For Me This Is Heaven

Chapter 15

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JJ

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James and Sirius were sitting in DADA the next day.

"So I take it, things are over between you and Susie?" James asked. Sirius just shrugged. He wasn't going to sulk. She was the one who had been acting weird and he was convinced that he was right. If she couldn't accept it, then maybe they weren't as meant for each other as he thought they were. Susie walked in with Ana, who was talking quietly to her. She refused to even look at Sirius.

After class, Sirius caught up with Susie.

"What is it?" she asked, not even looking at him. She was looking at a piece of parchment.

"Well I want to know what exactly is going on between us."

"Nothing, absolutely nothing," she said.

"So does this mean we're over? Over a stupid fight?"

"If you'd just stop jumping to conclusions, maybe.."

"Well if you'd just talk to me! You never want to talk, I'm always here for you, always here to listen and you push me away."

"Look Sirius, I don't want to break up, but I think we just need to take a break right now. I just need space with everything."

Sirius looked at her. "Okay," he said finally. "I think I need a break too."

Remus found Susie sitting in the library, reading a book for Defense Against the Dark Arts.

"Hey," she looked up when he sat down.

"Hey back," she said with a smile. They had been sitting there quietly when Susie put her book down.

"Remus?" He looked up from what he was reading.

"Yes Susie?"

"Do you ever wonder what would've happened if we had decided to tell everyone? I mean I probably would've been dating you and Sirius would've stayed the same; same old 'flavor of the week' Sirius Black," she commented. Remus gulped nervously. He looked around. Everyone in the area that they were in had left, leaving them alone.

"Um, sometimes, I guess," he said nervously.

"Well considering that Sirius and I are on break right now, I guess you could say that we're exploring each other's options. I mean, with me getting sexually harassed and everything-," She clapped her hand over her mouth. She had no idea what had come over her but she had just blurted out what she had vowed she would never tell anyone.

"Sexually harassed?!?!?! BY WHO???" Remus shouted. Susie pulled him back down. Remus had jumped up angrily.

"Remus, um, I didn't mean that, I just meant that, I mean, well,"

"Susie, who is it?" She cowered at the dangerous expression in his eye. For some reason, she had to not tell Remus, she had to keep Rabastan and Rainzzi together, forever. If Rainzzi found out what Rabastan did to her, she would break up with him.

"It's no one."

"Don't even think about lying to me." He grabbed her by the shoulders and violently shook her.

"Tell me who the hell it is!" he yelled in her face. She turned her face away, it was a full moon in 2 days, this was why he was acting like this. He didn't want to intentionally hurt her.

"Remus you're hurting me," she whimpered. Suddenly, Remus let go of Susie, pushing her back away from him. His heart was racing and his breathing was unlabored as he looked at Susie, who was also breathing hard. Then, on a moment of impulse, Remus leaned forward, gathering Susie in his arms and kissed her. It wasn't a soft, gentle kiss, but a rough and passionate kiss.

Susie was surprised at first, but she didn't pull away, she just let him kiss her. And then, she began to kiss him back. When his tongue slid against her lips, she opened her mouth to him momentarily before pulling back quickly, coming to her senses.

"Remus, what was that exactly?" she asked him. He didn't know what to say because, frankly, he had no idea what that was himself. All he knew was that one minute he had been starting at her and the next moment she was in his arms, his lips smashed against hers. And she had kissed him back!

"Susie, I don't really know, I-,"

"Remus, I'm still with Sirius. We're just on break."

"I know," he said, frustrated, running a hand through his hair.

"Rems, we can't tell him. No, just, he will not take that well at all."

"Yeah I know. Susie, I'm sorry." She held up her hand.

"No need to apologize. I'm at fault as much as you are. I kissed you back. The truth is, I needed that. You had no idea how much I wanted to be held again." Remus awkwardly put an arm around her waist. She stiffened up momentarily, but relaxed in his grip.

At quidditch practice, it was awkward for Susie and Sirius. The two were still not really talking to each other. No one knew about the incident in the library except for Susie and Remus.

"Susie, get on the ball," James yelled at her as the quaffle went whizzing past. Susie snapped out of a daze and went racing for the ball. Frank Longbottom had been going for the ball also and they both collided, knocking them both off their brooms and on the floor.

Everyone flew over, examining the two. Susie sat up, rubbing her head. Mattie helped her up.

"Are you okay?" she asked, examining her.

