At least one person mentioned a lemon. Um, sorry, no lemon, but I will give you some pretty description at the beginning! I seriously could not write a lemon to save my life. If I could then screw 's rules, I'd post it anyway! (under a different account)

Ok, someone commented about people reading ahead in my story. I don't normally let people read ahead unless they are helping me. Kitana uno is the BEST beta in the world! She helps me out on everything. I give her chapters weeks before I update so that I have enough time to change the things she wants, entirely rewrite the chapter with a different plot, and then beg her to beta it again. If you don't believe me, ask her about chapter seven

Ryo lay close to Dee, his arms around him, and looked into two beautiful eyes. He could see his world in those verdant orbs. They were so alive. He moved closer to him, leaving feather soft kisses all the way up Dee's arm before reaching his body. He buried his face into Dee's chest and snaked his arms around Dee's waist.

"Dee, I....um...I enjoyed that." Ryo's face turned bright red. He knew that he should have been able to come up with something more original or at least descriptive than that, but anything else would have caused him to blush harder and he doubted that he could have actually said it.

"So did I, as always." Dee kissed down the stray hairs that reached up to his face from Ryo's soft hair, which looked as though it was glowing. "But it wouldn't have been the same if it were anyone but you, you know that, right?"

"Yes, but..." Ryo hid himself more, pulling away from Dee. He pushed his face into the pillow, hiding soft sobs.

"But what? You can tell me anything, love." Dee stroked Ryo's hair one last time before reaching under his chin and pulling Ryo's face up to meet his.

"I just cheated on Amy!" He did not dare look at Dee, he could already sense the hurt look. He had said the wrong thing, he had not thought of Dee's heart, the pain that he had just been through.

"Oh...that's what's wrong. Don't worry, I'm sure that Amy would take you back, better yet, she doesn't have to know about this, no one does. We can just forget that it ever happened, would that work?" Dee looked up at the ceiling, trying not to think about it too much. He had just finished the most memorable morning of his life, and he had to forget about it so that Ryo couldn't break his heart again. He played it off as something small, unimportant. "Just forget about it and go on with life."

"No, I cant, I wont!" Ryo's voice lost its power, fading into the pillow. "I don't want to. I don't want to just forget about this, I just don't know what else to do. Dee, I cant just leave her, but I...I love you."

"Ryo, you were the one who reminded me that I had not come back here to pick you up, how do you know that I will take you back? Didn't I say that I couldn't take you back if I wanted to, didn't I? Look, I don't know what to think right now so I'm not even going to try. You claim to be straight, but then you decide that maybe you are not. Then you screw me only to talk about how much you love Amy afterwards. I decided that I didn't want you back, but look what I did. I am so screwed up right now, thinking will only make it worse." Dee leaned back over towards Ryo, hovering over top of him. "I don't care what you think, I don't care what I think. Right now, I just need some comfort."

"Dee, I don't think that this is very helpful, you..." Ryo's feeble attempts to talk were silenced by Dee's lips sending forceful kisses. Ryo struggled some under his weight but Dee continued all the same. "Dee! Stop!"

"No Ryo, I cant, not this time." Dee forced himself on Ryo more, holding down the smaller man's flailing arms with his strong hands. He could no longer control his actions, he was back to pouncing on Ryo again, pushing him into situations that he didn't like, misusing his body for Dee's own entertainment. It was only the crying that stopped him.

Dee pulled himself off of the smaller man who immediately curled into a ball. He tried to apologize, but what he had done was inexcusable and he knew it. He knew that it would take an act of god for Ryo to forgive him, and Dee was never too friendly with the man upstairs.

"leave! Get out of my house and don't come back!" Ryo shouted, throwing a pillow at the raven haired man to make his point. "I hate you!"

Amy returned home in the evening to find Ryo crying on the bed, wrapped in sheets and the pillow damp with tears. She dropped everything that was in her hands and ran over to him. "I told you not to come back! I hate you!" Ryo screamed as soon as she touched him.

"Randy, its me, Amy. What happened?" She wormed her hand under his chin and pulled it upwards until she could look in his eyes, they were full of fear. She ran her hand over his cheeks, drying the tears as she went.

"Something happened, I cant tell you anymore than that." Ryo pulled away from her touch, hiding under the white linen. "I don't want to talk about it and I don't think that I could even if I wanted to."

"It's ok." Amy stoked his head with her hand, brushing his hair out of his eyes. "Where is Dee?"

"He left, he went back to New York. We got in a fight and, well, I told him to leave." Ryo pulled away from her, retreating to the other side of the bed. He did not want anyone close to him. He needed to be alone. "Amy, I did something that I shouldn't have, I'm sorry and I will never do it again. I kissed someone else, but it wasn't my idea."

"That's alright, love, I know that you didn't mean it. Relax, everything will be fine."

Dee slammed the door shut, sending echoes through the house. James peeked out from his kitchen before running to Dee's arms. He knew that the man was clearly pissed but he knew no way to calm him down better than with kisses. Although unoriginal, it did work in most situations.

"Keep off." Dee growled when he got close. James froze in place, Dee had never said such a thing to him. If anything, he had complained a few times that James didn't give him as much attention as he would have liked. Dee saw the pained look in his eyes and knew that he had to do something about it. "Look, James, I'm sorry. Its just that this trip was extremely stressful and I got in a fight with someone really important to me."

"More important than me?"

