Wow I last updated this fic back when I only had 77 stories?! Time sure does fly hun? Ok so I am just in the low 80's now but still. Gomen for neglecting this fic for so long. You people should have yelled. Any way here it is chapter 4 in all it's brand new chapter glory. Consider shades people.
WarNingS: Same old same old. Add Ons: Am enjoying myself too much. Am considering pairing Kagome with Sango in the next chapter.
DISCLAIMER: Kyosuke Date, pronounced like that peak in the movie with the volcano, is from an anime called The Soul Taker or just Soul Taker form Anime Unleashed on Tech TV. It is a dark bloody angst ridden show with Quatre's, Gundam Wing, playing a kind heart boy who must kill and return the souls of the dead to their rest. Kickass show by the way!
Aishi Say
"All I ever wanted. All I ever needed…" I love this remix but I can't remember the song's name or anything. It's by something Mode that's really all I know but still love. If you know the song you'll get why it fits.
Inuyasha sighed softly resting his check on Miroku's soft hair eyes half closing. He felt so peaceful it confused him. Miroku's solid warmth in his arms just felt so good even though he knew it should not. After all Miroku liked beautiful women not men no matter how beautiful they might be. True Miroku loved to tease him and his soft voice had consoled him on many sleepless nights but they were only friends. Inuyasha allowed himself to doze off not really in the mood to think right now.
Lady Kaede walked up the many stairs to the shrine eyes closed thought focused. She only opened them when she reached the top only to stare wide eyed in mute surprise for a long moment. Miroku was curled up in Inuyasha's arms head on his chest left arm resting in Inuyasha's lap his right across his own. His young face contently serene lips slightly parted. Inuyasha had his arms loosely around the peacefully sleeping monk cheek on soft looking dark hair his own white hair pooled on dark cloth some caught under Miroku's cheek. -Well now this is unexpected.- Kaede frowned for a moment debating waking them or not. Inuyasha she knew, quite well by now, never slept on a Shingetsu by choice so he needed his sleep Miroku she assumed had stayed up later the usual talking with the sleepless Inuyasha and would also need his sleep. -Just like children not a care in the world.- Kaede thought shaking her head as the winds played with her long hair.
White ears twitch as Inuyasha sniffed opening his eyes blinking at Kaede. "You?!" Inuyasha gasped lifting his head.
"And a good morrow to ye as well Inuyasha." Kaede greeted with a nod.
"It's not what it looks like." Inuyasha explained quickly use to Kagome jumping to conclusions.
"Well now what is it then? All I see is two friends who fell sleep on a chilly night. Please enlighten me Inuyasha what were ye two really doing?" Kaede asked voice amused.
Inuyasha blinked. -That sounds about right.- "Ok…maybe it is what it looks like." He admitted.
"I thought as much. Take the young monk home would ye I have chants to perform and I do not wish to wake him." Kaede gently ordered.
"Oh sure no problem." Inuyasha agreed scooping Miroku up not disturbing him in the slightest. "See ya around lunch right?" He asked.
"Aye now get going." Kaede answered turning.
"Ja." Inuyasha called as he headed down the stairs.
-At least she dosen't know…know what? That I kissed him or that I want to do it again?- Inuyasha turned his golden gaze on the sleeping Miroku in his arms and he smiled in spite of himself. The 'older' youth was curled up against him like some overgrown neko paw on his shoulder. -Just what am I going to about this…and you?- Miroku moaned softly rubbing his cheek against his chest. -I wish I could stay like this forever with you save in my arms but that's impossible. Why…why must I feel this way? I have two suitors already and you have Sango according to Kagome…so why do I want to spend my time with you?- "Someone tell me why?"
Shippo half opened an eyes when he heard someone enter the house he relaxed when he saw it was only Inuyasha. -Why is he carrying Miroku? Was he hurt?- The little kitsune sniffed before relaxing. -He must just be sleeping.- Shippo watched Inuyasha gently lay Miroku down before covering him. He blinked when Inuyasha ran his clawed fingertips down Miroku's cheek getting a soft moan from slightly parted lips. "Miroku I…I can't even tell you when you can't hear me I'm so pathetic." Inuyasha muttered clawed fists shaking eyes squeezed shut. "Why must I feel this way?" He demanded to no one as fell forward hands bracing him before he hit the floor. Golden eyes looked up at Miroku as he moved to knell beside him. "Miroku…" Inuyasha whispered softly before leaning forward and gently kissing him. "I'm sorry." He stood and walked out leaving Shippo to wander just what was going on.
