Ok well I have been meaning to update this for a while now and I have finally gotten around to it. As of this exact moment in time 1239 people have viewed this fic in total 800 for chapter one and 439 for chapter two yet only 17 bothered to leave behind a review. That is 1222 people who could not be bothered to leave a review. It is stuff like this that will kill a writer's mood. I am glad people are reading it but I would be ever so much happier if people would leave something as a review even a flame.
Oh well what can one do? For all you people with brains enough to submit a review this is for you. After all everything I do I do for my reviewing readers not the brainless masses. Gomen nashi to all of you who had to wait for this to get updated I was all my fault. Will you forgive me?
WarNingS: Pretty much the same as the last two chapters. What do you people want from me? Add ons: Some Kagome suffering, and finally getting into some of the good stuff.
Aishi Say
"Come what may. Come what may. I will love you until my dieing day." From the song 'Come What May.' Performed by Ewan McGregor & Nicole Kidman. It is a song form a Yaoi music video I downloaded.
"Kagome honey how's the studying coming?" Kagome's mother asked as she opened the door to her daughter's room.
"Not too bad Mom. Oh look it's dark already?!" Kagome answered looking up and out her window her left fist still in the air.
"Well of course it is sweetie you've been studying since that early dinner you had. Don't you think you deserve a break?" The older women asked sweetly with a smile.
"I guess you have a point mom." Kagome admitted chin in her hands staring absently at her wall.
"Good. Here have some of this yummy chocolate cake I made while I go run you a nice hot bath." Kagome's mother said as she set a plate and fork down on the desk beside her schoolwork.
"You're the best mom!" Kagome beamed up at her taking the fork in one hand other moving the books and papers.
"Oh I know. Enjoy." The older women teased before walking out.
"I will." Kagome called smiling taking a bite. "MMM! Too bad I can't share this with the gumi. I'll just mom to make one for the trip back." She glanced up at the darker then normal sky fork still in her mouth. -Poor Inuyasha I wish there was something I could do to cheer him up but I really don't think cake will do it no matter how good it is. I hope he's ok.- A shooting star caught her eye. -Please let Inuyasha find some sort of happiness tonight?- She toke another bite of cake and allowed her mind to wander as she enjoyed the sweet dark confection.
"Kagome!" Her mother called as she swallowed the last bite.
"Coming Mom!" Kagome called setting the fork down and moving to her dresser.
Inuyasha sighed as he stared up into the star filled sky. "And what are ye thinking of Inuyasha?" Kaede asked as she looked up at him with her one good eye.
"Nothin' ye old hag." Inuyasha muttered in reply.
Kaede shook her head. "The others are resting. That is 'cept the young monk." She informed the moodier then usual Inuyasha.
Inuyasha blinked. "Miroku?!" He asked looking down.
"Aye I am sure he is around somewhere. Ye may want to look but this old bones need their rest." Kaede answered with a nod.
"Yeah sure thanks." Inuyasha muttered absently -Where in the Hells would he go this late? Damn that monk.-
"Goodnight Inuyasha." Kaede said boding at him slightly.
"Night Kaede." Kaede watched him as he dropped form 'his' tree and wandered off. She smiled to herself before entering her home.
"Who are you and why are you here?" Inuyasha growled at the shadow knelt before the shrine where Kikyou had rested until recently hand on his hilt.
"Come now Inuyasha are your human eyes really that bad?" Miroku teased not turning to face him.
"Miroku?!" Inuyasha gaped as Miroku stood and turned. "Why are you here?" He demanded though it was obvious to those not confused.
"Are you saying I am not allowed to be here?" Miroku asked solemnly he had never asked before if Inuyasha liked anyone there except Kaede.
"Well…I…why are you here?" Inuyasha asked again not really sure how he felt.
"Just praying." Miroku answered simply.
Inuyasha blinked. "For Kikyou?!" Miroku nodded. "Why would you do that?" Inuyasha asked after all Miroku did not know Kikyou all that well just stories really.
