overlooked the grounds. I noticed he was looking over at Lindsey and James.
"At least the person you're pining after, pines after you too," he whispered.
"But Lindsey still loves- wait, James likes me?" This was certainly news to me.
"Yes. It was obvious. He has liked you for the longest time but didn't do anything about it because he thought you wouldn't give him the right time of day."
"Oh." That was all I could say. I really can't believe this. James likes me. The feeling is mutual, I must say! Wait, I didn't just say that!
"And anyway, I don't blame Lindsey for hating me now"
"She doesn't hate you Sirius! Quite the opposite in fact. She mopes around the room all the time. You just don't see her. She is constantly looking through old letters you gave her, and she sleeps with the old shirt she took from you about a year ago," the moment I said the old shirt comment I instantly regretted saying it. Sirius sniffed, looked up and gave a tiny smile.
"Sure."
"Aww, Sirius! Believe me, if I could, I would change things. But I can't. So we just have to stick together!" * * *
(James's PoV)
"We should be heading on up," I said giving Lindsey a hand up.
"Wait, James! Do you think they know anything?" Lindsey asked, putting a hand on my shoulder to stop me.
"Of course not! Me and you have been best friends for a really long time. According to most, it was bound to happen," I said grinning. Lindsey nodded and we continued to walk.
* * *
We strolled into the common room minutes later, hand-in-hand, anticipating Lily and Sirius being there.
"Hey James!" Lily greeted me.
"Hey. What are you guys up to?" I asked suspiciously.
"Nothing too much. Getting ready to do some homework. Wanna join in?" Sirius asked lounging in a comfy red arm chair next to me.
"Sure. We'll just get our books," Lindsey said, giving a half smile. She dragged me upstairs and I stopped her.
"You really want to do homework with Sirius?" I inquired.
"Anything to be with him again James. I miss him," she replied picking up my book bag, shoving some of my books, parchment and quills into it.
"Okay." I grabbed the book bag out of her hand and we walked downstairs.
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"What is the main ingredient in the lighter than air potion again James?" Lindsey asked, looking towards me.
"Lacewings, sweetheart," I said, causing Lindsey to smile in despite of herself. Lily and Sirius exchanged glances, but quickly looked down.
"And I am all done with that essay!" Sirius said, leaning back, folding his arms over his chest and quite evidently staring at Lindsey.
"Me too!" Lily exclaimed.
I noticed Lindsey had one more sentence left to write and I had a few more words.
"I am finally done!" Lindsey said smiling sweetly.
The common room door swung open and in walked Remus. "Remus, how the hell have you been!?" Sirius said loudly. Remus flinched, smiled and then focused his attention to Lily.
He walked over to Lily and whispered something in her ear. She frowned and yelled, "Remus, I don't want to hear it!" She ran upstairs and out of sight.
Lindsey shook her head, knowing exactly what's going on while Sirius and I were left to fend for ourselves. "Remus, I'll talk to you only because you will always be one of my really good friends. I just want to know why you did what you did." Lindsey asked.
"Stupidity. Didn't know a good thing when it came to me," he replied simply.
"Well, you do have that right. You were awfully stupid. But, I will make an exception and forgive you. Look guys, I'll talk to you all later. Night James," Lindsey said. She bent down, gave me a goodnight kiss and waved.
Sirius sighed heavily as he watched Lindsey's retreating back. He shook his head, and asked, "So what happened between you and Lily?"
Remus turned bright red. "I sort of, uhm, cheating on her."
I felt a white-hot anger come upon me. He had Lily! He had the one girl that I wanted and he treated her horribly. "What made you do it?"
"I had never been the guy that the girls fainted over. You and Sirius are. Ever since I had started dating Lily, things changed. I was getting notes, and girls were talking to me. Girls were following me. I never had that before. I wanted to see what it were like to be you two."
