As if the last chapter wasn't, this is definately R/NC-17 so if you don't want to read it look away now. I hate this chapter. i'm so bad at writing stuff like this. Ah well. Reviews welcome:D
And now I'm breathing deeply,
Walking backwards,
Finding strength to call and ask her.
Roller coaster, favorite ride,
Let me kiss you one last time.
Make me promise that I will never tell,
All I remember is the way her bedroom smelled.
I had that dream about you again,
Where I wait outside until you let me in.
And now I'm breathing deeply,
Walking backwards,
Finding strength to call and ask her.
Roller coaster, favorite ride,
Let me kiss you one last time.
Goodnight…
Goodnight.
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Charlie lay over Tonks, agony and glorious pleasure rippling through him. He vaguely wondered when his trousers and socks had been pulled off. His mind hazy, he clumsily kissed Tonks' cheek, moving the demonstration of love to her ear where her nibbled softly on her earlobe. The only thing he could truly grasp at that second in time was the declaration of love that Tonks had offered to him. He also vaguely noticed that Tonks was as aroused as him, her moans frequent and urgent. One question stood out above all however…
How could such a beautiful and enchanting creature choose him?
"Charlie--" Tonks moaned as Charlie swirled his tongue around the delicate curves of her collarbone. Charlie suddenly let out a strangled whisper as Tonks wrapped her legs around his waist and pressed roughly against him.
"Please… I need you." Her voice was almost pleading and Charlie reached for her knickers before roughly pulling them down. To say she was magnificent would have been the biggest understatement that he had made in his life. Charlie sucked in the air, his erection several time more painful then even seconds ago.
"Are you sure? We don't--" his voice trailed off as he saw that her knickers were damp from her need and the flush that was creeping slowly over her body told him everything he wanted to know. Kissing Tonks softly on the lips, he slipped one hand behind her and rested it on the small of her back, the other hand moving towards her heat. "Love you…"
Charlie roughly inserted a finger and swirled it over her sensitive point. Charlie nearly lost all his resolve as Tonks screamed out in ecstasy and moved involuntarily against him. Watching her face to see which of his actions affected her most, Charlie smiled as she looked up into his eyes with mirth.
"Are you a professional at this or something?" Charlie couldn't help but laugh at her laboured breathing knowing that it was he that was causing it.
"Only when I choose to be."
"How often's that?"
"Only when I'm with the love of my life."
"And she is…"
"I don't know whether she'd allow me to tell. You see, I've only made love to her once… or well, I'm trying to. She keeps on talking."
Tonks and Charlie laughed together but her laugher was cut short as Charlie moved over a particular sensitive bit and she screamed out his name.
"Merlin, Charlie…"
She shuddered almost agonizingly and he shut his eyes, trying to control himself as she tightened on his and called his name over and over again. In a second he made up his mind and withdrew his fingers, pulling down his boxer shorts and pushing his length into her to the hilt. He had dreamt so often of her calling his name as he made her climax and now that it was happening he couldn't have been happier. The sense of his own relief still wasn't great enough to cloak the pleasure he had at hearing Tonks' mysterious utterances from being connected to him. Their very souls seemed to be joined and Charlie called out his own release as seconds later Tonks pushed her hips up in rhythm with his thrusts.
"Charlie… oh… Merlin… Charlie… please… oh…"
Charlie felt another climax wash over her causing her to milk the last essence he had for her. Unable to control the shout within him Charlie called out Tonks' name over and over again until at last the shocks and trembles subsided. He watched as she laid her head back on the pillow, her soft curls of brown hair tumbling over her pink cheeks. Her eyes, still misty with lust, resembled glinting coffee coloured pools and he kissed her lightly, repeating his action until both their heart rates calmed down.
She heaved a sigh of contentment and reached up to kiss him. He felt her smile against his lips and, energy drained from him, Charlie rolled off her and settled beside her wrapped his long, quidditch muscled arms around her. The rapture of his climax had fogged his brain and as he drifted into sleep, only a faint memory of why his soul felt so sad was apparent. For now it was too much effort to worry. From somewhere in the mist he could hear a small voice crying.
"Tonks? Is that you? What's the matter?"
"Nothing Char… I love you."
The young man was now close to sleep and as he fell into the land of idealism, he whispered,
"Love you too sweetheart."
Incapable of staying awake, Charlie drifted off, unaware of the small creature weeping in his arms.
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Oh Merlin. What was he going to do?