Miroku smiled amused by Inuyasha's obvious confusion. "I am a monk Inuyasha it is my job to try and easy other's suffering. I know Kikyou is suffering so I prayed for her." He sighed. "A small gesture but it is all I can do at the moment for her."
Inuyasha blinked again. "Do you think it will help her?" He asked he had never been one of much faith.
"I am unsure." Miroku admitted softly. " I am sorry I should have asked first." He apologized bowing his head
Inuyasha shook his head. "No Miroku that was very sweet of you. How…how do you pray?" He asked after all he had seen both Miroku and Kikyou do it often but he have never really asked about it.
Miroku smiled. "It is quite simple." He held out his hand. "Come here and I shall teach you?"
Inuyasha toke Miroku's hand and allowed him to pull him close. "I'm not a Shinto or a Buddhist." He reminded him.
"That is alright Inuyasha." Miroku assured him gently. "You can place your hands together or just hold up one." Inuyasha placed both his hands together and bowed his head. "Good now just asked for what you want?"
"Is that all?! I don't need to chant or burn something?" Inuyasha asked surprised.
Miroku chuckled. "No we damn holy people do that so we look important." Inuyasha smiled. "You don't have to say it out loud if you do not want to."
Inuyasha nodded. "So just think of what I want? Alright I can do that." He was aware of Miroku kneeling right hand up lips moving silently and he smiled at him closing his own eyes. -Please let Kikyou find the peace that was denied her even if it means I must die at her hands? All I ask is that you let me see Naraku's dieing face first? That is all I ask for?- Silver eyes opened when he heard Miroku stand.
"Did that bring you any peace?" Miroku asked softly.
Inuyasha nodded. "Actually yes it did. Thank you."
"Think nothing of it my friend. So why did you come up here?" Miroku asked wondering if he wanted to be alone.
"Kaede said you weren't sleeping with the others." Inuyasha answered sitting on the shrine's steps back against the wall. "I was worried so I went looking for you."
"It was not my attention to worry you." Miroku informed him looking down at him.
"Yeah I know. You can sit to you know?" Inuyasha informed him looking up.
"Is that an invitation?" Miroku asked tone amused.
"Yes now sit." Inuyasha answered shaking his head at him.
Miroku grinned as he sat down. "So why don't you sleep in this form?" He asked knowing Inuyasha wanted to talk.
"I don't want to. It's bad enough I feel things." Inuyasha informed him frowning.
"Oh like what?" Miroku asked interested.
"Stuff you humans feel. We Youkai do not feel such useless emotions." Inuyasha reminded him. Youkai felt the same emotion just differently at lest that was how Inuyasha saw it.
"Perhaps that is why we fight each other?" Miroku suggested frowning in thought.
"Well maybe." Inuyasha turned his head when Miroku yawned. "You ok?" He asked it had been a few days since their last battle but they had been on the road for a while before that.
"Hum? Oh I'm fine just tired is all. We humans need more sleep then you Youkai." Miroku assured him with a friendly smile.
"Well then go to sleep I'll look after you." Inuyasha assures him seeing no reason for him to stay awake if he was tired.
Miroku sighed head against the shrine wall. "That is very comforting but you are not as intimidating as a mere mortal." He teased in his normal easy going manner.
"Oh shut up you're hardly mere." Inuyasha reminded him with a frown.
Miroku smiled. "We damn holy people rarely are." He teased but still making a good point.
Inuyasha sighed closing his eyes for a moment-Why do I feel so happy right now? I shouldn't but part of me does.- He glance at Miroku who had already fallen asleep. -It's all your fault isn't it? Because you've been so nice to me? Why anyway? I'm not some pretty girl to amuse you for a night or whatever so why? Tell me why?- Miroku sighed softly lips parting ever so slightly. Inuyasha reached out and stoked his cheek shivering at the soft warmth under his clawless fingertips. He pulled them way as if he had been burned. -Why are you doing this to me?-
"Tell me Kagome how does it feel? How does it feel to have stolen my life?" Kikyou demanded arrow posed and ready to strike.