"Yes, more important than you. It wasn't just some friend that I was visiting, it was a former lover, the one before you. I loved him for years, I was going to ask him to move in with me but then he left. He just walked out of my life. Now I find out that he is close to being married to some female version of me and I'm standing there watching him. I still love him, hell, I love him now more than ever. I even slept with him while I was there, but all he thought about was the fact that he was cheating on Amy. I did something inexcusable after that. I didn't hit him, I only did that once with a very good reason and it hurt me so much that I vowed to never do it again no matter what the reason." Dee looked up, realizing who he was venting on. "Oh god! James, I am really sorry. I didn't mean for it to come out like that."

"Get out Dee, get out of my apartment." James opened the door and pointed out. "You can come back when you decide who you love, the man who treated you like shit, or me. I don't want to see you until you know."

Dee looked into his eyes, searching for any hint that James would let him stay, there was none. Dee sighed and walked out of the door. The door slammed behind him, almost smacking into him. "great" he muttered to himself "Now James hates me as well, can't blame him tough. God I just screwed my life up!"

Dee drug himself home, ignoring everything around him. He was almost to his apartment door when he felt something tug on his shirt. It was the little girl from the apartment next to his. He had watched after her when her mother had things to do and they knew each other very well. The little girl, who was about four years old, smiled up at him holding a paper card that she had made herself. Dee opened it up and pretended to read the scribbles inside as though they were actual words.

"That is very sweet, Vivy, but you had better go home, I don't want your mommy to get worried about you." He turned her around and made sure that she went into her apartment. Her friendliness would cause her trouble one day, he knew that much. He sighed, she was such a cute little girl, always knew the way to cheer people up, though she never knew that she had that talent. He looked over the card again. It was construction paper folded in half with a doily glued on the front with just a little too much glue. In the middle of the doily was a misshapen heart, lopsided to say the least. The inside had scribbles, probably a sweet line of childish poetry. Every day was valentines day to her and she would randomly hand out cards to people.

Dee put the card in a drawer with all of the others that she had given him in the two years since he mother had moved in next door to him. Briefly, he looked over the cards, admiring their bright construction paper backgrounds, remembering that each one had scribbles inside where she had "written" a poem for him. One time he had dared to ask what it said. She had only blushed and hid behind her mother's legs. He never asked again.

A loud phone broke Ryo's concentration. He reached over and picked it up, mumbling a greeting. Bikky's voice rang loud and clear into his ears. He explained that spring break was coming up and he had hoped to spend it in New York with Carol and his other friends. They had been able to keep in touch via email and phone calls but it had always been obvious that he missed them.

"Bikky, there is no way that I can afford a hotel room for you. It just isn't possible." Ryo hated breaking the news to him. He knew why it wasn't possible. It was because he was saving up money for the ring, a ring he wasn't sure that he would need anymore.

"Why cant I just stay with Dee?" Bikky had practiced the phone call several times, knowing that Ryo would not let him off of the hook so easily. His friends had helped him think of reasons why it would work and why it would be so much better than spending time at home. "That way I'll get to see my friends and you wont have to worry about something happening to me. I'm sure that he misses you."

"Bikky, something happened, ok. He came up to visit me and we got in a huge fight. I ended up telling him that I hated him and never wanted to see him again. I don't think that he wants to hear from me right now. I'm really sorry that this wont work out, but there is nothing that I can do." On the other end of the line Bikky bit his lip, thinking of any way to make it work. He had not expected this.

"Um...ok. If that wont work, can I spend spring break with a friend of mine? He invited me to his house and I told him that I would ask if the New York thing didn't work out." Bikky looked over at his friends, knowing that it was a lie. There was still once chance, however tiny, that he would be able to go to New York.

"That's alright, just call whenever you get there so that I know you are safe. I have to go get ready for work, I have the afternoon shift."

Bikky heard the sound of a phone hanging up and he quickly hung up as well. He picked it up again and dialed the number for Dee's cell phone. If they weren't talking to one another then the plan might work, if Dee hadn't changed his number anyway.

"Hello, James?" Dee was pleading into the phone hoping to hear the familiar voice.

"No, its Bikky you pervert, and who is James?" Before realizing it, Bikky nearly ruined his chances. "um, I mean hi. Um, spring break is coming up and..."

"You want to know if you can crash here. Does Ryo know about this?" Dee sounded slightly annoyed, though Bikky was not sure why. He decided that it would be better not to ask.

"Yes and no in that order. He thinks that I am spending the break at a friend's house, which isn't really a lie." Bikky crossed his fingers. He knew that there was no reason for Dee to say yes. He was mad at Ryo and he had never been close to Bikky. His only hope was that Dee was still friendly with Carol and would agree for her sake.

"Sure, but you have to get here yourself, I'll pick you up at the airport but I'm not paying for airfare, got it? Oh, and you have to tell Ryo. I don't want him to blame me for this." Dee mumbled his words, glad that he did not have to go into details about the fight, he assumed that Bikky had already heard that they had some sort of argument.

"Thanks! I swear that I wont call you a pervert the entire time that I'm there!"
ok, this is the end of this chapter. Hope you liked it. Thanks again to my awesome beta! Thanks to all of my reviewers! Thanks to all of my stalkers! (Ok, haven't gotten one of those yet but I'm in the market.) Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we shall die!

NOTE TO ANYONE READING FINDING OUT: my story, although awesome, is finished. There is no tenth chapter, there wasn't even going to be a ninth chapter. Someone mentioned a sequel, you are giving me ideas! That might be next in the works, I have to finish this first. At the moment I am predicting Drowning in the Rain to be about nine or ten chapters long. Possibly an epilog too.