::DISAPPEAR:: - by Dutchess Murasaki

Disclaimer: I dun own YYH by Toshihiro Togashi, Disappear by Hoobastank, Simple and Clean by Utada Hikaru, Break by Linkin Park, My Immortal, Going Under and Taking Over Me by Evanescence.

::DISAPPEAR::

You fool - you enslave me and you don't even know it. You constantly tease me with the looks you throw my way, and you don't even know how much damage you do to me at times.

We've done it all together. We've had our bad times. We've made friends and lost them over the years... I've known you since I can remember, ... and I know that you will hold a special place in my heart, and you know it as well.

When I see you, with your head in your arms in the corner at the cafeteria those mornings before classes begin, I think, Will you ever be mine?

When you playfully tear at my heart, with your smiles that only the two of us know what they really mean, I ponder, Will you ever want to be mine?

And when you glare your hardest at me to stop poking the sides of you, which makes me laugh even harder, I wonder, Will you stop playing hard to get already?

You've always humored me, except when you're truly hurt. That rips at my heart in ways that I wish it would never tear.

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Do you know, that every time you're near

Everybody else seems far away

So can you come and make them disappear

Make them disappear and we can stay

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You've always been there, for years (only when I went away, and for the longest I truly left was around four months) and I have a feeling that you'll continue to be there until I realize that we need to go our separate ways.

We've always watched the other's back, that is, unless the other was the one going behind it.

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I'm going under… drowning in you…

I'm falling forever… I've got to break through…

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I apotheosize you… you are a God, and should be treated as such. My heart cries rivers when you are hurt in any way, and the river bursts when it is I who unintentionally hurts you.

You are beautiful in every way…

Spiritually, I wish I was half beautiful as you are. You've always completed things before me, and when you are rewarded for it, I envy you… but only faintly.

Physically, I can only pray that I was as strong, as slender, as graceful, as dignified, as elegant… the list goes on for hundreds of miles.

Mentally, I could never even begin to compare us. You are the wiser and more knowledgeable of the two of us, although you would never admit it aloud. Secretly, albeit, we both know of the secrets that only the two of us hold tight in our grasp.

Emotionally, ever since about a year and a half ago, you have been more stable than I. You know it, I know it, and that's all there is to it. Yes, there were times when I was moreso than you… but throughout our lives you have always been the stronger of us.

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When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have…all of me…

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We've kept our distance of the other. When the one needs space, the other respects it, no matter how long it is necessary.

You tease me mercilessly, and you know it. You're constantly putting me through sexual frustration, and you enjoy every second of it... you've no idea how hard it is sometimes to stop myself from jumping you.

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Everything you say to me… takes me one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

I need a little room to breathe… 'cause I'm one step closer to the edge, and I'm about to break.

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When I see you, my body goes into temporary paralysis. It doesn't know how to react, it never does... you just never notice.

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I believe in you

I'll give up everything just to find you

I have to be with you

To live, to breathe, you're taking over me

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When you walk away

You don't hear me say

"Please, oh baby, don't go."

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You endlessly torment me – always commenting on my height, saying things that put naughty images in my mind… and you know it. The latter, anyways.

The fact that you wear boots with heels that are three inches high doesn't help, either.

You've always been one to anger quicker. Especially when someone says that you're letting down your demon side.

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Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning is a little later on

Regardless of warnings, the future doesn't scare me at all, nothing's like before

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You entrance me, Master... you own me, and you don't even know it.

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OWARI