Chapter 9- Music and Memories
Penny had arrived at her parents' mansion about and hour ago. Her parents were out having dinner at a friend's house. She strolls silently through the large mansion refamiliarizing herself with the sights and smells of her childhood. She didn't really need to, she still retained the memory of all the little secrets, every minute detail of the house, down to the last tile in her personal bathroom. She is just trying to forget Jake.
She walks into her bedroom and a small laugh escapes from her lips hen she sees all of her favorite things from the past. The things she left behind when she moved to Miami 5 years ago.
God, five whole years. I can't believe it's been that long.
She lifts her suitcase onto her bed. Most of her belongings would arrive the next day but she brought the things she couldn't live without, her CD's.
She pulls out her copy of Alanis Morissette's Feast On Scraps and puts it into her stereo. As the music starts to play she flops back onto her bed.
She lies there humming along, not really thinking, not doing anything at all. Then the song "Bent 4 You" starts playing and the lyrics make thoughts of Jake rush into her head. It's amazing that she can't remember what she had for breakfast but she can remember everything she and Jake had ever talked about and everything they had done together. She also remembers every rude comment she had ever made to him. There were some things she never wanted to forget and others that she wanted to push as far from her as possible.
She wanted to remember the fun things they had done together. She laughs as she thinks about the time they had fake dated. The look on Dylan's face was great when she threw that bagel at Jake. She wants to remember that time they had fed lines to that dumb-ass Keira girl. She wants to remember when she could just fall asleep on the couch in his office. She wants to remember that amazing first kiss and their short but nice relationship. Sure those are good things but what about all the awful things she had done to him.
She wants to forget that whole friends with benefits thing and the fact that Jake thought of her as his "little brother." She wants to forget that stupid watch she had bought for him. She did want to spend time with him but he'd never care. She really wants to forget that horrible night at the restaurant. She wants to forget that he had run away with Dylan to New York. God, she even wants to forget that Dylan.
The CD ends and the silence rouses her from her depressing thought. She growls at herself and seriously considers punching herself.
Christ Penelope, stop being a fucking child. It's over, it's done, he's happy with Miss Perfect. Get over it.
She walks over to the stereo and pulls out the CD. She puts it back in it's case and heads downstairs to try and find something to eat.
Get over it. Yeah right.