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Iris
"And I'd give up forever to touch you"
Flashback
His eyes were always so sad...like memories of ages alone with no one who cared...
"Cause I know that you'd feel me somehow"
She knew that she could reach him...I f only he would let her get near enough to him...
End Flashback
"You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be"
Flashback
As they lay together under the silken sheets she knew it was true...she had never known she could feel this way. Even what she had felt for Inuyasha was nothing compared to the love that filled her heart now.
"And I don't wanna go home right now"
She know she would have to go back to her own era for supplies soon, but she couldn't bear to leave him behind, not even for a moment.
End Flashback
"When all I can taste is this moment"
So many memories...to many...
"And all I can breathe is your life"
She couldn't escape them
"And sooner or later its over"
She would sleep she knew. The sleeping tablets she had been relying on so much lately would kick in soon and she could get away.
"I just don't wanna miss you tonight"
She didn't want to deal with the pain till then. That was why she did it.
"And I don't want the world to see me"
She had learned soon after she started to hide the scars. People noticed...
"Cause I don't think that they'd understand"
...and they asked questions. She made excuses because she knew how the "goths" were taunted and made fun of. She had done it herself until...
"When everything's made to broken"
She found the release it provided. When she cut nothing else seemed to exist or matter.
"I just want you to know who I am"
Sesshoumaru didn't know. She had always made sure that her scars looked like they could be the product of an accident. She couldn't bear lying to him about it, but she had had to. What if he had thought her weak and unworthy to be his mate? What if he had pushed her away? But he had ended up doing so anyway...
"And you cant fight the tears that ain't coming"
She felt the tears rise in her throat, but none came to her eyes. She had no tears left. Her eyes had dried up.
"Or the moment of truth in your lies"
That's all she had done since he had taken her through the well. Cried and slept. The moments in between she was stuck with her own thoughts. She tried to pretend that she didn't care. That she didn't love him.
"When everything feels like the movies"
It never felt real. It was like a tragic play where she was the main character who had been forsaken everything she had ever loved.
"Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive"
Those were the times when she cut. It made her feel human again
"And I don't want the world to see me"
What would he think if he could see her now, razor in hand and bare flesh before her.
"Cause I don't think that they'd understand"
She meant to go for her leg, but now she made a close inspection of the skin at her wrist. She knew it would take only one clean slice down each vein to be free of her pain.
"When everything's made to be broken"
She looked at his picture lying next to her on the bed. She grabbed it.
"I just want you to know who I am"
She looked at it closely as though waiting for him to come out of it and save her.
"I just want you to know who I am"
She kissed it gently. "I'll always love you," she whispered.
"I just want you to know who I am"
She felt the razor bite down once into each wrist. A single tear slid down her cheek as everything went dark.