"Tell me Remus, did I ever cheat on Lindsey when we were dating?" Sirius said angrily. "I'm not like that; I would never have done that. If Lily meant something to you, like Lindsey meant and still means to me, you would not have done that!"
"I thought she meant something to me. I guess I'm just not ready for something serious," Remus said embarrassedly.
"It's alright. We are only 16. We have our whole lives ahead of us," I said knowingly. ((A/N: Ironic isn't it?))
"Now tell me about you and Lindsey. When did that happen?" Remus said changing the subject.
"Well, you know, things change. We were talking up in our dorm yesterday. I just felt so comfortable with her. One thing led to another and we started kissing, and here we are, dating." I must be the King of bullshit. I just pulled off one of the biggest lies in my life. Remus and Sirius bought it. They nodded, but Sirius looked down with a frown on his face.
"I'm gonna head on up. Goodnight guys," I said at last and walked upstairs to my dorm.
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(Lindsey's PoV)
All night I tossed and turned unable to get any sleep at all. I couldn't get Sirius's face out of my mind. Every time I would close my eyes, it would be he I see. Eventually, I just gave up and walked around the room. My eyes instantly darted to a piece of parchment on Lily's desk. Curiosity got the best of me, and I admit it, I snuck a glance at it. My suspicions were confirmed. Lily likes James. Maybe she meant to hide it or something, I don't know. Now I feel really bad. I don't want Lily to secretly hate me because I am 'kissing' James or anything. It's all an act.
Another thing that has been getting to me is the fact that Sirius keeps looking at me with these longing eyes. I miss him so much, and I don't know what to do. I can tell already that Lily and Sirius are jealous, which makes me think, why the hell did Sirius break up with me in the first place? I never really thought of Sirius as the jealous type either. Oh well, what can you do?
As I pull back the curtains of my four-poster, I notice that it is pouring outside. My favorite weather; made my favorite weather by Sirius. Today is not going to be a good day.
"Good morning!" Lily exclaimed, fixing her tie.
"Same," I said, sluggishly getting out of bed. "Ugh, what classes do we have today?"
"Potions, Transfiguration, Advanced Charms and Ancient Ruins," Lily said, ticking off each subject on her fingers.
I sighed and shook my head. After getting dressed, Lily and I walked downstairs. James, Sirius and Remus were there already. I broke away from Lily and walked ever so slowly towards James, took his hand, gave him a small kiss and smiled. Lily looked away and strolled over towards Sirius.
Lily and Sirius walked out before we did and Remus stopped us. "What's going on you two?"
"What do you mean?" James asked innocently.
"You both are not really going out are you?"
"Remus! You have to promise not to tell anyone!" I said in a loud whisper.
"I thought as much. How come?"
"Let's just say, it's a matter of jealousy," James said giving a half smile.
"You want to make Sirius and Lily jealous, why?"
"Remus, must we spell it out for you!" I said angrily.
"No, no, you're right. I won't say a word. I swear!"
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(James's PoV)
So now Remus knows. Oh geez, I hope things won't spread. I should trust Remus, shouldn't I? Merlin knows that I'd be a horrible friend if I didn't. "James, we're in front of the class, Alcon would have a cow if he saw any of his students holding hands," Lindsey said smiling. I grinned back and let go of her hand. We entered the classroom and the only seats left were next to Sirius, Lily and Snape. Lindsey took a seat next to Lily. Sorry Remus, I sat down next to Sirius.
"You know what this reminds me of?" Sirius whispered quietly. "4th year, when I would poke Lindsey in the back and give her notes."
I nodded and looked down. I remember those days. I glanced over at Sirius and saw that he was scribbling something down on a piece of parchment. Ever so slightly, I read what he was writing.
Lindsey,
Look, I am terribly sorry about everything that has been going on. I must say, lately, you have been the only thing on my mind. I'm sorry for how our relationship ended. And I do take full responsibility. I just want to start over. Can we talk after class, in private? I'll meet you under the oak tree by the lake.