"I'm fine." She looked over at Frank, who was sitting on the floor, looking slightly dazed. She hurried over and bent down to look at Frank.

"Frank, can you hear me?" she asked. She looked worried. Sirius was standing next to Mattie, without saying a word. He felt a pang of jealousy as he saw Susie cup his head in her hand and stroke his forehead. She had been looking for bumps, but Sirius didn't know that.

He stalked off, not even wanting to watch this anymore. Whenever he saw Susie chatting it up and laughing with some guy, he felt extremely jealous. Susie and the rest of the team gawked at him as he stalked off the pitch. Susie snapped out of her gawking phase and rolled her eyes.

"He's such a drama queen," she said.

"Yeah, but he's your boyfriend," Frank commented.

"Correction, we're on break right now." Frank shrugged and rubbed his head.

"I think I'm okay Sus, thanks for nursing me back to health," he said with a grin. She smiled and pulled him up.

"Well I guess practice is over for now," James announced. "But because of Sirius' little episode, we'll be back here tomorrow for a 2 hour practice." The team groaned.

"Ugh stupid Sirius," Susie complained as her, Mattie and James walked back to the common room.

"James, did you really have to give us a 2 hour practice?" Mattie asked.

"I have to keep you slackers in line somehow," he said grinning. "Plus Sirius had no right to storm off like that."

"Why the hell did he do that?" Mattie asked, frowning.

"Oh I know this one," Susie said dryly, "cause I was checking if Frank was okay and I was touching him and I guess Sirius got jealous or something cause I don't get intimate with him anymore."

"Yeah I noticed that," James commented. "Why though? He's been really miserable cause you refuse to talk to him."

Susie shrugged. "I just feel like we're always together. There's things going on that I need to work out myself and Sirius is always there. I just need space," she said.

"Amazing, someone needing space from the Sirius Black," James commented.

Mattie frowned. "James you know Sirius is nothing like his old self anymore. Ever since he started dating Susie, he's not the Casanova of last year."

Susie shrugged.

"Yeah I definitely know he's different," James told her, "But why do you need space? I thought you two loved each other?"

"I do love him a lot, that's why I didn't want to break up with him, but I'm finding that I just need to get away from him for a little bit, you know?" She sighed, she knew she had to tell someone about the library thing.

"I was in the library with Remus yesterday," she began slowly. James looked up from counting the pebbles on the walkway.

"Yeah so?"

"Hey I noticed you and Remus are pretty cozy, is there anything going on between you two?" Mattie asked.

"Well you see, the thing is, oh damn it, well we snogged, me and Remus." James' jaw nearly dropped to the ground.

"You WHAT?"

"We snogged, do you want me to spell it for you?" Susie snapped, glaring at James.

"So what's going on between you and Remus?" Mattie prompted.

"Nothing, after we snogged, I told him that me and Sirius are still together. But I cannot tell him, he would not take that well, considering Remus is his best friend."

"Yeah but Moony is your best friend," James pointed out after he had calmed down from his earlier outburst.

"Yeah he is, but-just yeah. Can you guys not mention this to Sirius?"

"Hey my lips are sealed," Mattie told her.

"I won't say anything," James promised.

A week later, things still weren't patched up between Susie and Sirius. Sirius and Remus were in the common room, Sirius was lying face down on the couch. Remus was on a chair next to him, reading.

"Argh, I hate this," Sirius complained.

"Hate what?"

"Me and Susie on break. I can't do anything with her and now guys think that's their cue to flirt shamelessly with her in front of me!" Remus didn't say anything, only let Sirius continue.

"And it's killing me, it really is. I mean, next thing I know, I'm gonna find out that she goes and snogs guys in broom closets." Remus gulped nervously and put his book down.

"I think you're overreacting here Sirius, just a little."

"Overreacting?? What if your girlfriend flirts with other guys while you two are on break??"

"Sirius, get a hold of yourself! Susie is not flirting with them, they're flirting with her. Technically, when you're on break, you're allowed to date around, you know?"

Sirius glared at Remus. "I'm trying to forget that fact. Do you really think she'd date anyone else while we're on break?" Remus didn't really want to admit to Sirius that while they were on break, Susie and Remus' little 'study sessions' turned into 'snog sessions'. So far, they hadn't told anyone, unless Susie told anyone. He didn't know if it was okay or not, and really he didn't care. Of course, he knew that Sirius would probably eternally never speak with him again if he found out, but he wouldn't find out, would he?