Kagome backed up against the Go-shinboku hands on the bark. "I didn't!" She protested shaking her head long dark hair whipping around.
"Didn't what? Steal my life or mean to?" Kikyou half growled half spat her sprit gathers snaking threw the air around her like angry serpents. "Well out with it little girl I have eternity but you do not."
-Inuyasha save me!- Kagomepleaded silently wincing while pulling Inuyasha's red shirt tightly around herself. -I do not want to die like this! It's almost suicide!-
"Kikyou don't!" Inuyasha called dropping in front of the archeress.
"Inuyasha?!" Both girls cried as he landed between the arrow and Kagome.
Inuyasha walked up to Kikyou taking the bow and arrow form her. "Kikyou I just can't let you kill Kagome."
Kagome smiled taking a few steps form the Go-shinboku. "Oh Inuyasha I knew you'd come for me." She gushed only to blink when she opened her eyes at the sound of a bowstring going taut. "Inuyasha?!"
Inuyasha ignore her aiming. "Beloved?" Kikyou asked walking up to his side. "What are you doing?" She asked hand on his arm looking up at him clearly confused.
"I am setting you free. One soul cannot exist as two people at the same time so I made a choice. I want you Kikyou not this shadow of you." Inuyasha answered turning to meet Kikyou's questioning gaze.
Kikyou smiled placing her hands on Inuyasha's white-sleeved arm. "In that case beloved allow me to help you?" She offered.
"No, this is something I have to do alone." Inuyasha informed her before turning to face Kagome.
Kagome stared at him tears flowing lip and body trembling. "But why? I thought you loved me?" She half demanded half pleaded at him.
"I am sorry Kagome but you don't belong here you never did. I can't live in your world and you can't live in mine. You had to know that?" Inuyasha stated softly golden eyes gentle and apologetic.
"But you don't have to do this? I can just leave like before? Please?" Kagome pleaded backing up arms out back touching the tree's rough bark.
"Good bye Kagome." Inuyasha whispered sadly letting the arrow fly.
Kagome opened her eyes with a soft gasp hand on her heart. "Inuyasha." She stood and walked to her window eyes watching the still sleeping world around her. -Why did I see such a terrible thing? Do I really feel that guilty about Kikyou? Am I really just a replacement Kikyou to Inuyasha? No I'm nothing like her…am I?-
Inuyasha opened his eyes with a start. He turned to look at Miroku who was still sleeping peacefully beside him earrings glinting in the light of almost dawn. Inuyasha toke his face in his hands staring at it blinking when the blood he had seen from his dream appeared leaving red stains on soft skin. -Gods what is this?- He blinked when the face started to cool also like in his dream. -Miroku no come back! Don't leave me alone? I don't want to be all alone!- Inuyasha cried silently eyes closed with out thinking he pressed his lips to Miroku's. He blinked when soft lips returned his gentle gesture though unconsciously.
Inuyasha pressed harder as black faded back to white as the sun rose. The chirping of birds caught Inuyasha attention as his ears twitched. He pulled away from Miroku blushing a few shades lighter then his clothes, but only a few. -Why did I…? Oh yeah that dream.- He glance at Miroku who's head now rested on his shoulder. Flashes of the tatter corpse falling into his arms haunted his mind as he closed his eyes. Miroku moaned softly as he leaned closer right hand curling into the cloth of Inuyasha's pant leg. Inuyasha slipped an arm around his shoulders. -You can lay like this for a little while but as soon as I sense life down there it's over.-
"Inuyasha?" Miroku whispered getting Inuyasha's attention.
"Yeah what?" Inuyasha asked looking down at him.
"Mmm…warm." Miroku murmured not answering his question.
"Shut up." Inuyasha whispered softly clawed fingers gently curling into much darker robes then those of their owner.
Ok I am ending it yet again. I know and I'm sorry but that is it for now. If you want more then go to my account and read another fic I have 77 now! If not then just leave a review and pray enough others do to so this will get updated some time before Halloween.
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