-Sirius
"Lindsey, psst, Lindsey!" Sirius said quietly, but loud enough for Lindsey to hear. She turned around and looked at Sirius.
"Yes. . .?"
"Here." Sirius handed her the tiny folded piece of parchment and she turned around.
I saw her open the note and read it. She quickly wiped her eyes and slowly nodded. Sirius smiled. So Sirius wants her back, this is definitely not good, well it's good for Lindsey, but I'm still working on Lily.
After about another 30 minutes of listening to Alcon drone on about, Merlin knows what, we were dismissed.
As we were walking out of the classroom, I stopped Lindsey. Before I could say anything Lindsey said, "Don't you worry your pretty little head off James! I won't blow our cover, even though this is really what I want, but I wouldn't do that to you." She added as an afterthought, awfully loud, "See you later sweetheart!" I smiled and waved.
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(Sirius's PoV)
I can't believe she agreed to meet me here. I thought that after what I had done, she would never speak to me again. I am one step closer to getting her back. The only obstacle standing in my way is in the form of my bespectacled best friend. Well, all I can really do is become friends with her once again.
Here she comes; slowly descending the green grass of the grounds, rain cascading down in sheets. Her normally wavy hair drenched and her uniform soaked. As she came closer, I noticed a trace of a watery smile. "Hey Sirius," she said sweetly, wiping her wet locks out of her face.
"Hi."
"You wanted to talk?"
"Uhh, right! Okay, I wanted to explain my actions awhile ago. When we broke up, I was incredibly stupid. I let jealousy get the best of me rather than listen to you rationally, and I'm sorry about that. And about that outburst a couple of days ago; I was drunk. Like, fall on my arse, hangover for the next 3 days drunk. Once again, I was not rational and acted like it. I want you to know that I did not mean a single thing that I said that day. I also want you to know that I want to become friends again. Not talking to you is driving me crazy." After saying all this, I let out a much need sigh and wait with baited breath to hear what Lindsey had to say.
"Whoa, that is really a lot to take in. Well, I would love to be friends again. And I forgive you," she said grinning. I smiled largely and gave her a hug.
"Let's head on back. You are absolutely sopping. Wouldn't want you to catch anything," I suggested.
"Good idea!" she laughed. I had not heard her laugh in the longest time. I missed it.
As we were walking up the lawn, I decided to be bold and inquire her about her new relationship with Prongs. "I would have never thought that you and James would begin dating."
"Neither did I. I'm glad it happened though. I get to see James in a whole new light. He is very gentlemanly when he wants to be," she replied, looking down, apparently fascinated by the water on the individual blades of grass.
"Hmm, I'm sure. Isn't the rain just wonderful?" I asked, changing the subject.
She pivoted her head and smiled, "Indeed it is. The rain calms and soothes me, my absolute favorite weather of all time. Course' I have other reasons, but those are the two main ones." We reached the doors and I held it open for her. "Thanks."
We walked in and she instantly shivered. I wrapped my cloak around her and we walked to our next class, Transfiguration.
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(Lily's PoV)
I really wonder what's keeping Lindsey and Sirius. Who would have thought that they would be late for class?
"Okay class, today we will be transfiguring a desk into a cat. Now partner-"Professor McGonagall began. She was interrupted by Lindsey and Sirius barging in.
"Sorry Professor," they both muttered and Lindsey took a seat next to me.
"As I was saying, partner up!"
Lindsey and I agreed to be partners. About 10 minutes in, Lindsey turned to me. "Oh and by the way, I know you like James."
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Author's Note: Wow! I finished my next chapter. Hope you all like it. Please review!
Disclaimer: I don't own a thing!
Author's Note: Sorry! So terribly sorry! Life has been hectic, and well, I have been lazy. Yes, I admit it, I have been lazy. I hope this is well worth the wait thought!
Chapter 13
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(Lily's PoV)
"I can't believe my own bloody best friend would so something like that!" Sirius shouted while we were walking up the stairs to the common room.
