A/N I wrote this while listening to "Walkaway" by Thomas Newman (It's on the Meet Joe Black St). Anyway, if you can, listen to it while reading this. Thank you :o)
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You thought I loved him,
You found you were wrong,
Are you gonna repent?
Are you gonna hear my song?
I'm pleading with you,
To realise that you were the only one,
Will you stay my dear?
Is your time here done?
I'm pleading with you,
To realise that you were the only one,
Will you stay my dear?
Is your time here done?
Will you stay or will you go?
Please stay…
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Sugar quills.
I did not just say that.
Tonks was staring at Charlie who looked as though he didn't know whether to jump up and down or scold Tonks for lying to him.
"You and Remus broke up?"
Tonks nodded slowly wishing that the drumming in her chest would subside long enough for her to catch her breath properly.
"Yes."
"I don't believe you." Charlie had gone white save for the pink patches on his cheeks and Tonks could see his chest moving up and down more quickly. She searched him quickly with her eyes to see that his hand had now healed and something in the way he no longer squinting told her that he was now sober again. Smiling slightly she surveyed his appearance once more. His hair was ruffled even more so and the few pale freckles on his cheeks emphasised the sunburnt cheeks.
Merlin, he's handsome.
Sugar quills remember. Think of sugar quills and then you won't lose your focus.
"Well, I'm telling the truth."
It was times like these that Tonks wished that her cheeks weren't shining with tears and that her eyes weren't red and puffy. Charlie stood quite still for a moment before moving towards Tonks slowly. "You chose me?"
Tonks laughed quietly and stepped forward also, her body tingling in sheer anticipation. "You."
Charlie grinned. "You could've told me this before I went off on one."
"But I love it so much when you go all pink and ruffled."
Charlie strode over quickly, a huge grin spreading across his face but he didn't get far as, once again, some boxes intercepted him and he went flying to the floor spread eagled and looking very sorry for himself. Tonks stifled a giggle and ran to help him up, stumbling on her dressing gown slightly.
"Ever elegant, us Weasleys."
"It's nice to meet someone who's clumsy then me."
Charlie once again grinned and stood up awkwardly, grabbing onto Tonks arm. "Clumsier than you? I think that would be a gift."
"Shut up." Tonks suddenly realised how close she was to Charlie. He was looking at her almost hungrily and the flood of tingling returned making her throat dry, her head swimming.
"So you're not with Remus anymore?"
"No."
"And you 'chose' me"
"Yeah."
"Ah…"
"Hmm…" Tonks beamed as Charlie wrapped his arms around her and cuddled her, his grip tight and loving.
"That's good." Charlie laughed and placed a kiss on the tip of Tonks' nose making her breath catch in her throat. The gesture was so unexpected and yet his touch made her feel the most natural feeling she had ever felt. She prayed silently that she would never have to be away from him…
In a second, Tonks suddenly realised Charlie was leaving tomorrow. Moaning softly, Tonks pushed Charlie away and sat on the edge of her bed.
"What's wrong?"
"We can't do anything."
"But you said--"
"Charlie, you're leaving tomorrow. I can't live knowing that my boyfriend is off fighting in Romania and you-know-who may kill him." She looked down sadly at the floor and felt the bed next to her dip as Charlie sat beside her. A muscular arm crept around her back and without thinking, Tonks rested her head on Charlie's shoulder, surprised at how natural it felt.
Tonks couldn't help but wonder what else would feel natural with Charlie
SUGAR QUILLS. SUGAR QUILLS.
Charlie shook his head and sighed. "I could try and…I don't know. Dumbledore needs me out there. There are so many more people that would be useful to gain as allies. Then again, there are people out there. Some of my friends are on our side. They could carry on while I find a job over here." Tonks smiled sadly, realising that unless Dumbledore agreed, Charlie would have to leave her. "I never want to leave you."
Tonks watched as Charlie turned her around and sat cross legged on the bed, looking out of the magnificent window. Tucking her legs at an angle behind her, Tonks leaning into Charlie once more, desperate to feel his warmth through the thin vest. She gazed out at the rolling hillside, praying that there was away her and Charlie could be together. Everyone else could have a happy relationship. Why couldn't they?
"You looked so beautiful tonight."
Tonks turned to face Charlie and swallowed, realising that he would never waste his words by saying something that he didn't mean. Nuzzling into him Tonks brought her legs up and wrapped her arms around his waist, not caring about how she would be received anymore. Charlie responded by hugging her with both arms tightly and resting his chin on her head.
"I'd say the same but you always do."
Charlie laughed and pulled her in tighter. Tonks smiled. "This is me."
"Pardon?"
"This is what I look like; my natural form."
Charlie looked at her and smiled sadly. "Then you're even more magnificent then I believed."
A spear of desire shot through Tonks making her long for a greater intimacy, but Remus had been her first and she was scared at going further with Charlie, especially if she would never see him again. Charlie seemed to sense this however as, moments later, he released her from his grip and stood up.
"You're too magnificent to hurt Nymph. I love you." Charlie strode quickly out of the room without hitting objects and slammed the door loudly.
Did he just say…?
Tonks could hear muffled footsteps running quickly down the stairs away from her room and she knew that Charlie wanted to make love to her as much as she did to him.