Sirius found Susie sitting in the library, doing an essay on a piece of parchment. She was furiously scribbling and didn't even notice him till he sat down and cleared his throat.

"Oh Sirius," she said when she looked up, obviously surprised at his sudden appearance. "I thought you were Remus," she said quietly. Sirius slammed his fist down on the table, shaking it violently.

"Damn it Susie, it's all about Remus isn't it?? What about me? Your boyfriend!"

"Sirius, would you calm down? First of all, I thought you were Remus because we study together everyday. Second of all, we're on break."

Sirius refused to let his guard down. "Yeah, but we're still dating! What gives you the right to come in here and do god knows what with my best friend?"

"Sirius Black, you're out of your mind! We study! That's all!" Susie was surprised at how fast that lie came flying out of her mouth. She gathered up her things, sweeping her stuff into her book bag and left Sirius behind.

Remus came a couple of minutes later and sat down in Susie's old seat. Sirius looked like a mixture of sadness and anger. His facial expressions were absolutely unreadable to the average eye, unless you knew him well enough.

"What's wrong?" Remus asked. Sirius shook his head.

"It's nothing, I'm fine."

"Stop pretending, I know you too well. You talked to Susie?"

"Yeah, I did," Sirius said slowly.

"So what happened?"

"Well I kind of got angry at her."

"About?"

"I'd really rather not talk about it." Sirius shifted in his seat and looked down at his shoes. Standing up, he looked at an imaginary watch on his wrist.

"Well I've really got to go, running out of time," he called as he exited out the library. When he reached the common room, he immediately turned to go as he stepped through the portrait hole. Susie was sitting there, blinking at him.

"No wait, come back," she said quietly. Sirius gave in and came back in, sitting down next to her, but slightly distanced from her.

"I just wanna talk," she said. He looked at her.

"How are you feeling?" he asked her.

"Look at the pendant," she said, pulling hers out from around her neck, hidden by her robes. It was glowing a royal blue. He pulled his out from the folds of his robes, it was glowing the same hue of royal blue.

"Susie, I miss you a lot. These last couple of weeks or so have been torture for me."

"Why?" she asked, rather surprised. She thought Sirius had been so angry with her that he had felt that he was better off without her.

"Why?" he asked incredulously, "What a question Susie. How could you not think that it's been horrible for me? What about you? I mean, have you missed me?"

"Of course I've missed you!" She didn't really want to admit that she cried every night, wishing that they weren't on break.

"I want to work things out," he said. She nodded and he scooted closer to her, putting an arm around her shoulders.

"Does this mean we're back together?" she asked.

"Do you want to?"

"I do, a lot."

A few hours later, Susie woke up. She had fallen asleep on the couch, with Sirius on her lap. Gently shaking him, she woke him up.

"Sirius, you have to get up to bed," she said smiling. He stood up sleepily, pulling Susie up with him.

"C'mon let's go back to my dorm," he said sleepily, pulling her up the stairs.

"Sirius! You have to get to bed," but she let him pull her into his room, shutting the door behind her. She could see Remus' sleeping figure and the bed next to him was occupied by James, who was hanging off his bed, murmuring something in his sleep. She giggled when she heard him mutter something about Lily.

Sirius managed to pull her onto his bed, closing the curtains around them. He was wide awake now, his gray eyes blazing with want. Pulling out his wand, he put a silencing charm around them and lay Susie down on his bed, kissing her.

Later that morning, Remus woke up. Yawning, he stood up. James was still asleep, his arms and legs hanging off the bed. Sirius' curtains were drawn around his bed and as Remus got closer, he noticed piles of clothing around the bed. He hadn't heard anything all night. When he opened up the curtains cautiously, what he saw made his heart stop. Sirius and Susie were in the bed, both naked with the sheet pulled up around them, fast asleep. He blinked, thinking that it was an illusion, a bad dream. It wasn't.

It was bound to happen, Remus knew that. But he thought he'd get to keep Susie for a little bit longer then 2 weeks. Remus pulled his clothes on, feeling numb as he left his dorm, meaning to go for a walk. As he walked around the castle grounds, he thought about everything that had happened in his life. He and Susie were over permanently. He'd just try to forget about her. With Vicky, he still did love her, he just didn't know if anything would ever happen between them.

