Chapter 5

"Oh... my god. At least Shonin didn't get worse than that." I said to Koenma. "I'm relieved at that. Well, what happened next?"
"Well, Yusuke wasn't able to tell Keiko then like he planned to. He had to think of something, and think of something quick. He didn't want to hurt her, and now since her father was all alone and by himself he knew that Yusuke wasn't going to take Keiko away from that. So, a month passed by of what Raizen told him, and another month remained. He was running out of time, he had to leave for the Makai soon enough so that he would know what to say to Raizen, but he wasn't sure."

"Mom, what am I supposed to do? I have to stay with Keiko, she's going through so much right now, I mean, her mother died. I know if you died, I wouldn't want her running away from me. She's had to deal with so much, especially from me. I'm such a crappy boyfriend. How can I even concider this to be a choice?"
Suddenly a hit of pain had rushed to the back of Yusuke's head. "Shut up Yusuke, you're starting to sound stupid. Of coarse there is a choice you can make. Keiko is the person you love, but if you don't leave her, you and her might die as well as me and everyone else. Listen, Yusuke. I'm partially responsible for this, as well as your father. And I'm sorry that this is the path that you have to take, but this is the way it worked out." She laughed for a second. "Man, if I knew that our son would be a rare half demon, then I would have never had sex with the man in the first place!"
Sounds just like Yusuke, doesn't she? "EW! Mom... I know inside that you had to bang the guy to have me, but still, hearing it disgusts me."
"Watch your tone with me." She said, and continued. "I wish I could have picked a better life for you Yusuke. But I'm not that wonderful to be able to achieve as much as all the other mothers in the world, and I'm sorry that I'm like the worst mother in the world. But I can't help you make this decision. I understand how hard this decision is now."
"Damn it!" He said, walking in his room. He sat on his bed, and punched a hole in the wall. Suddenly, he found himself crying. Sparkling silver gliding down his cheek, swiftfully, almost gracefully. At that moment, the real Yusuke was being shown. The innocent young boy who had to deal with being alone for his life, with nobody except Keiko. "Keiko..." He whispered to himself. Flashbacks of all the times he's had with her replayed through his mind. From the time that they just met, up to when he saw her in so much pain, morning the death of her own mother. She's had to deal with so much, losing him at first, even though he didn't realize how much he meant to her, and now her own mother. The person who had given her life had now been gone forever. Until the day that keiko joins the land of the dead, she will never be able to see her own mother again. "I have to think of something! I can't leave her again. But if I don't leave her, then she'll probably die."

"What is Yusuke supposed to do!" I screamed at Koenma. "HOW COULD YOU MAKE YUSUKE GO THROUGH SOMETHING LIKE THIS! YOU'VE MADE HIM GONE THROUGH SO MANY DIFFERENT THINGS, BUT MAKING HIM CHOSE BETWEEN THE ONE PERSON THAT PROBABLY HELPED HIM GET THROUGH EVERY SINGLE OPPONENT HE'S GONE AGAINST OR HONORING HIS FATHER AND BECOMING THE KING OF THE MAKAI?"
"It's a hard decision Botan, I understand that. But I didn't have any choice in the matter. I had to do this, or else I would have had to kill him, as my father told me."
"But Koenma! There must be something that Yusuke can do to be both... to be the king of the makai and to be in the ningenkai for Keiko."
"I'm afraid there's only one thing he can chose. And that's his fate. This time, the fate of many worlds are in his hands."

