CHAPTER FIVE : REALIZATIONS
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(Three days later.)
"The commander will see you now." said a secretary looking person. Shinji got up, and walked in to the commander's office.
"You wanted to see me?" Gendo asked.
"Yes." Came the monotone reply.
"What did you want to speak to me about?" Gendo asked again.
"I...have things I need you to explain to me." Shinji said.
"What kind of things?" Gendo asked.
"I wish to know who my mother was. And explain what a mother is like, so I can better understand captain Katsuragi. She is becoming an enigma to me." Shinji said.
"Well, a mother provides care for her children. She tries to teach them things they need to know to survive, as well as comforts them when the children are feeling sad." Gendo tried to explain. The only person, before now, he had to explain such things to… was Rei. So he was a little under experienced for this kind of stuff.
"That is sufficient. I have one more question, why are you keeping me in the dark about your project? I wish to know about such things, since they include me, if it is alright with you." Shinji said. He knew something was going on, but he didn't know what.
"If you want to know, follow me." Gendo said, as he got up and left the room. Shinji obediently followed. Shinji was taken to a lab, where there were tanks that held something in them but he could not tell what at first.
"You wish to know the truth? Here it is." Gendo said as he pointed to one of the tanks. Shinji walked to the tank and looked in it. What he saw didn't outwardly affect him, but on the inside he was screaming. 'What am I!?!?!?!?'. "I made you because my parents wanted a grandson. But by the time I had completed you, they had both died, so I left you with a college professor, that was a good friend of mine. But I still kept tabs on you, because you were the first clone I had made. I had him train your mind to pilot EVA, as I knew you would have to pilot it someday. After I left you with my friend, the company I worked for wanted me to create another person the same way. So you are the original children." Gendo explained.
"I... understand." Shinji said. Still not showing any emotion. "But, there is something I do not understand, to create a human life you need DNA from both a male and female. Who was the female?" Shinji asked.
"It was an anonymous donor." Gendo answered, "Why do you want to know? You shouldn't worry about that, all you need to know is that you were genetically engineered, and that you have only one purpose." Gendo said.
"Hai." Shinji answered.
After they went back to Gendo's office, Gendo said, "You may talk to Rei about this if you wish, she was also genetically engineered. Anyone else you tell will be put out of the picture. You may leave now." Shinji left, and went straight to the EVA cages. For some reason, it seemed to calm him some, maybe it was the fact that they were artificial, like him.
After about an hour or two, Misato came and got him. "Why were you down there?" Misato asked.
"I can not tell you, it is too classified." Shinji said in a monotonous voice but had a little twinge of sorrow in it.
"I am going to leave, do you need anything of me before then?" Shinji asked.
"No, I suppose that will be all. What time will you be home?" Misato asked, not really paying attention, because she couldn't get over the fact that he had classified information that she didn't.
"I do not know." Shinji answered.
"Be home before twelve midnight." Misato said.
"Hai." Shinji answered, and left Misato thinking. 'I don't think I will ever understand him.' she thought to herself, and walked off, to try to find out what the information was. Shinji walked around until he was satisfied that Rei was not at NERV, he looked up her address on the MAGI super computers. He got the address and left to talk to Rei. He had to talk to someone and his fa...the commander said he could talk to Rei about it. As he walked up to Rei's door, for some reason, he felt worried. 'What if she does not know of her origins?' he thought, then another thought occurred to him. 'Why am I worried about Rei?' Shinji asked as he rang her doorbell. The greeting from the other 'special' child pulled him from his reveries.
"Pilot Ikari? Are you alright?" Rei asked looking at him with a curious look on her face.
"I...was just thinking." Shinji said, emotionless, but still blushed a little, and honestly not knowing why.
"Do you wish to talk?" Rei asked.
"Yes. You said we could talk, earlier." answered Shinji.
"Do you wish to come in?" Rei asked.
"Yes." he answered. After they go in to her apartment, they started talking.
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"Do you know where you came from? Like who your mother is?" Shinji asked.
"I was genetically engineered, to pilot EVA, but I suppose I have a mother." Rei said, lowering her head just a little bit.