"I don't know what to say really. I'm speechless."
"Don't you give me that speechless shit Lily! You fancy James. Get over yourself and admit it!" Sirius bellowed.
"Excuse me!" I was quite taken aback. "If you hadn't gotten all jealous, you and Lindsey would be upstairs snogging right now!" I shouted back. By now, I was red in the face. Sirius had walked over to a window that overlooked the grounds. I noticed he was looking over at Lindsey and James.
"At least the person you're pining after, pines after you too," he whispered.
"But Lindsey still loves- wait, James likes me?" This was certainly news to me.
"Yes. It was obvious. He has liked you for the longest time but didn't do anything about it because he thought you wouldn't give him the right time of day."
"Oh." That was all I could say. I really can't believe this. James likes me. The feeling is mutual, I must say! Wait, I didn't just say that!
"And anyway, I don't blame Lindsey for hating me now"
"She doesn't hate you Sirius! Quite the opposite in fact. She mopes around the room all the time. You just don't see her. She is constantly looking through old letters you gave her, and she sleeps with the old shirt she took from you about a year ago," the moment I said the old shirt comment I instantly regretted saying it. Sirius sniffed, looked up and gave a tiny smile.
"Sure."
"Aww, Sirius! Believe me, if I could, I would change things. But I can't. So we just have to stick together!" * * *
(James's PoV)
"We should be heading on up," I said giving Lindsey a hand up.
"Wait, James! Do you think they know anything?" Lindsey asked, putting a hand on my shoulder to stop me.
"Of course not! Me and you have been best friends for a really long time. According to most, it was bound to happen," I said grinning. Lindsey nodded and we continued to walk.
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We strolled into the common room minutes later, hand-in-hand, anticipating Lily and Sirius being there.
"Hey James!" Lily greeted me.
"Hey. What are you guys up to?" I asked suspiciously.
"Nothing too much. Getting ready to do some homework. Wanna join in?" Sirius asked lounging in a comfy red arm chair next to me.
"Sure. We'll just get our books," Lindsey said, giving a half smile. She dragged me upstairs and I stopped her.
"You really want to do homework with Sirius?" I inquired.
"Anything to be with him again James. I miss him," she replied picking up my book bag, shoving some of my books, parchment and quills into it.
"Okay." I grabbed the book bag out of her hand and we walked downstairs.
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"What is the main ingredient in the lighter than air potion again James?" Lindsey asked, looking towards me.
"Lacewings, sweetheart," I said, causing Lindsey to smile in despite of herself. Lily and Sirius exchanged glances, but quickly looked down.
"And I am all done with that essay!" Sirius said, leaning back, folding his arms over his chest and quite evidently staring at Lindsey.
"Me too!" Lily exclaimed.
I noticed Lindsey had one more sentence left to write and I had a few more words.
"I am finally done!" Lindsey said smiling sweetly.
The common room door swung open and in walked Remus. "Remus, how the hell have you been!?" Sirius said loudly. Remus flinched, smiled and then focused his attention to Lily.
He walked over to Lily and whispered something in her ear. She frowned and yelled, "Remus, I don't want to hear it!" She ran upstairs and out of sight.
Lindsey shook her head, knowing exactly what's going on while Sirius and I were left to fend for ourselves. "Remus, I'll talk to you only because you will always be one of my really good friends. I just want to know why you did what you did." Lindsey asked.
"Stupidity. Didn't know a good thing when it came to me," he replied simply.
"Well, you do have that right. You were awfully stupid. But, I will make an exception and forgive you. Look guys, I'll talk to you all later. Night James," Lindsey said. She bent down, gave me a goodnight kiss and waved.
Sirius sighed heavily as he watched Lindsey's retreating back. He shook his head, and asked, "So what happened between you and Lily?"
Remus turned bright red. "I sort of, uhm, cheating on her."
I felt a white-hot anger come upon me. He had Lily! He had the one girl that I wanted and he treated her horribly. "What made you do it?"