Yusuke finally found himself walking to Keiko's house. His eyes were swollen. He had sat in his room for a solid 5 days straight. He finally made his decision in 3 days, he spent the next 2 days trying to see how he was going to finally explain to Keiko that he had to leave. He had 3 weeks left until he starts his new job. He went to the Makai the previous day to tell Raizen his decision. He knew he had to go to the Makai, and that he didn't have any choice anymore. He knew that no matter how much he loved Keiko, he had to leave her right now. Even if it's permanent. It's the option he had. He took a deep breath, as for a familiar setting had arisen. He had been standing on the step of Keiko's house, hoping that she would answer the door. He knocked quietly on the door. The door opened, as Keiko's figure appeared. Yusuke's eyes started watering again, but he tried to hide it as much as he could. He had to stay strong. He had to make his plan work. Everything had to go the way he figured out in his head. This was his only option. The only thing that could ever make sense for him to go.
"Hey Keiko..." He said. "You think we can talk?" He said, quietly, defensibly. Suddenly, his plan had disintegrated in his mind. His entire speech he made up had vanished, he was left without a thought, except for one thought. How beautiful she was. He looked at her from the bottom up, her slim legs that led to her waist that was covered by a beautiful denim skirt , with a white blouse on, buttoned up with a lacy collar. He saw her hair down, marveling over how beautiful she looked. She walked over to him, seeing he looked upset. She nodded her head, walked over to him and lightly gave him a kiss on the lips, as she grabbed his hand as she closed the house door. Suddenly, Yusuke felt her wrap her arms around him, as his arm went around her back, as she clung to him like a moth on fly paper. He took in a deep sigh, then he finally gained his composure again as he released her from his grip. They reached the school, once again. The place he had proposed the very thing that he's sure he was going to break. She grabbed his hand with her left hand, as he felt her engagement ring on her finger. They stopped, as he played with the ring on her finger.
"Keiko, please, sit down." He said, painfully. He felt his heart break inside of him. She smiled, but instead of sitting down, she walked closer to him. She put her hand on his chest, and looked deeply into his eyes. "Keiko..." He took a deep breath. She lightly kissed him on the lips again, as she grew more passionate with her love. Yusuke realized how in love she was with him. He didn't kiss back, just let her kiss him. Keiko finally pulled back, and looked closer at his eyes, seeing that they were bloodshot. They didn't have that spark that she knew when he was with her.
"What is it Yusuke?" She said, her cheerful expression vanishing. "What is the matter."
"I can't marry you." He said, sounding so emotionless, pain stricken inside. He felt such a pain inside his chest. He wanted to clutch his chest, but he had to stay strong. He was crying hysterically on the inside, but he couldn't let her see, or else the whole plan would go down the drain. Her cheery expression had suddenly dropped.
"Wh...What? Yusuke... I don't think I heard what you just said."
"I said I can't marry you! Can't you listen?" Yusuke screamed. 'I have to scold myself severely for this later.' He thought to himself. He can't believe he just yelled at her. "Keiko... I never realized it until the other day, but I had been lying to you this whole time."
"LYING! ABOUT WHAT YUSUKE!" She screamed. She stood up, walking over to him. She grabbed his shirt. "WHAT YUSUKE! WHAT? YOU CAN YELL AT ME BEFORE BUT NOW YOU'RE TOO CHICKEN?"
"BECAUSE I DON'T LOVE YOU!!" He screamed. 'Ow... that hurt.' he thought. 'I hope Botan never finds out I said that. She'd kill me.'
"What..." she said, weakly.
"I love someone else... someone I had been seeing for the past few days."

"YOU'RE A SICK BASTARD! YOU SICK BASTARD! YOU'RE A SICK BASTARD YUSUKE!" I screamed. "HOW COULD HE DO THAT TO POOR KEIKO! AFTER ALL THAT KEIKO HAS DONE FOR HIM, AND ALL HE DID TO PROTECT KEIKO, HE'S GOING TO LET THE GIRL HE'S GOING TO MARRY GO TO WASTE?!"
"You're wrong Botan... Keiko isn't the girl he's going to marry." Koenma told me.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN! HE JUST LIED TO HIS BEST FRIEND, AND LOVER! IT SAYS RIGHT HERE!" I opened up my spirit guidebook to Yusuke's page. "SEE! RIGHT HERE ON PAGE 12 OF HIS LIFE, HE'S IN LOVE WITH KEIKO! RIGHT THERE!"
"Botan... it says he's in love with her. But does it say that they will marry?"
"NO BECAUSE THEY AREN'T MARRIED YET!"
"It's because they're not going to marry botan!" He took a deep breath."Botan, just because they love each other doesn't mean everything is going to turn out happily ever after. There are so many broken romances that should happen that don't. It's the way life is."
"Why did he have to tell her THAT! I mean... even if he would have said anything else but that. That's the worst thing to do is tell her that he lied about loving her, and that he was cheating on her!"
"Because if he told her the truth, then she would wait around forever for him. If he had lied, then her heartbreak will eventually make her stronger again, therefore letting her find another lover. Yusuke knows that he can't do both, and no matter how much he wants to be with Keiko, he wants her to be happy. Just like any other man in love."
"And how would you know! It's not like you're in love with anyone! You barely know anyone!" Koenma had blushed, and I didn't know why, but I was pissed. Very pissed. How could Koenma allow Yusuke to lie like that to Keiko? Koenma should know that the reason yusuke has done so well is because he has the will to survive for Keiko. Now, he's going to be going to the Makai, probably the place he'll need the most will to survive, and he's letting his motivation go goodbye?