He had been so lost in his own little thought bubble that he hadn't noticed that he was about to collide with another girl walking around. He bumped into her, causing her to fall over and for him to stumble back.

"Oh I'm sorry," he exclaimed, rushing over to help the girl up. He looked at her.

"Elisa Glassman right?" he asked. She nodded, pushing her light brown hair out of her face, which revealed a pair of aquamarine blue eyes. He blinked, realizing that he was still staring at her. He hadn't been so taken with a girl's beauty since Susie at the beginning of the year.

"Sorry about being in your way," she said, about to leave.

"No wait!" he said. Then not wanting to sound desperate, he asked "Would you like to take a walk with me?" She shrugged.

"Sure." They started to walk together down the pathway around the lake.

"So what were you thinking about when you crashed into me?" she asked.

"Oh just stuff going on in my life, complicated stuff," he said. After a few minutes of silence, she cleared her throat.

"Remus, I want to tell you something." He looked down at her. "I just want to let you know that I've liked you for a long time." She turned pink as she looked down at the ground.

"Elisa, there's no need to be embarrassed," Remus said with a chuckle. "I'm quite flattered to have such a pretty girl like me." She blushed again.

"You really think I'm pretty?" she asked. Remus took her hand and tucked it into the crook of his arm.

"Of course I do, I think you're beautiful. Would you like to go to Hogsmeade with me next weekend?" Elisa nodded.

"I'd love to," she said with a smile. They walked back into the castle, walking towards the Gryffindor common room. Remus was surprised how easy it was for him to get over what had happened this morning.

Back in the common room, Susie was sitting on Sirius' lap, reading a book for class.

"Why do you always study?" he complained, shifting a little bit.

"Cause I want to get good grades. Not everybody's like you and James, Sirius. People actually have to study," she said, smiling. She was still reading when the portrait swung open, revealing Remus accompanied by Elisa Glassman.

"Hi Elisa," Susie said, giving her a small wave.

"Hey Susie." Remus looked over at Susie.

"Hey Sus," he said, nodding at Sirius. "Hey Sirius."

"Hey Moony, so what's up with you?" he asked, waggling his eyebrows at Elisa and then looking back at Remus. Susie laughed cause Sirius was making it so obvious, it was funny. Leaning back, she pushed Sirius further back onto the couch so she could rest for a second. Sirius was talking, his breath tickling her neck. She still hadn't talked to Remus about ending things, but she figured he had found someone else by now, looking at the way Remus would occasionally glance at Elisa. She still had to talk to him though.

Later that day, Susie found Remus in the library, talking to his ex girlfriend Nicky. She looked up when she saw Susie. Getting up, she put a hand on his shoulder and left.

"How come you're not with Sirius?" Remus asked.

"How come you're not with Elisa?" Susie fired back.

"I asked the question first."

"I told him I'd be back in a bit. And you?"

"I wanted to talk to Nicky." Susie sat down next to Remus.

"I take it things are over between us?" Susie asked. Remus nodded.

"Yeah, you were the one who got back with Sirius first."

"Remus, it just kind of happened. I missed him," she stated. "I was gonna talk to you-,"

"Yeah well I kind of saw you in Sirius' bed," he said. Susie winced at the harshness of his words.

"Look Remus, don't turn this on me. You knew it as well as I did that I was cheating on him!"

"Yeah I did. I'm sorry," he said regretfully.

"Me too," she said quietly. She held out her hand.

"Friends?" she asked hopefully. He pulled her into a hug.

"Of course, you're my best friend."

"Still?" she asked smiling. Remus nodded.

"Still."

Sirius was going to the library to find Susie when he heard someone calling him from behind. It was Ana.

"Ana, hey, how was your holidays?" She smiled.

"They were great, skiing was fun."

"That's great."

"So I take it that you and Susie are back together after your break?"

"How did you know?" he asked.

"Well since you and your friends are so popular, it's not hard for anyone to find out anything about your relationships." Sirius shrugged. They continued talking till Susie found them talking.

"Hi Ana," she said as she approached. Ana smiled at her.

"Hey Susie, how was California?"

"Great," she said with a smile. Sirius leaned down and took her hand, lacing her fingers with his. After a few more minutes of talking, Ana bid them good bye, heading towards the library. Sirius and Susie walked back to the common room, hand in hand.

Next weekend came up fast, with a Hogsmeade trip attached to it. Remus and Elisa were walking down the street together when they were intercepted by James and Sirius, followed closely by Susie.