"I had never been the guy that the girls fainted over. You and Sirius are. Ever since I had started dating Lily, things changed. I was getting notes, and girls were talking to me. Girls were following me. I never had that before. I wanted to see what it were like to be you two."
"Tell me Remus, did I ever cheat on Lindsey when we were dating?" Sirius said angrily. "I'm not like that; I would never have done that. If Lily meant something to you, like Lindsey meant and still means to me, you would not have done that!"
"I thought she meant something to me. I guess I'm just not ready for something serious," Remus said embarrassedly.
"It's alright. We are only 16. We have our whole lives ahead of us," I said knowingly. ((A/N: Ironic isn't it?))
"Now tell me about you and Lindsey. When did that happen?" Remus said changing the subject.
"Well, you know, things change. We were talking up in our dorm yesterday. I just felt so comfortable with her. One thing led to another and we started kissing, and here we are, dating." I must be the King of bullshit. I just pulled off one of the biggest lies in my life. Remus and Sirius bought it. They nodded, but Sirius looked down with a frown on his face.
"I'm gonna head on up. Goodnight guys," I said at last and walked upstairs to my dorm.
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(Lindsey's PoV)
All night I tossed and turned unable to get any sleep at all. I couldn't get Sirius's face out of my mind. Every time I would close my eyes, it would be he I see. Eventually, I just gave up and walked around the room. My eyes instantly darted to a piece of parchment on Lily's desk. Curiosity got the best of me, and I admit it, I snuck a glance at it. My suspicions were confirmed. Lily likes James. Maybe she meant to hide it or something, I don't know. Now I feel really bad. I don't want Lily to secretly hate me because I am 'kissing' James or anything. It's all an act.
Another thing that has been getting to me is the fact that Sirius keeps looking at me with these longing eyes. I miss him so much, and I don't know what to do. I can tell already that Lily and Sirius are jealous, which makes me think, why the hell did Sirius break up with me in the first place? I never really thought of Sirius as the jealous type either. Oh well, what can you do?
As I pull back the curtains of my four-poster, I notice that it is pouring outside. My favorite weather; made my favorite weather by Sirius. Today is not going to be a good day.
"Good morning!" Lily exclaimed, fixing her tie.
"Same," I said, sluggishly getting out of bed. "Ugh, what classes do we have today?"
"Potions, Transfiguration, Advanced Charms and Ancient Ruins," Lily said, ticking off each subject on her fingers.
I sighed and shook my head. After getting dressed, Lily and I walked downstairs. James, Sirius and Remus were there already. I broke away from Lily and walked ever so slowly towards James, took his hand, gave him a small kiss and smiled. Lily looked away and strolled over towards Sirius.
Lily and Sirius walked out before we did and Remus stopped us. "What's going on you two?"
"What do you mean?" James asked innocently.
"You both are not really going out are you?"
"Remus! You have to promise not to tell anyone!" I said in a loud whisper.
"I thought as much. How come?"
"Let's just say, it's a matter of jealousy," James said giving a half smile.
"You want to make Sirius and Lily jealous, why?"
"Remus, must we spell it out for you!" I said angrily.
"No, no, you're right. I won't say a word. I swear!"
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(James's PoV)
So now Remus knows. Oh geez, I hope things won't spread. I should trust Remus, shouldn't I? Merlin knows that I'd be a horrible friend if I didn't. "James, we're in front of the class, Alcon would have a cow if he saw any of his students holding hands," Lindsey said smiling. I grinned back and let go of her hand. We entered the classroom and the only seats left were next to Sirius, Lily and Snape. Lindsey took a seat next to Lily. Sorry Remus, I sat down next to Sirius.
"You know what this reminds me of?" Sirius whispered quietly. "4th year, when I would poke Lindsey in the back and give her notes."
I nodded and looked down. I remember those days. I glanced over at Sirius and saw that he was scribbling something down on a piece of parchment. Ever so slightly, I read what he was writing.
