FOREVER WITH YOU

The tears are falling

Staining my cheeks,

I think I'm falling…

What a relief.

All of my life, I tried so hard

Never to make anyone cry.

I wanted everyone to be happy and smile

A smile that would shinefor a million miles

I wanted to protect those in need,

So why couldn't I protect YOU

The only guy that I need.

So many mistakes

Have been made on booth sides

But the love that we had

was more than enough.

It made me fight

when I wanted to stop

To stand up to the ones

that wanted me down

I kept my head high

Not because I was vain

But because I was proud

Of the love that i had.

I wasn't happy before,

I know that now

Butthe closer you got

The happier I became

The feelings of joy

That we once had

Are now gone

Replaced

by sorrow and hate

The hate that I feel

Isonly for me.

How could I do that!!!

Not protect you from them?

I wish I could

Turn back time

So that I would get stabbed

And peacefully die

But what use is wishing

When they never come true

What's the use of living

If I can't be with you

The pain inside me

Is to much to take

It's so painful

It makes me think I will die

I want to finish this farce

That many have the gall

To call it a life

Reincarnation

Fuck it

Why would I go through this again

Life isn't wonderful

Neither charming nor fun

It's cold and it's brutal

And it hurts every day

Why would I want to come back again

To go through the same shit that I did today

To see you dieing

Before I cold say

I Love you Tsukasa

So won't you please stay

I love you so much

It scares me sometimes

But it's more frightening

When you're not around

Will I get the chance to tell you that ever againe?

Not likely,

Since I'm going to hell

God doesn't forgive those that take his gift away

But I did it

And sorry is something

That I can not say

I see my blood tainting the water

The way it flows

Right out of my body

It won't be long now

I know it for sure

I'm hearing the voices

Of those I left behind

They're yelling my name

It's such a nice sound

It's warming me up with the friendship I feel

And for a second I'm sad

Sad for they're tears

I wonder if they'll understand me or not

Will they blame me,

Or pray for my soul

Will they remember

Or chose to forget

I can't feel a thing

My whole body is numb

My vision is blurry

And I can't hear a sound

Is this death?

It's so peaceful and calm

Will I meet him

I hope that I do

At least for a second

So I can tell him

I love you to

There someone beside me,

His fingers are warm

They kind of remind me

Of this guy that I know.

He turns me around

And I jump at the sight

There he is

My beloved

The one that I want

He's eyes are warm and inviting

The way they've always been

And his smile enchanting

Like the autumn wind

He asks me the question

that everyone asked

why did I do it

why did I take my life?

The answer is simple

"because I love you

And you chose to die"

And so hand in hand

We walk towards a place

That might be heaven

Or it might jut be hell

Whatever it is

As long as his here

I will be happy

And my conscience clear

It won't falter

Or blame me at all

For one can not live

Without a heart or a soul