Kagome sighed as she sunk a little lower into the tub's pleasantly hot water. -It was just a dream. You feel for Kikyou that is all after all she has had a rough time and now being resurrected. Dead humans should never be resurrected they aren't supposed to be resurrected. That's what Kyosuke Date said and he has a point every time I've seen it on TV all the person gets is pain. I am Kikyou but I'm not maybe that is the only way people are meant to be reborn with out the pain of the past? If Kikyou had come back and not known who she was could she be happy? Is she meant to be happy? If not does that mean I'm not either? Inuyasha still loves her but can he love me while she lives? If she dies will I just become a replacement Kikyou for him? I need to go back today and figure this all out. It will be better to know once and for all where I stand…I have to know.-
"Shouldn't you be sleeping Inuyasha? If Kagome comes home today won't you want to get back on Naraku's' trail?" Sango asked frowning up at Inuyasha.
"Knowing here she'll bring a ton of junk and we'll have to go through it like always so if she comes back today we won't be able to leave till tomorrow anyway." Inuyasha answered arms sill behind his head.
"True but why are you still awake? Restless?" Sango asked knowing the feeling.
Inuyasha closed his eyes remembering the soft sweetness of Miroku's lips and the way he had felt when he heard his soft moan. -Stop it all right? I know already.- "Nah just a lot on my mind. Don't worry about it half the time Kagome's late by a day anyway."
"Well I am going to the clearing to do a little training would you care to join me?" Sango offered she rather enjoyed sparing with her friends and Inuyasha looked a little tense.
"Sure Sango let's play before breakfast." Inuyasha called dropping form one of many of 'his' trees. -This will help me clear my mind.-
Miroku half open his eyes placing soft fingertips to his lips before sitting up looking around. -What a strange dream…pleasant but very strange.- Dark brown eyes narrowed slightly in thought. -Where is he anyway?- "Inuyasha?"
"Oh you're awake good morning Miroku." Shippo greeted with his normal cheerfulness.
"Morning. Where are the others?" Miroku asked noticing Sango was gone as well. -How late did I sleep anyway?-
"Sparring. I saw them when I went to help Lady Kaede. Is something wrong Miroku?" Shippo asked frowning.
"Now why would you ask that little one?" Miroku inquired ruffling spiky red hair.
Shippo laughed. "You just look…confused." He admitted.
Miroku blinked before smiling. "It is nothing just random thoughts." He assured his little friend.
"Oh ok. Miroku can we go take some food to Sango and Inuyasha? They must be hungry and tired by now?" Shippo asked. Miroku smiled knowing his little friend was a buddle of energy half the time. "Oh please Miroku you can carry more then me?" The kokitsune pleaded eyes large and wavering.
"Come now little one put those eyes away you don't need them. Let's get going before Inuyasha gets cross?" Shippo smiled at Miroku's teasing tone now sure his friend was fine.
"Mornin' Miroku, Shippo. The child asked me to prepare some food for our warrior friends these baskets Kagome brought are most useful." Kaede greeted the two of them entering her home.
"Many thanks my lady." Miroku said taking the basket with a smile.
"It was nothing there is plenty there so no one will go hungry. Shippo you carry the tea alright?" Kaede asked holding out the two thermoses.
"Sure!" Shippo agreed taking them running past the two older holy people. "Come on Miroku lets go!"
Miroku laughed shaking his head. "In a moment!" He called. "Lady Kaede…"
"Inuyasha explained what happened last night so do not ye worry." Kaede assured him.
Miroku blinked. "Last night?" He asked confused.
"Aye last night. I found ye two sleeping at the shrine. Ye two really should talk elsewhere so late it gets rather cold up there at night as you now know." Kaede informed him confused by his confusion. "Do ye not remember falling asleep with him?"
"I remember falling asleep but he was awake. He must have dozed off after he changed back." Miroku reasoned with a shrug. "Thank you again Lady Kaede but I must go before Shippo worries again." Kaede watched him walk off Shippo running up to him yapping excitedly as he ran around him getting a laugh form the monk. -Again? I must have a talk with the child.-
"Hold Sango I guess I'm more beat then I thought." Inuyasha panted sitting down sword at his side. Sango nodded sitting down as well leaning against Kilala tiredly.