Lindsey,
Look, I am terribly sorry about everything that has been going on. I must say, lately, you have been the only thing on my mind. I'm sorry for how our relationship ended. And I do take full responsibility. I just want to start over. Can we talk after class, in private? I'll meet you under the oak tree by the lake.
-Sirius
"Lindsey, psst, Lindsey!" Sirius said quietly, but loud enough for Lindsey to hear. She turned around and looked at Sirius.
"Yes. . .?"
"Here." Sirius handed her the tiny folded piece of parchment and she turned around.
I saw her open the note and read it. She quickly wiped her eyes and slowly nodded. Sirius smiled. So Sirius wants her back, this is definitely not good, well it's good for Lindsey, but I'm still working on Lily.
After about another 30 minutes of listening to Alcon drone on about, Merlin knows what, we were dismissed.
As we were walking out of the classroom, I stopped Lindsey. Before I could say anything Lindsey said, "Don't you worry your pretty little head off James! I won't blow our cover, even though this is really what I want, but I wouldn't do that to you." She added as an afterthought, awfully loud, "See you later sweetheart!" I smiled and waved.
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(Sirius's PoV)
I can't believe she agreed to meet me here. I thought that after what I had done, she would never speak to me again. I am one step closer to getting her back. The only obstacle standing in my way is in the form of my bespectacled best friend. Well, all I can really do is become friends with her once again.
Here she comes; slowly descending the green grass of the grounds, rain cascading down in sheets. Her normally wavy hair drenched and her uniform soaked. As she came closer, I noticed a trace of a watery smile. "Hey Sirius," she said sweetly, wiping her wet locks out of her face.
"Hi."
"You wanted to talk?"
"Uhh, right! Okay, I wanted to explain my actions awhile ago. When we broke up, I was incredibly stupid. I let jealousy get the best of me rather than listen to you rationally, and I'm sorry about that. And about that outburst a couple of days ago; I was drunk. Like, fall on my arse, hangover for the next 3 days drunk. Once again, I was not rational and acted like it. I want you to know that I did not mean a single thing that I said that day. I also want you to know that I want to become friends again. Not talking to you is driving me crazy." After saying all this, I let out a much need sigh and wait with baited breath to hear what Lindsey had to say.
"Whoa, that is really a lot to take in. Well, I would love to be friends again. And I forgive you," she said grinning. I smiled largely and gave her a hug.
"Let's head on back. You are absolutely sopping. Wouldn't want you to catch anything," I suggested.
"Good idea!" she laughed. I had not heard her laugh in the longest time. I missed it.
As we were walking up the lawn, I decided to be bold and inquire her about her new relationship with Prongs. "I would have never thought that you and James would begin dating."
"Neither did I. I'm glad it happened though. I get to see James in a whole new light. He is very gentlemanly when he wants to be," she replied, looking down, apparently fascinated by the water on the individual blades of grass.
"Hmm, I'm sure. Isn't the rain just wonderful?" I asked, changing the subject.
She pivoted her head and smiled, "Indeed it is. The rain calms and soothes me, my absolute favorite weather of all time. Course' I have other reasons, but those are the two main ones." We reached the doors and I held it open for her. "Thanks."
We walked in and she instantly shivered. I wrapped my cloak around her and we walked to our next class, Transfiguration.
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(Lily's PoV)
I really wonder what's keeping Lindsey and Sirius. Who would have thought that they would be late for class?
"Okay class, today we will be transfiguring a desk into a cat. Now partner-"Professor McGonagall began. She was interrupted by Lindsey and Sirius barging in.
"Sorry Professor," they both muttered and Lindsey took a seat next to me.
"As I was saying, partner up!"
Lindsey and I agreed to be partners. About 10 minutes in, Lindsey turned to me. "Oh and by the way, I know you like James."
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Author's Note: Wow! I finished my next chapter. Hope you all like it. Please review!