"You were genetically engineered as I was." Shinji thought aloud. This got Rei's attention.
"You were genetically engineered?" Rei asked, surprise evident in her voice.
"Yes, I was just informed of it today." Shinji answered.
"Then it won't be long..." Rei said offhandedly.
"Until what, pilot Ayanami?" Shinji asked finally showing some emotion.
"I can not tell you that yet, but I can tell you that you will never be the same." Rei said.
"I can accept that." Shinji answered. The two teens talked until 11:30 that night, about different things. Some about her, and some about Shinji. They both found that they enjoyed the conversation and decided to continue these conversations.
"I have to go, it has been... an enjoyable experience." Shinji said, as he left Rei at her door.
"It has." Rei answered to herself.
"Pushing it weren't you?" Misato asked sarcastically.
"I was here before the designated time." Shinji answered, walking into the bathroom, to get a shower.
"Well you have a synch test tomorrow, you aren't required to attend school on that day, so if you wish you don't have to go. That means you can sleep in." Misato said walking in to the bathroom, getting toothpaste and tooth brush out to brush her teeth.
Shinji thought for a couple of minutes. "I will attend school." Shinji answered as he proceeded to get undressed, to get a shower. The fact that Misato was in there with him didn't seem to bother him, as it did her.
"I AM IN HERE TOO YOU KNOW!!!" Misato shouted as she left with toothpaste foam in her mouth.
"You walked in while I was getting ready for a shower." Shinji answered. Misato continued to rant about how ill mannered he was while he was getting his shower and seemed to worsen when he got out, to face her. Shinji couldn't help but smile a little.
"WHAT'S SO DAMN FUNNY!?" She asked still very much pissed.
"You look like a rabid beast." he said, still emotionless, but still smiling a little
"I am glad you are showing emotion, but do you have to show it at my expense?" Misato asked looking for a mirror.
"Gomen, Misato-san." Shinji said handing her a small mirror.
As soon as she looked at herself in the mirror, she busted out laughing. "I didn't know I looked that funny!?" she said between gathering air.
"I am going to bed. I'll get a shower tomorrow." Shinji said as he went in to his room, after he got decent. 'Today has been eventful. I have found I can openly talk to Rei, and Katsuragi-san and I are starting to form a sort of understanding.' Shinji thought, genuinely smiling for the third time tonight.
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(The next morning.) Shinji had gotten up at is usual time of 5:00 in the morning and had gotten ready for school and made breakfast and was on the couch reading while he ate a piece of toast. Misato walked in and stared at the table. 'I don't think I am ever going to get used to this.' She thought.
"Shinji, you are going to spoil me rotten." Misato said as she dug in to her food. Shinji just kept on reading. After Misato had eaten she sat down beside Shinji who still had a piece of toast in his mouth while writing something down. "Whatcha writin' Shin-kun?" Misato asked while trying to see.
"It is nothing. By the way, your alcohol consumption has impaired your work efficiency, I checked up on you, and you have been going to work intoxicated recently so I discarded your beer." Shinji said. Well half of it was true she had been drunk, but not enough to impair her judgement any, he just found that the smell of beer made him sick, and for some reason he did not want anyone, especially Misato to know.
"YOU WHAT!!!?" Misato screamed, as she ran to the fridge to find that her beer was gone.
"Don't try to buy any either, you won't be able to. I went to commander Ikari and he has forbidden any liquor stores to sell beer to you." Shinji said.
Misato had a look of pure death in her eyes as she approached Shinji, ready to beat the living tar out of him, when the doorbell rang. "Saved by the bell, Ikari." Misato said, as Shinji went to answer the door.
Rei was waiting on the other side of the door. "Pilot Ayanami? Why are you here?" Shinji asked.
"I am here to escort you to Dr. Akagi's lab, She requested our presence early today." Rei said, a monotonous as ever.
"Why was I not informed of this?" Misato asked finally calming down enough to talk rationally.
"I just found out this morning my self, Captain Katsuragi-san, so I assume, it is spur of the moment." Rei said.
