-Untold Feelings-
AN: this is supposed to be my second Kouzumi but my first one got deleted for unknown reasons… Oh well…
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You really can't help to fall in love. Even though you just have a simple crush, it might soon be developed to love… and you might not notice it until it's too late…
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It all started 3 months ago, when fate decided to play tricks on me and let me bump into him. I quickly said my apologies to him when re raised his eyebrow at me. After that, he just nodded and we both went on our separate ways. At first I didn't care, even though my friends thought he was so damn cute and went on with my school life… that is 2 weeks later, when I saw him in a totally different way…
I didn't know how it happened but it just did. Suddenly, I can't stop thinking about him, how his navy blue hair sways perfectly with the wind or how his eyes seem to shine every time he smiles. And then, I dreamt about him. It was really unusual since out of all my crushes in my whole life, he is the only one that I dreamt about. It was then that I found out that I really liked him.
I want to see him as much as possible. I wanted to watch him, stare at his marvelous face until the time ends. I wanted him to smile at me, like I always do after he walks by. I wanted him to look at me the way I look at him. I wanted him to notice me… and to like me the way I like him. My friends always tells me that I'm in love with him and as I looks at my reflection every night, I ask myself the same question…
Am I really in love?
Days have passed and I kept doing the same thing except talking to him. Yes, I am a coward though knowing that I still have a chance the ext day, I don't really care… but that is where I found out I was wrong for the following day, I found out he has another…
It was gym class then when I found out. With my friends surrounding me, I just smiled, assuring them that I was alright while hiding the pain I felt inside. It felt like someone took the life out of me, leaving me with an empty shell. Confusion and emptiness filled my heart that night. Why am I overreacting? It was just a crush… right? And that was the question that lingered my head as an unexpected tear fell down.
I tried to avoid him but he just seems to show up everywhere. It was like the more I don't want to see him, the more he keeps showing up. I felt like fate was playing tricks on me once again. It was so confusing that it hurts and it hurts even more as I can't see him.
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Love hurts… I know that, since I fell in love and I didn't notice it until it was too late…
My name is Izumi Orimoto and that is my story… about my untold feelings for Kouji Minamoto and of how I suffered for not sharing them to him… and I continue to suffer, not planning on telling Kouji how I really felt about him… ever…
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