Charlie blinked his eyes open, the sunlight filtering through the window, catching the dust of the old attic. He looked beside him where his new lover lay beside him. He was anything but happy. The early morning moon was making her cream skin glow azure, her long legs entwined with his as she slept. The blankets were tossed of the bed in an unruly pile, topped by Tonks' and his clothes. He brushed a stray curl from her face feeling his heart constrict. He shouldn't have let this happen.
Some use chocolate frogs were.
Charlie sighed as her smoothed Tonks' hair that was fanned out behind her. He loved her so much and realizing that made him become conscious of the fact that he had never loved anyone before Tonks.
"Damn." Charlie let the word slip from his mouth before he could think and he moved his gaze quickly from the silhouette landscape outside to the sleeping form next to him. Tonks hadn't moved and he rested his back on the slanted ceiling again, thinking over what he should do.
Should he leave? It would be obeying Dumbledore and possibly mean saving a few lives for the orders cause. Should he stay? That would mean that he could remain with Tonks and could possibly do things close at home to help the order. The question was which needed him more.
His mind or his heart.
Rolling over slightly, Charlie bit back the tears that were burning his eyes and throat, and reached for his clothes. There was nothing that he could do. He had to leave the angel sleeping next to him. It would cost to much not to, even if it meant that he had to break his heart. He saw Tonks fidget slightly before he untangled himself from her but seconds later she appeared to have fallen back into deep slumber for which he was grateful. If he said goodbye it would make everything so much harder to bear. He rapidly pulled on his clothes and shoes which were under a particularly arousing part of Tonks' underwear before turning and standing to look at Tonks sleep.
The pain worsened somewhat as he watched her body rise and fall with her breathing. It was a much darker morning than usual, having entered December a week previous. Feeling his head pound with grief Charlie shook his head and went over to Tonks where he left a small kiss on her head. He went to stride quickly out of the room when a small voice called out.
"You promised you'd tell me when you leave."
Charlie walked over to Tonks and grabbed her roughly making her turn around. He crushed his lips against hers in a desperate attempt to feel some kind of happiness in the storm of despair crashing around him. He felt helpless, a feeling that he was so unused to. Holding her tight, he rested his head on her shoulder, his eyes shut tight as she smoothed his hair.
"You decided to leave."
The hurt in her voice caused more prickling in his eyes and he blinked before shutting his eyes once more, still holding Tonks to his chest. He didn't even notice that she was naked, her soft breasts crushed against him.
"I had to--"
"I understand."
"You do?"
"I do."
Charlie sighed, unwilling to let go of her. It was easier talking like this. This way he couldn't see her tears that he knew were there, for they were in his own eyes.
"Just promise me one thing."
"Anything," Charlie replied quickly.
"Don't tell anyone about last night. Please."
Charlie swallowed, almost angry at her request. Didn't she want people to know how she felt?
"Why?" Charlie heard the sob and felt her body rocking on his with unshed tears.
"I couldn't bear to hear your name with mine knowing that we may never be together--"
She couldn't continue for her tears and Charlie held her, if possible, even more tightly than before.
"Don't you dare say that," he whispered harshly planting kisses on her shoulder. "We'll be together soon and it will be forever. I'll never leave you again. I just have to go now."
"How long Charlie?"
Charlie paused, realization suddenly hitting him. He could be away for months, even years. Shuddering, Charlie shook his head slightly.
"I…I don't know." He felt Tonks nodding and she slowly pushed him away. "Let me kiss you, one last time?"
Tonks nodded. "Charlie Weasley. I love you but please, try and forget us. I don't think I could bear knowing you loved me and I couldn't touch you."
"You don't have to wait for me--" Charlie said slowly. "I don't mind if you fall in love with someone else."
"Charlie," Tonks said dangerously. "I'll never stop loving you."
Charlie smiled. "Nor I you."
Tonks grinned weakly and brought her mouth to Charlie's, her kisses soft and chaste. They soon became rough and passionate and Charlie felt a shot of desire spear him each time her tongue brushed his lips. Pulling away he beamed at her and embraced her tightly.
"See you soon, yeah?" he kissed a stray tear away from Tonks' cheek and she smiled weakly before letting him go.
"You come home to me Weasley. Or else."
Charlie laughed, tears trickling down his cheek.
"Will do Nymph. Will do."
As he exited the room Charlie couldn't help but picture the naked beauty that he had just left, praying that it would not be the last slight of her.
And he wept.
Nearly the end I hate to say!!! One more Chapter to go!! Thanks for the comments! Every one has been fab and I have enjoyed writing this so much. There may be a sequel but I don't know when. It's all in my noggin though. Love you all.
Rb
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