"Moony! Hey mate," James clapped Remus on the shoulder, scaring both Remus and Elisa. Sirius put his hand on the other shoulder.

"How's your date going? I take that it's going well?"

"Well it was going fantastic until you two decided to show up."

"Awww Remus, cheer up," James said, playfully pinching his cheek. Susie grabbed both Sirius and James by the ear and dragged them away.

"Bye Rems, have fun," she called over her shoulder.

"Susie you're hurting me," James whined as Susie continued to drag them down the street. She stopped in front of the quidditch supply store, letting Sirius and James drool after a broom they wanted.

Remus and Elisa finally had gotten back from Hogsmeade. They stopped in front of the portrait hole.

"I had a fun time," Elisa said smiling.

"Yeah I did too. So do you wanna do this again sometime?"

"Yeah I do."

"Great," Remus said smiling. They went through the portrait hole, where the rest of the Marauders were sitting, along with Susie, who was seated on Sirius' lap, Lily, who was scowling at James who was trying to talk to her, and Vicky, who looked like she was trying to sleep but kept getting woken up by Lily, who was trying to get away from James.

"Elisa, come sit with us," Susie called. Remus followed her as she sat down next to Susie and Sirius.

"Yeah, you have to hang out with us sometimes cause now you're dating Remus," Lily said with a wink. Elisa laughed and Remus turned slightly red. After an hour or so, Vicky stood up.

"I'm going to bed," she told everyone, yawning. Elisa, Lily, and Susie were all talking, leaving the rest of the Marauders to talk.

"So you and Elisa are dating now?" James asked. Remus shrugged.

"I haven't asked her to be my girlfriend yet."

"Yet, so you're planning to?" Remus nodded slowly.

"Yeah I am, I think she's a great girl."

"Well this means that you're over Vicky?" Sirius asked. Remus shrugged again.

"You know, truly, I think I'm over her."

"Good for you Moony," James exclaimed, clapping Remus on the shoulder. The three girls gave him funny looks and he grinned sheepishly and stood up.

"I think I'm gonna hit the sack. Night." When we went up the stairs, Lily finally relaxed.

"Finally, he's been bugging me all evening!" she complained. Susie giggled.

"He likes you a lot Lils, give him a chance!"

"No way," Lily said, scrunching her nose up. She stood up. "I guess I'll go to bed too" This left just Susie and Sirius and Remus and Elisa. Susie was still seated on Sirius' lap, her head on his chest. Sirius had his arms wrapped around her. Elisa stood up, meaning to go to bed.

"I guess I'll go to bed," she said. Remus stood up also.

"I'll, um, walk you to the stairs." They stood at the base of the stairs.

"Well thanks for the great day," Elisa said.

"Yeah, well maybe next Hogsmeade trip, we can do it again, going steady though." Elisa looked up at him.

"Are you asking me to be your girlfriend?" Remus nodded. "Yeah I'll be your girlfriend," she said with a smile. Remus reached over to give her a hug and Elisa looked up, planting a sweet kiss on his lips. Then she went upstairs

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aww Remus has finally found the girl of his dreams (wink wink nudge nudge) hehe. Moonlight, you dog you ;) lol. Anyways, if there are any fans of the Vicky/Remus ship, don't worry! It's coming! Soon my precious, very soon (rubs hands together and laughs very Gollum-like)

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Sorry I'm like high lol

Loathe mary sues: Alrighty! Sank ya very much! And your welcome

Im-an-angel-in-disguise: haha well there it was, did you like it?? And I made Susie like a crazy person because just cause you seem beautiful and perfect doesn't mean you can't have problems. Don't worry, she'll work em all out soon enough. And your character(s) will probably come about chapter 19, I'm working on it now

Waterfairy-rose: Thank you!! Don't worry, there'll be plenty more quidditch LATER ON, hehe. Nice about your ears, I've had mine pierced for quite a while ;) lol. Okay, I'm taking your advice to heart when I write. Remember I have most of these chapters done so I can't put your excellent advice in till later. Frank's not the captain silly! Where'd you get that idea? I'm gonna have to go over the last chapter and see where you got that one cause don't you see James obviously giving out orders as a CAPTAIN, you know? Your surprise is in chapter 19, I promise! If it's not, slap me with a wet noodle! I'm working at it RIGHT now! Ahh a bit of a conceit eh? Lol.