Chapter 10
Gojyo threw his arm around Goku's shoulders, rubbing his knuckles against the top of the youth's head. "So, you spent the night at his house, huh? Did anything special happen?" he teased with a wide grin and a wink.
Scowling, Goku pulled away and continued to stare out of his bedroom window at nothing in particular. Gojyo frowned, withdrawing his arm and shifting so that he was sitting across the bed from the other. "What's up?" he asked, a little surprised. His recovered memories held very little of a downcast Goku. Even this older, more serious version still had that enthusiastic spark that was presently missing.
"I don't know what happened. The day went fine, considering, and I spent the night on the couch. The next morning, he told me that it would probably be best that I left. Other than that, I couldn't get more than a few words out of him before I was forced to leave," Goku sighed, his gaze turning to the clenched hands in his lap.
"Well, it is Sanzo that we're talking about. Maybe he's worried about feeling too much for you. I mean, if they guy actually let you into his home and let you sleep on his couch, it's obvious he feels something for you. He's never gone out of his way for anyone," Gojyo pointed out.
Goku gave him an insulted look. "He does care about other people! He's just not as quick to show it," he defended, and Gojyo resisted the urge to smile. It was true, although it took a hell of a lot to see it in the reborn monk.
"Still, he's always made certain he didn't care too much," Gojyo was forced to reply.
Goku's eyes shifted away. "You don't know anything," he almost whispered.
Gojyo closed his eyes and nodded to himself. Goku's affection was obvious, and the shift in their relationship had been subtle but noticable. However, a part of Gojyo had always wondered if Sanzo had really cared for Goku. Gojyo, above all others, knew what it was like to dip into physical pleasure while leaving his true emotions locked away. That was, until Hakkai, of course.
He cared for Goku, like a younger brother that he loved to tease, but would protect to the death. The same went for Sanzo. He wanted the two of them to be happy together, as he'd known they were way back then, when they'd tried hopelessly to keep it a secret.
The door whispered open and Gojyo looked up to see Hakkai standing there, a tempting figure in tight leather pants and a sheer dress shirt. Unlike Gojyo, Hakkai hadn't remembered his previous life from the begining of this new one. When the crimson haired youth had met the other, 'Masaki' had been an aspiring artist. One who's talent had still gone unnoticed, and so he was struggling to pay bills and make ends meet. Plagued by memories of a love he'd never quite understood, Gojyo had found he had no choice but to invite the other man under his wing. He provided Hakkai with a home and food, giving the young man the break he needed to spend his money on his talent.
It had only taken a few months for them to become lovers. A few months after that remarkable day, Hakkai finally remembered. Their spirits were too strong, their souls too connected to that all around them for such strong memories to remain unknown.
Goku might think that he didn't understand. Then again, Gojyo had never told him or anyone else how much Hakkai actually meant to him. And how heartwrenching it had been to wait and wait for the other to remember who he truely was. Even to Hakkai himself, Gojyo had never been able to voice the words to describe what he felt in his heart for the other man.
"I don't know why Sanzo does anything. You are the only one who really knows him. Don't look back for even one second. It may be a rough ride. But once he knows what you mean to him, whether he remembers being Genjo Sanzo or not, you two will have a lifetime to be happy together."
***
Goku gave a sad smile as he caught the kiss Gojyo and Hakkai shared just before the door slipped shut behind them. However, the smile died as he recalled the words that the other had spoken.
Perhaps they had meant to comfort him, but that wasn't the effect they had. It had only served to remind Goku, yet again, that one day Sanzo would pass on. And he would have to search again.
to be continued
Hiyo from Aqua
I'm desperately looking for a beta reader for my fics and my orginal works! If anyone is interested, please email me at aqua95@hotmail.com! Thanks ^_^
Gojyo threw his arm around Goku's shoulders, rubbing his knuckles against the top of the youth's head. "So, you spent the night at his house, huh? Did anything special happen?" he teased with a wide grin and a wink.
Scowling, Goku pulled away and continued to stare out of his bedroom window at nothing in particular. Gojyo frowned, withdrawing his arm and shifting so that he was sitting across the bed from the other. "What's up?" he asked, a little surprised. His recovered memories held very little of a downcast Goku. Even this older, more serious version still had that enthusiastic spark that was presently missing.
"I don't know what happened. The day went fine, considering, and I spent the night on the couch. The next morning, he told me that it would probably be best that I left. Other than that, I couldn't get more than a few words out of him before I was forced to leave," Goku sighed, his gaze turning to the clenched hands in his lap.
"Well, it is Sanzo that we're talking about. Maybe he's worried about feeling too much for you. I mean, if they guy actually let you into his home and let you sleep on his couch, it's obvious he feels something for you. He's never gone out of his way for anyone," Gojyo pointed out.
Goku gave him an insulted look. "He does care about other people! He's just not as quick to show it," he defended, and Gojyo resisted the urge to smile. It was true, although it took a hell of a lot to see it in the reborn monk.
"Still, he's always made certain he didn't care too much," Gojyo was forced to reply.
Goku's eyes shifted away. "You don't know anything," he almost whispered.
Gojyo closed his eyes and nodded to himself. Goku's affection was obvious, and the shift in their relationship had been subtle but noticable. However, a part of Gojyo had always wondered if Sanzo had really cared for Goku. Gojyo, above all others, knew what it was like to dip into physical pleasure while leaving his true emotions locked away. That was, until Hakkai, of course.
He cared for Goku, like a younger brother that he loved to tease, but would protect to the death. The same went for Sanzo. He wanted the two of them to be happy together, as he'd known they were way back then, when they'd tried hopelessly to keep it a secret.
The door whispered open and Gojyo looked up to see Hakkai standing there, a tempting figure in tight leather pants and a sheer dress shirt. Unlike Gojyo, Hakkai hadn't remembered his previous life from the begining of this new one. When the crimson haired youth had met the other, 'Masaki' had been an aspiring artist. One who's talent had still gone unnoticed, and so he was struggling to pay bills and make ends meet. Plagued by memories of a love he'd never quite understood, Gojyo had found he had no choice but to invite the other man under his wing. He provided Hakkai with a home and food, giving the young man the break he needed to spend his money on his talent.
It had only taken a few months for them to become lovers. A few months after that remarkable day, Hakkai finally remembered. Their spirits were too strong, their souls too connected to that all around them for such strong memories to remain unknown.
Goku might think that he didn't understand. Then again, Gojyo had never told him or anyone else how much Hakkai actually meant to him. And how heartwrenching it had been to wait and wait for the other to remember who he truely was. Even to Hakkai himself, Gojyo had never been able to voice the words to describe what he felt in his heart for the other man.
"I don't know why Sanzo does anything. You are the only one who really knows him. Don't look back for even one second. It may be a rough ride. But once he knows what you mean to him, whether he remembers being Genjo Sanzo or not, you two will have a lifetime to be happy together."
***
Goku gave a sad smile as he caught the kiss Gojyo and Hakkai shared just before the door slipped shut behind them. However, the smile died as he recalled the words that the other had spoken.
Perhaps they had meant to comfort him, but that wasn't the effect they had. It had only served to remind Goku, yet again, that one day Sanzo would pass on. And he would have to search again.
to be continued
Hiyo from Aqua
I'm desperately looking for a beta reader for my fics and my orginal works! If anyone is interested, please email me at aqua95@hotmail.com! Thanks ^_^