"What?" Keiko stuttered. "But.. that night... I played... that song for you... YOU'RE LYING! YOU'RE NOT TELLING ME SOMETHING ELSE! THERE'S SOMETHING ELSE... THERE...has... to be... something else..." She let go of Yusuke, falling to the ground. "You're lying to me about something. Tell me the truth! TELL ME THE TRUTH YOU BASTARD!"
Yusuke was in shock. Never has Keiko called him anything but a jerk. Nothing else. His legs were shaking. "Keiko... I just can't marry you. Please... lets leave it at that."
"NO! YUSUKE URAMESHI YOU'RE GOING TO TELL ME THE TRUTH... THIS EXACT MOMENT!"
"I already told you the truth. That's all there is. I don't love you. There's someone else. You're my friend, and I'm sorry that we did what we did. Lets just leave what we did in the past, and move forward. I can't marry you. I'm sorry." He said. She stood up, and slapped him in the face. He nodded, understanding he deserved that. "Keiko... I said I'm sorry!" He tried to give her a hug, but she backed up.
"Don't touch me." She screamed. "Don't ever touch me... again."
"Can I please... have one more kiss before I'm out of your life forever?"
"How do you know you're going to be out of my life forever?"
"Because I know." She walked over to him, pecked him on the cheek, and looked into his eyes one last time. Silvery streams were flowing rapidly from her eyes, and she turned away from him, running away. Tears falling from her eyes, as she finally was out of his view. His knees stopped shaking. He fell to the ground and started punching the ground. "KEIKO!!! I'M SORRY!!!"

"Yusuke..." The small voice said. "Oh... yusuke..." Her father was out working, and she walked over to the liquor cabinet. She took out a bottle of wine, and took a sip out of it. Then, she tipped it, as more flowed into her mouth, as she swallowed. She took out her cd, the one with the song she played to Yusuke. She sat down, reading the lyrics on the case. She put it in the cd player and started listening to it. "What bullshit." she said, laughing. "THIS IS SUCH BULLSHIT! LOVE IS BULLSHIT!"
She sat there for a few hours, taking in more alcohol by the second. She had went through the 3rd bottle, then she got up and started walking to Yusuke's house. She had a bottle of liquor in her hand, as she took out her key and opened up his house. She looked around, it was dark. Atsuko wasn't home, neither was Yusuke. She walked into his room, seeing most of his belongings gone, with 2 notes on the bed. She picked up the first one.

Dear Mother,

Well, here I am once again, saying goodbyes. I'm sorry that I've been such a horrible son to you in the years, but I'd like to thank you. Sometimes I felt like you weren't there, but I never knew how hard it must have been for you to deal with, and I'm sorry I didn't get to say anything to you until our last talk. I'll be coming back to the Ningenkai every month to visit, making it a law that there must be a full search of the Ningenkai monthly so that I can come and see you as much as I can. I'm probably not going to look like myself, because then the demons in the Makai will know I'm a half demon then, and we can't afford for that to happen yet, especially since a lot of demons fear me there, and in general hate me. Please, make it seem like I died again. People will believe that. So until that law is made, I won't be able to talk to you that often. I'll have my assistant send you letters every so often, but until we meet again, I love you and thanks for everything. One last thing I ask you.
Please give the other letter on my bed to Keiko. Even if I can't tell her the complete truth, I don't want her to think I'm the worst person man-kind or in that case, any kind has to offer. She doesn't know about any of this, so when you talk to her, please don't mention anything about me being a demon or anything.

Love,
Your son,

Yusuke

She held the letter in her hand, not understanding why Yusuke didn't tell her about being a demon. "A demon... that means... he's like all those horrible creatures. He has to be anyway, by leading me on the way he did, and proposing to me... Asshole." She said, taking another large gulp of her alcohol. Then, she picked up the letter left for her.

Dearest Keiko,

I'm sorry things ended the way they did. But I just wanted to try and let you know that as quietly as I could. You were my first girlfriend and I'll always remember the things that we did. You'll always have a big place in my heart, no matter what happens to us. Thank you for always listening and putting up with me being spirit detective. I hope you don't hate me.

Yusuke

She couldn't believe it. Yusuke was telling the truth to her. He really didn't love her. She couldn't believe it. She took the letter, crumpled it up, and threw it in the garbage. Then, she took a double take. She reached into the garbage pail and grabbed a crumpled up ball and walked out of the room, and sat in the living room of Yusuke's house. There was a picture on the fireplace of him, the picture that was used from his wake. She sat there, looking at the picture. The fireplace was turned on, vividly glowing.
"Yusuke! Why did you have to leave me you son of a bitch!" She screamed, throwing an empty bottle of liquor at the picture of Yusuke, ducking herself down into her knees, crawled up by the wall. "Wasn't I good enough for you? TELL ME YUSUKE! WASN'T I GOOD ENOUGH! WHY DID YOU HAVE... TO... Leave... me..." she took a deep breath trying to hold back tears. "alone... I thought... you loved me... I thought... you would love our child...What is Ronin supposed to do... when he's older... without... a... Kasaan..." she balled, letting it all out. A few words came out as she spoke. "I... promised... that I'd... be your only one... forever... and you... promised me too..."