What would happen if he left tomorrow without seeing her ever again? Would he care? Would she?
'Of course I would,' Tonks thought as she swallowed, visions of Charlie lying dead somewhere filling her consciousness. Could she live without him knowing that he loved her? Probably, with a lot of determination and ignorance. But could she live without him knowing that they had never so much as kissed and that even if he did survive, there was a possibility that she would never no how much he loved her? He may have someone in Romania and he, or even she, may die.
Tonks flinched, willing herself to not think of such thoughts. Of course he loved her. She could see it burning in him every time their eyes met.
Merlin. She loved him so much.
Thinking clearly for the first time all night Tonks ran to the door and went to open it when Charlie apparated behind her looking ruffled and distraught.
"Char--" Tonks' words were lost in a fierce kiss given by Charlie who wrapped his arms around her and ran his hands over her back, pulling her closer.
"If you'll let me… I can't leave without knowing… that for one second we were each others…"
In an instant, Tonks found herself without any control and she kissed the red head back passionately, desire burning in her. His lips were fleshy and soft, wet where he had been licking them so often. She could taste the saltiness of his skin, the sweat and after shave filling her senses.
Her own desire was killing her.
Each brush of his tongue against her lip sent tiny burning sparks through her to her centre and she craved each sensation as he slowly laid her on the bed and straddled her, his kisses becoming more frequent, more desperate.
Charlie's hands moved from the small of her back to her shoulder blades and then to her hair where he undid the clasp holding her hair up. The silky curls rolled over her shoulders and Charlie moaned, the echo reverberating with Tonks. She answered him back with a call of her own and he plunged his tongue into her mouth desperately, shaking and quivering with his desire. He was holding her tightly, so tightly that Tonks had to suck in more oxygen than needed to ensure that she had enough. Charlie's scent clouded around her, wrapping her in his presence, drowning her with his strong soul.
She loved it…
She craved it…
It was vital she had it…
"Charlie…" Her voice was lost as he moved his hands lower again to the clasp holding her corset on. He unclipped it and Tonks shifted out of it, throwing it almost elegantly onto the floor. She brought her eyes up to look at Charlie and blushed at his face, her lips unable to keep from forming a grin. Charlie was looking at her as if he had never seen a woman before. His eyes were cobalt, his hair rich claret as the sweat dampened it. His touch became softer and as he bowed his head forwards to kiss her chastely, she heard his voice whisper.
"You're so beautiful. I don't deserve this."
"Oh Char, of course you do. You deserve the very best."
"I have it…" Charlie growled as Tonks reached up and kissed him fiercely. She needed to get closer to him; she wanted to feel the connection only two lovers can share. Moving carefully, Tonks brought her hips up to meet Charlie and he moaned out loudly making the desire course through Tonks in waves. As their kisses of untold emotion increased, Tonks could tell Charlie was trying to hold back, but every now and then he would involuntarily press his hips down onto hers, each time causing a growl to erupt from each of them.
Charlie had not even become undressed yet but Tonks assured herself that her previous wonderings had been answered. This did indeed feel very natural with Charlie. More than natural. It felt as though their very body and souls were made to entwine with each other. It was a humbling sensation and caused a feeling of hope.
They were meant to be.
Tonks gasped as Charlie place his mouth on her pulse point at the base of her neck and sucked lightly. His tongue darted out making sparks of fire shoot to her centre and Tonks purred in the back of her throat. Charlie obviously found pleasure in the reaction as the hardness against her thigh increased noticeably. Tonks reach for his hand and brought it up to her lips where she kissed the velvet pads, of his finger tips, gently.
"Goodness, I love you."
Charlie chuckled and kissed her own fingers that were still held onto his own. "Great minds think alike."
Tonks giggled and moved her hands to the hem of Charlie's vest where she pulled it up his body. Charlie lifted his arms and took the clothing off before coming close to Tonks again and watching her with loving eyes.
"You're so…" He brushed a stray curl from her face and Tonks smirked.
"Untidy? Are you suggesting I tie my hair back?" Charlie laughed and kissed her on the nose.
"Definitely not. I was thinking more along the lines of… beautiful…" He ran his hands through her hair, kissing her gently on the lips; his kisses spreading further down, along her jaw line and then down her neck to her breasts. Tonks inhaled a sharp breath as Charlie captured her nipple in his mouth and sucked lightly. A small nip now and again made Tonks buck and she reached down to his crotch where she rested her hand on the cold metal zipper and pulled it down. She smiled, a little jolt of nervousness and excitement flowing through her, as Charlie groaned loudly, the relief obvious.
"For crying out loud Tonks--" he gasped in-between kissing her. "-- no one… ever… I've never felt… ever…"
"I know Char… I know." Tonks could feel her heart beating painfully against her chest. Did he realise how much she loved him?
Did she?
"Are you sure about this?" Charlie was gazing at her with cobalt eyes, concern apparent among the lust and love. Tonks nodded without thinking. Desire was pulsating at her centre leaving a stabbing pain that her instincts told her only Charlie could ease.
"Please, Charlie. I want you."
An adoring grin spread across Charlie's face and in a second, Tonks knew that she was lost…
…No. She was found.
Sorry to leave it there but I really wanted Charlie to have the next bit ;) Please forgive me grin And don't forget to review!!!