"I will be ready in about five minutes." Shinji said as he went to put his personal things out of Misato's sight. He took the notebook he was writing on with him, to keep her from reading his notes. On the way to NERV, Rei asked him a question that he didn't know how to answer.
"Pilot Ikari do you love me?" Rei asked looking at him.
"I...do not know, I think I have feelings for you but I don't know what they are as of yet." Shinji answered.
"I see, I believe I feel the same way. As soon as I figure these feelings out I will inform you." Rei said.
"I see." Shinji said, expressionless on the outside but... couldn't figure out how he felt on the inside.
"Well it's about time, it's not like you two to be late, did you have trouble?" Ritsuko asked as she readied Shinji for a test, or so it seemed.
"I am going to implant you with these." said the Dr., as she showed him the implant. The implant looked like a paper-thin curving metal plate with a plug on one side, and various wires on the other side.
"What is its purpose?" Shinji asked, while Ritsuko put the implant on the table.
"It allows us to store your memories on a computer." She explained. Ritsuko injected Shinji with a sedative, and about two minutes later Shinji was out. "I hope I am doing the right thing, Gendo." Ritsuko said, as she started the operation. About two hours after the operation, Shinji woke up. He had a throbbing headache, but all in all he felt pretty good, thanks to the sedative that Ritsuko gave him.
"Ah, you are awake." Shinji couldn't remember that voice at first, but it came to him a second later.
"Fath... commander Ikari, what do you want of me?" Shinji asked trying to pull off his usual monotone voice, but it came out as a weak whisper. Surprised, he slowly grasped his throat.
"It's alright, the implant reroutes all of your actions through it as well as record your memories," Gendo explained, "it will return to normal in an hour or two. Don't worry, it will be over soon, we only have one more procedure to do and you will be ready."
A nurse came in the next day and gave him a shot like the one that Ritsuko had given him the day before, and fell asleep once more. This time when he woke up, he felt different somehow. He felt like someone else was inside him, not controlling him, but just sleeping there. It scared him a little.
"So, how is my little patient?" Ritsuko asked.
"I feel...I feel like someone is inside of me." Shinji said.
"That is natural, you will come to ignore it in time." Rei chimed in as she walked in from the door.
"You knew of this? Why didn't you tell me of this." Ritsuko asked, slightly annoyed at the younger pilot for not keeping her in the loop.
"What do you mean?" Shinji asked.
"You have been injected with the first angel's genes, in short you and Rei are brother and sister in the fact that both you and she have 25% Gendo's DNA, 25% anonymous DNA and Shinji has 50% Adam's DNA while Rei has 50% Lilith's DNA." Ritsuko explained.
"Why are you telling us this?" Rei asked.
"I unlike your 'father' like to be out in the open with people." She said. Both Shinji and Rei cocked an eyebrow. Ritsuko shuddered. "Don't do that. You two have sure inherited some of his worse traits." Ritsuko said after her shuddering fit.
"I still do not understand, you are telling us this information and we do not know. Why." Shinji inquired, neither one of them willing to give up.
"Because Gendo wants to use you as he was using me. I used to do anything he asked just for his affection, and in turn I helped kill people. I don't want you to make the same mistake." Ritsuko said looking sincere.
"Then we will take that in to consideration when we make our choices." Shinji answered. That was good enough for Ritsuko.
"What will I tell Captain Katsuragi?" Shinji asked, pointing to his head, which was now a mix of very dark blue and brunette, with light blue highlights.
"She was told that there was a problem with the tests and that you were admitted in here for safety precautions. But now we have a bigger test, we have to find out how much this will affect your ability to pilot EVA." Ritsuko said taking on her scientist's voice.
END CHAPTER FIVE: REALIZATIONS
A.n.: How's that for a twist huh? As said I am going to make spin-offs for the other women as well but I still haven't decided how to make the main one. I am thinking very hard about a Misato / Shinji as well, but I will need some help. Oh and I am sorry for these chapters being so long, I just don't know when to quit. Well I have had a good day, I have finished another very long chapter and I haven't been interrupted yet. Well I am going to get started on another chapter, after I clean out my closet and stuff. Well I'm 10-7