"Oh... Koenma... how could we let that happen?" I said, looking sympathetically at Keiko on the screen of Koenma's office. "Poor Keiko..."
"She'll be fine in a few days." Koenma said. "Check it out in your book." I looked into my book at Yukimura, Keiko, but suddenly something has changed. The typing vanished and it changed.
"Koenma, something is happening to my book. It's like what happened when Yusuke jumped in front of the car! How his life had changed!"
"LET ME SEE THAT!" Koenma said. "Something must have happened that she wasn't supposed to do!" We looked at the screen, and saw Keiko reading something.

"This letter is such bullshit! I'm going to read it one last time before I burn it." She said, opening up, as she stared at it. "Wait a second, this seems much longer than the one I just read. It's in a different color ink too!" She touched it, and decided to read it. "To my sweetest Keiko." She started. Suddenly, Yusuke's voice started to take over the letter.
"Keiko... I'm so sorry for everything I have done to hurt you today. I had to end it that way. I had no other option. I was called to the Makai and I have to control it now. I am the new king there. I went to the leader now to tell him, Raizen. He's my ancestor, my father's ancestor. I finally found someone from my dad's side. It turns out my dad died trying to save my life. I must have gotten that instinct from my father, considering I leaped in front of a car to save a little kid. Raizen explained to me that the reason that I did that and spirit world didn't expect me to do it was because they didn't expect me to be a half demon as well. Yea... I'm this rare type of demon too, and if I didn't accept becoming the new king, that you and atsuko and kuwabara, everyone would be in trouble. If the other 2 rulers of the Makai found out I was a half demon, they would kill me too, as well as everyone I knew and loved. You'd probably be the first, considering I love you the most. Keiko, I had to lie to you so that you would get over me and move on and be happy. I need you to be happy, because I'll forever be watching over you. If you're not happy, I would die. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I told you the truth. I know you're never going to see this letter, so it doesn't matter that I'm even writing this. I guess I had to let out my emotions, you know? Well, be happy my love. Eien ni…ai shiteru.. Love always, Yusuke. Don't forget me, Keiko. I'll be around once a month to watch over you. If we're meant to be, it'll still happen, someway, somehow. You'll never be alone, I'll be there over your shoulders."
"Oh... my god." was all Keiko could say. "I KNEW IT! I KNEW THERE WAS SOMETHING ELSE! YUSUKE, I KNOW WHEN YOU'RE LYING TO ME, YOU JERK!" She smiled, knowing that Yusuke was always going to be watching her. "YUSUKE, I WILL FIND YOU AGAIN, SOMEDAY!" She took the letter, folding it neatly and putting it in her pocket, as she threw the empty bottle into the fireplace, watching it burn. She then grabbed a big bucket of water and put out the fire. She got up, and started walking towards the door, as she had a smile on her face, humming the song that she had for Yusuke. "And I thought it was bullshit." She ended, singing that as an extra measure of the song.

"That was unusually odd." I said, as I turned away from the screen. "She's so drunk that she's imagining the letter changed."
"No Botan. Yusuke's an idiot and left that in the garbage, and instead of her taking the crumpled one she threw out, she took that letter out from the garbage."
"Oh... so it seems that fate strikes again, huh Koenma! Look at my book now!" Koenma picked it up, as it saw Keiko's future.
"Let me see that! Keiko Yukimura..." He started reading. "Keiko Yukimura will die when she is 50 in a secret marriage with the Makai king, Yusuke Urameshi. Has one son, who's destiny is to take over the throne when Yusuke dies."
"WHAT?" I said, excitedly! "See, I told you Koenma, love conquers all!"
"Wait... there's more." He said, reading it. "To get more details, turn to Urameshi, Yusuke." He stopped, frantically turning to the page. "Ah... here it is... it seems to be, a lot longer than his previous destiny. Yusuke becomes King of the Makai. He fell in love with Keiko Yukimura at age 15, and proposed. He got Keiko pregnant, and didn't know when he hurt her to go to the Makai, to save her. Yet, due to their destiny, Keiko found proof of their love, and love will conquer all. Yusuke will die before Keiko does, making a valiant attempt, the ultimate sacrifice before he leaves the worlds and enters a new. His son, Urameshi Ronin will be a great success as a half demon."
"Ultimate sacrifice?" I said, confused. "What does that mean?"
"Oh... no..." Koenma said. "It can't... he can't... he can't be... the one?"

Authors Note:
 Hey every1. Sorry it's been a while since I updated... i've been dealing with a lot... Regents', my chorus teacher died, finals, etc. I'll try to update more, but i have a lot this week, so it'll probably be updated mid-week to end-week or something around there... I wanna finish this soon because now it's starting to get exciting for me! Review please any hints would be nice, just be polite! Thnx xoxoxoxoxoxo luv you all!

Jess Pete