Boys Don't Cry
I would say I'm sorry if I
thought that it would change your mind
Kid Blink sat lonely in his bunk. Staring blankly at the ceiling above. He tried not to think about it so much, but it couldn't be helped. 'I'm in love…' he thought 'I'm in love with Racetrack…' The Idea was totally in conceivable! A boy, in love with another boy! If he were to tell the consequences would be grave. There was so much he wanted to rid his mind of. Perhaps he could devise a plan that would let Racetrack know how he felt. His feelings were mixed. Maybe if he told, it wouldn't be that bad….and Race would accept him?
But I know that this time
I have said too much
Been to unkind
"heya Race!! I thought I would keep ya company at da races today? Wadda ya say?" Blinks hearty was beating at the speed of light as he awaited Races answer.
"Shoa, why not eh? I could use some one to talk to!" Kid blink nearly leaped for joy, but held himself back. The two friends walked and chatted gaily to there destination.
Throughout the day Blink caught himself getting lost in Racetracks dark chocolate eyes. How he longed to express his unconventional passion. Blinks eye slowly caressed every inch of his lovers boyish face. His cute, totally eatable button nose, to his barely noticeable freckles. His admiration would often get interrupted when Race would return a glance and ask "what the hell he was staring at" "Oh nothing … just kinda got lost in thought…" Blink lied.
I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
It was getting late. The sun slowly descending below the horizon as the two boys made their way to the lodging house. Once there, Race stopped by the entrance of the Alley way to put out his cigarette. Now was Blinks chance…
"Hey Race, have you evah been in love with some one…forbidden?"
"Uh…no, sarry can't help ya there…" Race replied.
Blink suddenly had the urge to kiss him, so he did. At first, Race enjoyed the sign of affection, forgetting it was his best friend. The bliss ended when blink slowly forced his tongue into Races mouth. Pulling back in disgust, Racetrack gawked at his friend.
Blink tried to save himself " Race! I can explain, just listen-"
"What the hell is wrong with you!? You KISSED ME!!!!" Kid Blink pulled back at his harsh tone. Ata loss for words, Race pulled his hair in frustration.
"Race…I think I'm well, in love…with you"
"In wit ME?! You have GOT to be kiddin' me! So all this time you were just bein' my friend so you could…do THAT?! Do me a favor and nevah come near me again! UUGH!" Appalled, he stormed into the lodging house.
Utterly heartbroken, Kid Blink shuffled into the alley way and plopped himself onto a box. He didn't feel welcome in the lodge tonight.
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
Cause boys don't cry
Salty liquid attempted to break free from his eye, he merely blinked them away. His heart ached, as he contemplated his worth in life. The only person he had ever loved, thought he was a nasty, vile creature and shunned him. What else was there to live for? A small whimper escaped his chapped lips as he lay his head on the cold cobble stone.
Ever since that night, Race never spoke nor looked at Kid Blink. And Blinks heart slowly faded into nothing. He was breathing but barley alive. A friendship was forever broken.
I would tell you that I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that's its too late
And you've already gone away
I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
Cause boys don't cry
"..Boys don't cry.."