"FOUND THEM!" Shippo cried jumping up the slight hill to land between the two sweaty warriors getting them both to sit up with a start.
"What are you yellin' about runt?" Inuyasha demanded frowning at him. Sango only smiled at Shippo who was still jumping up and down.
"Shippo clam down honestly how mach sugar did you have this morning?" Miroku asked setting the basket down and picking Shippo up. "Hmm?" -Miroku?!- Inuyasha just started at the monk not sure if he could face him yet but not really given much of a choice.
"The last of my stash since she's coming back. Put me down Miroku I'll be good honest." Shippo assured him wiggling.
"Very well but set the tea down before you go running off again alright?" Miroku asked.
"Alright." Shippo agreed with a nod setting the down when Miroku set him down before running around arms out.
"Kids will be kids. You two really didn't have to come out here we would have made it home by lunch." Sango assured the frowning monk with a smile.
"Oh I know it was all Shippo and Lady Kaede's doing I just got pulled along." Miroku sighed sitting down near Inuyasha but not that close. "Did you two have fun?" He asked looking at Sango.
Sango smiled as she walked over and sat down across from him opening the basket. "Oh yes. Look at all of this?! Inuyasha come over here and eat." She said looking up at the hanyou.
Inuyasha sighed but flopped down he was hungry and Miroku seemed to be focused on Sango not him so he let himself relax. "So do you think Kagome will bother coming home today?" He asked hoping to distract his mind with thoughts of the beautiful women who wanted to be with him rather then the beautiful man he felt drawn to.
"Well she didn't leave mad so there is a fair chance she will be on time." Miroku answered fingers near his lips. "Of course she may just sleep in and completely forget all about us."
"Miroku stop that really she has a lot to deal with." Sango chided gently slapping his arm getting a laugh. "Her school seems most difficult. She must be doing poorly." Sango sighed before taking a bite.
"It's her own fault for going in between. If she would stay here we could collect all the shards much faster and then she could focus on these exams of hers." Inuyasha muttered before he began to eat to. He glanced at Miroku who looked pensive as he often did.-I wonder what he's thinking about so intently?-
"Perhaps Inuyasha but lately we have found nothing what is the point of her staying here when we can do nothing?" Miroku asked voice sympathetic to Kagome he to hated to feel useless.
"Miroku's right she cannot simply forget her world while we hunt it could take years even if we could find shards everyday. Neither we nor Naraku have found them all once he is dead there well still be more searching." Sango reminded him.
"I know Sango but can she really keep this up for years? A year, half a year, another month? No one can live two lives forever and that is what she trying to do." Inuyasha informed her frowning. This was a problem no one was addressing and they had to face it sometime.
"Just as one cannot live in the past and the present." Sango reminded him bringing up his personal problems.
"That's my business!" Inuyasha snapped
"Not when it effects all of us it's not! You're obsession with Kikyou has put us all in danger time and time again and you constantly." Sango shot back standing.
"Oh and what about you and Kohaku? When will you betray us again for him? I may not think clearly when it comes to Kikyou but a least I haven't betrayed anyone for her!" Inuyasha growled standing he was confused and frustrated enough he did not need this.
Sango raised her fist blinking when she hit Miroku's arm. "Miroku?!" She whispered in surprise.
"Both of you just stop! This is pointless and I will stand it no longer!" Miroku shouted at both of them eyes closed.
"Miroku move!" Sango ordered.
Dark brown eyes turned to her narrow and changeling. "If you want to hit him hit me first the same goes for him. This will stop now." Miroku promised her voice a low growl. Sango toke a step away from him before turning and running off Shippo running after her with Kilala.
"Miroku?" Inuyasha asked reaching a hand for him.
"I am lucky I have no one in my past that Naraku can resurrect and use against me only the living. She should not have brought up Kikyou and you should not have brought up Kohaku. Why is everyone so on edge today?" Miroku sighed softly looking up. "Is it Naraku's doing or our own?"
"Miroku a lot has happen to us recently and we haven't had time to short it all out yet. Perhaps it is best we aren't hunting jewel shards right now everyone is too out of it to fight and not get hurt." Inuyasha admitted softly. "So I guess it is both. Poor Kagome is going to come home to mess."
