Title: As Such…
Author: CC
Dedication: To my Tiger, who I love as many things.
Rating: PG
Summary: Remus loved Lily, that much is true, but how did he love her?
Disclaimer: JKR and Warner Brothers own the stories this is a reaction to, not I.
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A/N: This was written after seeing POA and reading a couple of awful fics that made Remus more confused about his sexuality than a dog about the color of it's fur…
Dear Harry,
I have loved only two people in my life in a way that was more than friendship. I will love them both always. The first was Sirius, my lover, my soul mate, my equal in all things including darkness and torment. I loved him from the moment I discovered what love was until the moment that I take my last breath, when ever that may be. But my other love was just as unique, you see I loved Lily. Not as your father loved her, and certainly not the way I love Siri, but it was not merely that of a friend either. For me Lily was almost a guardian angel, and I loved her as such. When I felt as if even Sirius saw me as a dark creature she picked me up and showed me the best in myself. She supported me through all my darkest times. Save that one always with Sirius by my side as well, and yet in some ways it meant more coming from Lily. Not that Sirius' support didn't mean the world to me, but Sirius stood by me out of affection, Lily did so out of a belief that I was a truly good person. Sirius loved me darkness and all, Lily refused to see the darkness. I should think it would have done you a world of good to speak to your mother, if only once. I think I have found a way. I have enclosed the instructions, the spell will only work once for speaking to any given person, so please keep that in mind. I know it is little compensation for me abandoning you as well, but I refuse to live the life of a fugitive, and unlike your mother the law will make no exception for a werewolf who has killed, not even one who does so to save a child. Watch out for yourself.
- R. J. Lupin
P.S. Upon my death you shall inherit 12 Grimmauld Place, call it a last request from Sirius and myself that you do one of two things: Sell it or burn it to the ground. That house is a plague on life and love.