"Inuyasha why did you really seek me out last night?" Miroku asked turning to face him long dark robes fluttering with red sleeves in the wind. "Was it really just to make sure I was alright?"
"I wanted to be with someone last night…someone I could trust and talk to." Inuyasha admitted looking away. "But I also was concern about you. You seemed a little distant yesterday why?" He asked wondering if there was anything troubling the young monk.
"I was only thinking Inuyasha not really of anything just letting my mind wander where it may. It helps me think actually." Miroku laughed. "Shippo was worried about me to. I guess I should just stop thinking for a few days. What do you think Inuyasha?" He teased grinning.
"Oh just shut up I'm tired alright? Not enough sleep then all of this I'm too tired to play with you right now." Inuyasha apologized normally he enjoyed their playful fighting but right down he just was not up for it. He blinked when Miroku slug his right arm over his shoulders with a smile. "Miroku what…?"
"If you are tired then you should go lay down. It's alright Inuyasha I'll help you." Miroku smiled again and Inuyasha swallowed unable to yell at him. The last thing he needed was Miroku this close the last thing he wanted was for him to let him go. "You must be exhausted not even a growl?" Inuyasha allowed himself to smile at the gentle teasing before growling slightly. "Much better. Now to bed with you." Inuyasha sighed closing his eyes. -When I see Sango again I'll apologize after all she knows how I am she's a lot like me. Everything will work out once we all cool down. Does Kagome feel like this when I help her? How does she stand it?-
Kagome smiled as she kicked her feet back and for the breakfast over she was just taking a moment to enjoy the last of her nice hot tea since it may be a while until her next peaceful moment. "Kagome dear did you pack everything?"
"Yes mom I left it all by the well even the cake. I won't be back for a while so don't worry." Kagome assured her finishing her tea. "Bye now!" Kagome cried running off before her mother could say another word. -Ok I hope nothing bad happened while I was away. Knowing my luck something happened something always does.- Kagome sighed as she walked. -Sometimes I whish they could all come here and not just Inuyasha. They would love it and it would take their minds off of everything. Oh Inuyasha please be happy right now? I don't want to come home to you all depressed.- She looked up at the old tree as she always did. -Please?-
Inuyasha fell suddenly to his knees taking Miroku with him. "Gomen." He whispered looking down at Miroku who was now lying before him rubbing his head. "Did I hurt you?" Inuyasha asked concerned.
"No, the floor did." Miroku answered sitting up. "I'm fine what about you?" He asked dark eyes studying the hanyou concerned it was not like Inuyasha to just collapse like that. He had not been that badly hurt during the last battle so he should be all right. "Inuyasha?"
Inuyasha looked up eyes half closed he felt so very weak all he wanted to do was collapse against the monk even if it nock him to the floor again. He wanted to be held to forget everything even if it was just for a moment but his body and mind were fighting each other. "Miroku…" Inuyasha whispered unable to say anything but the other's name.
"Inuyasha were you poisoned or something?" Miroku asked confused by the strange faraway look in Inuyasha's eyes. Inuyasha looked up before shaking his head slowly. "Are you really this tired?" Inuyasha nodded he was worn out both mental and physically all he wanted to do was collapse against Miroku even if it meant knocking the other to the floor again. He wanted to be held, to just forget everything if only for a precious moment. "Oh Inuyasha." Miroku whispered softly voice pained. "Why did you do this to yourself?" He demanded trembling.
Inuyasha closed his eyes he had not meant to worry his friend. "Miro…" He whispered falling against him cheek on his chest red and white clad from slumped in his lap hands slipping slowly down his arms. Inuyasha moaned softly the scent of the monk was so intoxicating even as he fell asleep he could feel the desire to hold him close.
Miroku sat there for a moment fore lowering his head and holding Inuyasha to him. "Oh Inuyasha why…why?"
The end…again…this cliffhanger crap must be getting really old by now hun? Well if more of you readers would review these chapters would get down faster you know. Oh well you have no one to blame but…well ok you can blame me but hey I just write the stuff alright? This fic is so depressing…go fig hun? Oh well so it the show at times so I guess it all works out. Please be honest in your reviews let me have it I can take it. I am a neko you know we land on our feet keke.
For those that care we had to put our dog Tobias, Toby for short, down today so I will be pouring my pain into writing so there should be more updates soon.
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